Azrael Awaits Me

  

Am a soul without direction,
unloved and discarded
from perfection,
Hands of mine colored in crimson
unclotted blood dripping through my redemption
Forgotten memories coming clear to mind
slipping time freezin' me behind
Eyes bleeding painful tears
smile is forced over stressful fears
Azrael standin’ in front of me
waiting for the time
lifeless I will be
memories still am holdin' back
future I don't have when I see my hand
No pain anymore its feels relief
escaping art, and death surreal
regret for once staying back
now goin' away
relief and satisfaction
for those are pained
Ready to go now
am leaving behind
memories and past
I have lived to remind.

A Thorn Of Perfection

Life is so perfect,
That my Heart is,
Weeping tears of flame.
Scared my mind,
Asking no devil to
play another game.
Jus livin’ in this heaven
Feels life lived
in one moment.
No harm can invade,
This protection,
Several chilling snow,
Calming with passion.

Life so perfect,
Dream i had to have,
Weeping tears, I cried to see,
And now its all before me,
But am scared if its all gone some day
And love whisper back to me and says,
Every moment I live,
is year passing gift,
flashes are blurring
with the scar forever fading.

Life so perfect can't catch again,
If lost
There some people you meet
only once in a lifetime.
This heals pain inside
my bleeding heart cries one name
Life so perfect I would end with my THE END.

Descry the Darkness of Bournville

A price of...

Perfection,

A taste of...
Hardwork,

A flavor of...
Purity,

An ecstasy of...
Quality,

A chunk of...
Bournville.

Are You A Manager???

I have heard people talking about "destination"... usually questioning what is your Motto...? When I was a child like any other kid I used to say Doctor... then I grew up and said Engineer... or more specifically software engineer... why? don’t know maybe heard someone talking about it then after facing the environment outside the house to be safe I choose to be a manager hence Lets Go For MBA....

Surprisingly we never ever answer the question asked to us but we do keep on going round and round in a circle. Man! The pending unsettled question is still the same "what's YOUR wish? What YOU wanna be? Where is your destiny?" at least answer one of it.... :O Confused? ya me too.

When we were kids we used to say what our elders taught us... they said "you look good in an apron" and we replied "I will become a doc" when time passed a few seasons the idea, more precisely the destiny, is now changed to become an engineer then by the time completing engineering we find "oh! those friends of mine are doing MBA" or each of two parent would talk to couple of other parents and then we find ourselves appearing CAT, XAT or other management 'xams but hold on! Do you really want this...? Do you even know what you want...? You are grown ups, have a mind to think so why not use it.... why thinking along other’s verbiage. Oh! have you figured out any of the above? if not stand before the mirror and ask yourself who you are?

In most of the management interviews it’s being asked Why you wanna do MBA...? Answering things are very easy, Making up is easier.... what's difficult is to face the truth... asking why? Do a search in Google and you'll find several satisfying answers but which answer satisfies you? which answer is really You? First ask yourself before appearing your paper are you eligible? Is this you’re meant to be? If all the answers are positive then ask yourself one last question, Do you really see yourself as a manager in the future? if yes then pack your bags and return, this is not what you came for. If you see yourself as a manager right now, the skills that drives your daily animation and bustle then this is where you need to be, this is where you're wanted.... It’s not 1 year preparation for CAT or getting 99 percentile in it or getting out of the bestest B School in the whole world that will make you a manager.... it’s You that makes you a manager.

I don’t know what CAT, XAT or other management exams are about but I know why I wanna be a manager... "Manager" this word ain't taught in any management college even in IIM or Kellogg’s, this is a quality that lies within, submerged inside a mortal, deep inside and sometime shows up as a spark of daily habit... MBA is nothing but a way to take you to your limit where you wanna reach... it’s not about the money, it’s not about the fame, it’s about YOU, it’s the destiny that Completes You... the B Schools can only help to shine a diamond from the rough black dirt.... but diamond is always a diamond...

its 21 days left for CAT now...

if you can manage time and within the last moment come ready crossing all hurdles and get yourself motivated at the same time, then you are a manager... if you don’t care what you got but use what you have, then you're a manager... if you know everything has failed, the last blood has been dripped but still have that passion to carry on then you're a manager, if you are scared of new life which passes through a lot of chaos, standing where you feel nothing is right anymore but still in that scary, frightening and bloodcurdling scene you haven't lost hope then you're a manager....

Now you decide by asking yourself... Are you a manger?

