Again

I see the memories being erased

Called to the broken pieces

To connect, to merge

To frame a picture

I remember.

Drifted apart from the

Better or worse

Sway between

What’s real, what’s not

Reach out to you

Stretched my open arms.

What was it?

Where I am from?

Losing my existence

Losing myself

Tears can’t heal the pain

Emptiness, a void

Hollowness of unreal world.

It was gone

Before I could remember it,

for the last time.

It left my sight,

Before I could say goodbye

Or I apologies.

To whom, for what

I didn’t have chance

To be remind.

Incomplete pieces left paused forever

Chapters unwritten,

Unfinished book with untold ending.

It was gone,

Before I noticed it was there

I have lost

Something probably I never had.

A morning so new so bright

I was like a baby,

Abashed, blurry, anxious

The world stopped

Time still

Unknown place

And unknown people.

There was a guy

Charming and handsome

I looked at him

With my confused eyes

Scared, numbed,

No word or no language

To express what I felt inside

My heart was beating so hard

Choked nothing to utter.

He came closer,

He sat by me,

Held my hand

Consciously with a soft touch

I noticed he was so careful

So delicate as he could break me

His hands were so warm,

A comfort in that cold room

His touch was like I have known him

A sudden spark

A current through my veins

Rushing adrenaline trying to wonder

What is it? Why can’t I remember?

He put his other hand on my cheeks

I was drawn, I leaned to him

With all my heart

as I could trusted him.

He said, “Sometimes it’s good

You don’t remember

We leave the past

Like every page was burnt

The load we carried

Now we light our weights

Wiping our tears

We move ahead.

To face my greatest fear

I have known to live in darkness

Past these three months

Losing you every second

Lost you sometimes

And feared its forever.

The man I am

My life I have

What it means

If you aren’t there?

The complains, the fights

The laughter, the smile

The high pitched screams

The hide and seeks.”

With tears rolling his cheek,

He continued saying this,

“Sometimes it’s good

To bury the past

With laughs there comes pain too

The scars dragging you back to agony

Every little fight

Bringing back the worse memories

The mistakes I made

I can’t explain

The choices I stood for

I pay the price everyday”

He moved my hairs from my face

He held my hand a bit tight,

“Sometimes it’s good

To forget what we had,

Sometimes it’s better

To have a new start

But to also collect sweet goodness of past

The moments I can never forget

The memories I cherish everyday

I live to share with you always

To remind you what is love.”

He smiled and kissed my hand,

Like he was lost in his memories

He shared as he said,

“You always told,

You wanted to be a bride,

I was your best friend

You had taken your vows with

But you never knew

What love means

And what it is to be in love.

Sometimes it’s good

To forget all that

To start again with new hopes

We vow to each other

I mend the bridges and the gaps

A life for us to be together

To walk on beaches

To grow old together.”

He opened a velvet box

With a bright rock,

He wiped his tear and knelt

In an awkward position,

“All I ask you today

Will you marry me again?

Give me a chance to show

Forever and always

How immensely I love you,

For eternity with all my heart”