Forgotten Memories

There is no place of apologies
walking the way to pretend
the life you made up to seem so perfect
its not what it is
its much more than what it seems

Revenge sails everyday
each one here living with
burning grudge against
the closest being even in dismay
despise served on delicious tray
destroy the sole existence
war is on and nothing else matter
if ever you loved me honey
the memories are burnt
and ashes dark carbon.

If you have ever known me
would you doubt my feelings?
If you knew who I am
what I say
would you doubt my meaning?

Did you ever understand
what I am inside
a dragon's heart
stab open my love
truth or not
my corpse is soaked in bloody crimson

Let there be no mercy
no saving grace for my sinful spirit
die die die
and burn in living hell

I turn away to leave your world
my wraith got no place here
I must go away
this is no place for me to exist.

My existence has lost from earth
abandoned, banished, exiled
from everywhere
I fought for my survival
a lost cause
not even left with dirt.

Fire in my heart
I blemish into smoke
swallowing the poison
I prick my wound
My soul may ache inside
there is no way you to find
My doors now shut for all
I am inside this hollowness
and the echos in darkness are mine.

My tears will only burn my eyes
I paid for being real
lets pretend now you don't know me
I know you no more
and nothing to believe.

Turned to ashes, dark and cold
lost existence, with no cause
in vain I bleed
believed in being real
now every faith is gone
the one I was
now I have lost
died and buried
in that dark hole

I leave your world now
Now I be gone
no more on your way
not a liability you serve.
Nothing to understand
not to pretend to care
I never existed
forgotten from heart
washed off from memoirs you had.

Rest in Grave

Pull my tormented soul
Out into the world
And torture it little more
Hit it until it blisters
prick its wound
Make the deadliest fright real
Grab it by hair
To show its ghastliest future.

Pull my torment soul,
let it never rest in grave
Cruse it day by day
Till the wound is sore with pain
Leave with agony
And let it bleed tears that burn

There's no escape
from this brutal faith
Every attempt to crawl out
Kick me back into the pit
Whom to trust whom to not
Who is my ally
Betray like a foe
There is no rest
Visions of haunting dread.

Pull my heart out of my chest
Crush it under feet
Mercilessly.
Where to go
The wall are closing in,
This is dead end
With no goal to go ahead.
No purpose to solve
Nothing to dream of
No life ahead
But rout in hole.
Alone in the dark
Least air to survive
Still made my peace with
until again you come by

You pull me out of darkness
Salvation to my solitude
You my darling my only hope
For sun to shine again
For future to come
For light at the end of the tunnel
Am waiting to break out
Am waiting to escape

You pull my tormented soul
Out into the world
And torture it little more
Hit it until it blisters
prick its wound
Make the deadliest fright real
Grab it by hair
To show its ghastliest future.

The Last Goodbye

I can't hear the sounds
of the music any more
I can't hear your screams
or cries you howl

Everything around me
suddenly been paused
Pull me back
make me feel
the happiness and the sorrows
we feel
call my name
wake me up
'coz this sleep is drifting me

I wanna hear your voice
for the last time
If am gone by gone
I wanna be with you
for the last time.

I wanna feel the pain
that makes me real
my crushed heart
that beats with a sound
now everything is cold
the stillness eating my soul
Wrap me in your arm
make me feel real
love me with your warmth
so my dead heart beat again

I wanna hear your voice
for the last time
If am gone by gone
I wanna be with you
for the last time.

Tell you all I wanna say
call your name
for the last time
let me say Goodbye
that's all I want.

Give me a chance
place me back
a last breadth
to say three words
nothing much
not more time
want no more
a last wish if you may grant.

A last wish you may grant
let me say Goodbye
to the one I love
let my soul be in peace
before I leave this world.

Her Blood is on My Hand

Her Blood is on my hand
I witnessed her turning blue
Lifeless she lay in my arms
If ever I had a chance
If ever I was in time
If ever I had left her behind

Not followed her
Not promised to follow her
"wherever you go my darling,
you're my soul."
If I had not been known her
still so much in love with her.

Her blood is on my hand
I witnessed her turning blue
blood rolling through
"and I couldn't be there
to fix you"

In an instant
in a blink
I lost everything
My hopes and belief
My sole reason to survive
see tomorrow in her smile
then I witnessed her lifeless body
buried under the earth
I witnessed her
turning into a corpse
I saw her fear
I felt it too
to my core heart
chills that froze my toes
I stretched my hand
but couldn't do
each second passed
for million decades
in a blink my life ended

she died making me a corpse
she took my breath and only hope
but she was my strength
to stand on
her faith in me
to carry on.

Her blood is on my hand
I lost her
can't loose her faith
her trust ain't be broken
for I shall forever be
The Amazing spider man.

-- Inspired by departed Gwen in Amazing Spider Man 2