Remember Only difference between a brave and an ordinary man is that former can hold lil longer... you can’t be defeated until you've given up....

Revolution::The Fight Back

Life sometimes is so unfair that it doesn't feel right to compromise with its unworthy situations... its like compromising with a lie, with injustice, with lawlessness... sometimes I ask myself, "Does goodness exists in this world anymore?" "Is God still lookin' at us or is He tired too...???"
There comes the rebel... when every way is closed... the clock ticks for revolution. A revolution for justice, a revolution for equality, a revolution for a better life. It has been said, GOD HELPS THOSE WHO HELP THEMSELVES. Its time to fight back for what you truly believe in... The world is a beautiful place, but in the hands of a few it gets grey and nasty. For a better life, the world needs to be snatched away from them, 'coz rights aren't given but taken....

I Laugh Until I Cry

Can you feel unfortunate and luckiest,
Both at the same time,
I have, I have been in
The situation when,
I laugh until I cry.
Can you escape the feelin' to depart,
Depart from a love one,
Leavin' tears in her eyes,
And pain behind.
You know she be lonely,
Incomplete when you're gone,
But she'll be waitin' in a hope,
Hope for you to return.
Tell me how you feel,
If sorrow and happiness
come on same side of a coin,
Have you been in the situation
Of departing love to meet a special one.
I have, I have been in the position
filled with joy and regret,
Condolence and comfort,
all in one occasion.
I have been in the dias,
Where turnin' back doesn't work,
Coz the train picks up
And I've to say that word.
Happy to see Mi Amor again
but my love so long I left back,
while getting in the train
seeing her alone in the station
fills me with pain
Oh God have mercy
Should I smile or cry
My heart feels strange
With several thoughts in my mind
I wish God keeps her safe
All I leave behind
She keeps smilin' always
I wish when
Think about her
And I laugh until I cry.

Youth Verbiage

Moving inside inane darkness,
Followed by detrimental closeness,
Faith that slowly erodes,
With the exacerbates.

Simplification of abstruse feeling,
Legible expression in succinct understanding,
Macrocosm indict charges,
Never acquitted painful sicker.

Though soothing salvation
Imminent extempore,
Catastrophic demolition
Blunder its exploit.

Capture That...

I wanna capture that time
Every moment that's fallin' apart
Every tear that your eyes depart
And every piece that connects to the start

I wanna capture those emotions
Every time I made you smile
Every turn your eyes sparkle tight
And every tide together we fight

I wanna capture those ignorance
When, with you everything else vanish
Being in your arms my world ravish
You & me and nothin' else exist

I wanna capture those pains
Every scar reminds of you
Every tear drop calls you
And my broken heart compiles for you.

I wanna capture you
One day I won't be here
Away from you, I won't fear
'Coz your memories, I'll always share.

Sacred Collection Of Sir Charlemagne

HONEST MISTAKE

When you're upset,
You hurt me bad,
I take it all in,
And help you stand....
But all that hurt,
doesn't go away...
It tears my heart,
And bruises my soul,
All I ask of you is to show me a way,
How I can share the pain,
And be whole again.
Please stay with me,
When I sway,
I know I hurt you baby,
An honest mistake
Can I expect you to ignore it,
And listen to what the heart says?



MOURNING SMILE

If I'm so bad,
Jus Let me know.
If what I ask is too much,
Jus say so.
When I'm gone
Jus carry on.
Don't mourn,
Rejoice everything you hear
The sound of my voice,
Jus know
That I'm lookin' down at you smilin'
And I did not feel a thing,
So baby don't feel no pain
Jus smile me back.



DEATH A DREAM

Why death is so sweet and pure,
Why death is the only cure,
Why death tempting me,
Why death is all I see,
Why death the final rendezvous,
Why is death Oh! so true,
Why is death so hard to foresee,
Why doesn't death come for me?

Who Am I ???

I'm Lost, I'm broke,
I turn back, and keep that hold
I wait, I wait until you call me
And you call me back to our home.

I wonder, who am I?
I surrender, I jump into your arms,
Put me somewhere safe, hold me tight
Coz its here, where I belong.

Who am I? I wonder again & again,
Do I've an identity,
Call me heart, call me back,
Its only you, who can bring me if am lost.

Who am I? Tell me where I am,
I'm so lost,
I don't have a face,
Call me something, call my name.

I'm lost,
And you're confused,
Look inside your heart,
Tell me if I'm the one.

Tell me, If I'm someone, belong to you
Its me, its simply me
Its all I've figured
When I'm lost in you.

