If only I could remember
a moment I was happy the last time
blissful and ignorant of the world around
enjoying my own company
when that turned into solitary
the loneliness haunting
If only I could remember
when pages of life turned
I try to visit the memory lanes
when was the first time
I started struggling
my memory goes back
and keeps continuing
if ever it'll stop
I keep wondering
When was the last time
I was in love
or loved by someone
with honest heart
all I can remember of
going back into the past
of betrayal and of misery
the rejection and feeling discarded
my emotion taken for grant
all I deserved to be treated badly
My memories goes way back
in the past
when did it all start
ever I took a breath of relief?
Question myself,
then I remember,
there is no such memory
I have been always lonely
there was no happiness
but life been a constant struggle
there was no time out or a pause
till now am in a fight
to survive
to gain
only hoping for a memory
that tomorrow I will
find somewhere.