I Wish

I wish I could again be a child,
Innocent & unaware of the world.
I wish I could have sound sleeps,
Careless & silent still snoring dreams.

I wish I could swing in the garden,
when breeze & birds sing with me.
I wish I could play with unreality,
If caught followed my elder's sanity.

I wish I could scream my heart out,
If I find my things are misfound.
I wish I could break things,
And try to hide 'em under closet wings.

I wish I could cry loudly,
When am weepy with leaking eyes.
I wish I could express myself,
And its cute everybody feel.

I wish I could scold my teddy
When I'm upset with the neighboring.
I wish I had an manikin,
To dress the way I want him.

I wish I could try my mom's heels
To look talk & feel big.
I wish I could dress up,
To pretend am grown up.

I wish to wish again,
To grow faster & have a plane.
I wish I couldn't have wished that day,
When I had all I wish today.

Demonic Angel

Haunted devil has no plan
Angel voice it keep saying sangs
Drowned in love and soaked with blood
Undead life is far distant.
Life is deserted sand
Leaving control in my hands
Relation, compassion, trust and emotion
Play under demonic invasion.
Devil attracts, demon pull
Hell devastate every loving soul
Angel's love, vampire's kiss
Venomous bite but tears missed.
In angel voice it speaks again
Am the devil with hellish flames
But innocent eyes leave you confuse
I warn you, I warn you again
Coz free-will is one thing
I can't change in voodoo plane.
So giving you a fatal choice
Which way you wanna crawl
Stabbed by an angel
Or killed by a ghost
Coz Am not leaving now
And you're stuck with demon soul.

Unintentional Intimacy

The touch of unclear words
The faith on uncertain love
Still a trust on the invisible start
That can't ever depart

An unconditional care
An unworthy spare
For the mistakes taking flight
And settle down after a fight

A fate to be together
A try to separate never
Still storm push us apart
But a hold that can't detach

A home with a lost direction
A soul without a destination
A pain that needs cure
With the love so pure

A river drowned in emotion
A kiss filled with passion
So a trust on untold future
Saving all to get it nurtured

How It Started???

Sometime I am confused,
I wonder when and how it started.
It’s not something which is digital,
It’s been so slow and gradual.

So one day I stepped up,
I knew you were the one who was scared.
The fear I had that I would loose you.
The jealousy I had not to be misused.

I didn’t play black magic,
But you confess yourself on beach.
Did you know what was there in my mind?
But I accept my heart, what it was trying to cry.

We move on together into the feeling wasn’t new to us,
But every single leaf on our tree was freshly grown and blushes.
Every moment is rainbow,
Every sound is music of nightingale.

I was so lost in your heaven, where purity lies and divine crave in,
But suddenly I get hit by reality, so pitched darkness all I can see.
Do I really open up to you, or is it too much I expect,
Sometime I see you irritated, when you say that I make frustrate.

The hurt if I’ve, I keep insida me,
The silent walls surround, and the tears you can’t see.
But you carry my delicate heart,
That you protect from the start.

So you come to see,
Several hugs and kisses meant only for me.
Funny faces and stupid words,
You jus want to make me laugh.

Why you don’t let me stay angry,
Why don’t you jus let me go?
You hold my face and turn me to yours,
I’m lost in the innocent eyes and the thousand dreams it shows.

I don’t know when all these started,
I was lost, when you brought me back home.
You answered my question.
You stepped & hold.

I still wonder, when all these perceive,
You at once remind the day you came to station to receive.
You made the mirror so clear,
Everything in front of me was very real.

But still I stand confused & wondered,
When your trustful hands grab me as a reminder,
And your truthful lips tell me a story,
You closed my eyes said nothing to worry.

You started from beginning of the tale,
The day you gave me hugs and emotions didn’t fail.
It started when I kissed your lips,
So that you don't feel bad about kissing me.

It started with a trust,
Trusting more than anyone in the world.
It started with the faith,
That whatever you do, you won’t misbehave.

It started when we looked at each other,
We believe in a happy family together.
It started with a jealousy, it started with a change.
It starts every moment, moments that can never end.

500 Years & More

I was flying to the sun,
But all I got was burnt.
I fell right down to the earth,
And I got all scattered apart.

I went in the shadow,
Coz I was scared of sunlight.
I stayed in the darkness,
No matter hows the sunny sky.

I cried all the night,
That i wanted to hold it tight.
But I preferred to stay down out of sight,
And not to take another flight.

I didn't collect my shattered furs,
But in the darkness it warmly grows.
The urge insida me again prevail,
That my love for the sun can ever reveal.

So I took courage to step outside,
Show my new grown furs to my friends beside.
I looked at the sun and again attracted with its shiny eyes,
I grabbed my potential to fly up and high.

This time with the determination,
not to fall again,
But with the quotation,
that the Mighty Phoenix win the game.

Unexplainably Explained

We had lot of good times,
We had lot of fun.
We were together
When we were all alone.
But now I'm confused
But now I'm scared
Is this the time to again say a goodbye
Is this the time to again cry
I cant stand away from you
After holding your hand in shade and sun lights.
But i cant stand see you with the guy
Who brought rain into my nights
I wanted to move on
I wanted to start again,
I wanted to be your loving friend
I wanted to be precious again
But I'm a diamond which has turned into a stone.
But never realize i can be replaced so soon.
So here i say goodbye
So here i see you for last time
Maybe this poem doesn't rhyme
But may be it says all my heart wanna sign.

You in Me

Take my hand
Take my lead
'Coz i cant walk
In this one way street

Am not afraid
Not afraid at all
Coz i know you'll catch me
Every time i fall

So close your eyes
Feel my heart deep inside
With every low & high
I'll be there by your side

Stretch your hands
I will grab one
I will show u the way
In every turn

So take a step
And come to me
In the dark night
Shine a light for me

Take one breath
And breathe with me
Coz i am alive
When u kiss me.

You can stay
Thousand miles apart
Coz my heart will stay
Anywhere you're

But would u promise
Forget me not
Coz without u
I'm all lost

Time can take us apart
Chances can be shorten to start
But feelings bemused
Touch heart from distance apart

Every day every step together
We trying getting better
So hold me close to u
Don't let me go so soon

So take my name
Take a chance
Call me home
And together we shall dance

Take my hand
Take my lead
Show me the road
That will bring u back to me.

Lifeless & Cold

There was a knock at my door
But no one on the other side
Am I waiting for someone?
I asked myself to be sure

Getting back in the house,
The doors were all close.
Snowy storm was furious and high
The echoing scream weren’t going outside

I beat my head
Several wound on my face
The body is aching with the physical pain
But not enough to remove the emotion stain

I drive outside on my car
I crossed a pair of lonely bar
Nothing can stop me by tonight
Not even the red street light

I don’t care whatever happens next
If I live or die in regrets,
I'm so frustrate, so furious and betrayed
I want my soul to be free out of this bodily stage

Not trapped in the confessions
He says life has its own value
But I see death a drug to all pain
The pushing time ticking my head

There’s no trust, no one on whom I rely
Life seems black and without the answers
The stage is a question mark,
And there is no spot light

Give me a reason to live,
I wanna trust I find my faith so rusted
In the darkness cold and moisted
Can you take my hand to light again?

Wait a minute!
I don’t know who you are,
You’re not that medicine not the part I loved,
Now Lifeless is all in me, don’t have another reason to start.

Fatal Survival

It takes lot of courage,
to end your life,
a little more,
to even survive.
When silent night shouts on you,
you scream till fatal,
on dancing tunes,
does lightning sky,
shine your life?
or it stuck you sane,
deep inside your mind.
Closed eyes is nothing but crime,
fight for yourself you still have time.
Face off your survival,
challenge it to death,
coz happiness is discovered
after this drowning rain.

Once I die...

Once I die
I don't need to care for anybody's regret or cry
Once I die
the distance fades away between truth and lie
Once I die
am not worried about any kinda try
Once I die
I don't have to turn back how they live their life
Once I die
I wonder they are alone and have shoulder to cry
Once I die
I'll be a dying star of orion still shining light
Once I die
I'll still hold your hand I won't just pass by
Once I die
I'll fade in your memory but always be by your side
Once I die
I don't have to say goodbyes coz I've already died.
Once I die
I'll dissolve in your heart, when you look outside I've already died.

You never know...

You never know the future,
its full of surprises.
An uncertain commitment, an unsure step,
but still a hope, a light of faith
& a line of fate
but still you never know.
The cries of pain, the regrets of mistakes,
the answers to absurd questions,
that you never know.
The dark clouds get shred,
the ocean is calm again,
the tough time will pass some day,
but you never know.
The end will be well,
the story will have a happy end,
you'll discover the treasure of solace,
but when, you never know.
So I keep living,
so I do my duty,
so I keep motivating,
'coz you never know.