Precious Devastation

I lost something precious recently, a diamond of my eyes. A literal piece of diamond, from my engagement ring. Don’t know why a 20 cent piece mattered so much, that its absence has made the whole ring obsolete. But that little piece puts everything into perspective.

How the people we are closest to can be taken for granted, to be there forever. Sometimes we try to take care of them like I checked the setting of that ring, or cleaned it, every now or then, so that it sparkles its brightest. But it takes only a moment, a moment you are most unaware of, and engaged in something else, it falls off and probably washed off like it meant nothing, without making a single sound, vanished somewhere in the huge world out there, no where to be found, no matter how long and hard you search. It means nothing to anyone, for them I'm jus' a crazy person with wandering eyes and limited concentration, bend over checking dirt and scraping little pieces on the ground, "It's so small, doesn't mean anything", someone suggested with their expect opinion. But it matters, matters to me and it will leave a hole of imperfection in my soul. And no matter how I try to fix it, I will always know there was a loss associated with it and there was a hole.

Chain of thoughts has no boundaries, a tiny piece like a 20 cents shining stone, can light the darkest lanes buried under memories and can unleash tsunami of emotions, flooding the ancient gates, wide open. All those hurts and pain from the past hit all at the same time, making one go berserk. 

I asked myself a question there, whose fault was that. I wasn’t a victim, I knew people, I knew their traits and colors of their character. Why I wanted to invite them into a lavishing wedding, where I couldn’t invite anyone who was my well-wisher. Why did I have that wedding in the first place, where I knew the man I wanted to share my life with, wasn’t my partner, never was and never will be.

Saving that money and investing to buy a roof over our heads would’ve been the best decision, but I was childish, I had a fairy tale dream. I can’t be angry at them, who jus' came to stump on us, and that was expected from them. In reality I am mad at my choices, and the reasons for ‘em.

But am narcissist, I can’t let go. It’s who I am and what makes me, Me. I can never forgive the one who have hurt us, I can’t go in the past to change the course only to be devastated by its butterfly effect. But today, in present if anyone is trying to hurt me and the one closest to me, I can be the meanest narcissistic person you will ever know, and I will destroy you. 

Incomplete Symphony

Music of my melancholy
Rises and falls in its own symphony
Lost into my loneliness
Surrounded by void passions

Empty page, staring at nothingness
so much to say
that words can't comprehend
So many thoughts
Drowning in my own imagination.

Prorate balancing my universe
To make sense in its disturbance
Letting myself drift in perspectives
Passing over the broken bridge
Salvaging what is left.

Unknown strings making music
Without words my lines are empty
Ingenuity in its originality
Keep repeating same choir in repeat
There is something waiting for me

How does my thought drift
what could have been
How life is, and to become
Without you,
With a piece missing, a soul detached,
With every lasting pause and
Incomplete.

LCO Says So

Once you let go of the fear, everything gets easier.

Lucifer - Chapter 6

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Chapter Six – Pile of Death

Waiting for something brilliant to explode
That will change the world
Something that turns around 

the whole definition of existence

Something that saves human 

bringing light into the world.

As I ascent over the entirity

I realize how hopeless is it
This world and its worthless beings

Rotten rodents living in disgust and envy

Walking backward falling into the dark ditches

drowning in their own blood and vomit

still their deception, despair and malice

dominating their evil propensities

What good there is to offer?

Is salvation this humanity deserves?

Let it perish in its own miseries

as it suffocates one another

I turnned and began to leave

but then stumbled upon something 

I fell and lost my vision

when I woke up I saw the world burnning. 

Standing on a tall pile of dead bodies 

I can see
as far as my eyes can perceive

I wonder shall I do it a justice

Let it burn or save it for few million.

But then again, what difference would I make

A fallen angel with broken wings

abandoned on earth,

striped of powers, grace and essence.

Am I the center, 

is it my decision, 

and this is it?

Is it God's plan

some test, or just my last days on earth?

But wait what I see now, it's so strange
I rub my eyes to see a vision
There are several more

an army of fallen angels

I am just another comrade 

following a cause

is it evil or is it good

time will tell as the pages turn. 

In this mighty play
If I lose if I give up
If I am just another body
part of the thousands piles
It would hardly matter
It hardly alter

the inevitable future it binds.

-- To Be Continued

Until Now in Lucifer :

Chapter One : Samuel

Chapter Two : The Reason
Chapter Three – Battle at Heaven's Gate
Chapter Four– The Angels Return
Chapter Five - Lucifer Rises

Further on :
Chapter Seven - The Dark Prince

Lucifer : Chapter 5

For story until now Go To the END : 

Chapter Five – Lucifer Rises

Midst of abeyance fugue
I tried to comprehend,
a little I could.
Mantled in cave of refuge,
Under broken branches and palm leaves
my pride hides where no one could see

Whilst I captured my senses
several battling fields spawned on me
The noises and the chaos
so much of brutality
violence gaining thick
prejudice haunting the sun,
and the truth

But then like a shinning beam
I recalled Her face,
Her beautiful face,
calling for me
A moment of bliss
too little to feel
As sense of dread hung over me.

Betrayal and affliction,
all I remember
"My Father, Thee Mighty God"
I smirked in disgust.

In that very moment,
I clutched my chest,
as my heart bled
I bawled in pain
as I felt my essence drain,
leaving my spirit,
It shattered my quintessence

But that instance clouded by a dark omen
A premonition of something gruesome
As I closed my eyes, to center the noises
I could feel Her, I could feel Her
But Her aura dying

"I know its Her,
Something I feel
I can't explain,
She's gagged in anguish
She's in dread

I know its Her
Something I feel
I can't explain"

"I have to save Her" I thought to myself
While cries of my fallen legion
flooded my conscience
I stumbled, I fell,
Which direction I leap?
My wounded comrades
Or my only beloved

I ascend to fly,
only to be chained by gravity
I pummel to run,
dragged my broken wings.

Every moment
bound me numb
Every second
the voices grew intense
The sun rose, only to set
as time swirled like icy breeze.

I laid there on the muddy ground
A fallen angel from the morning sky.
The Archangel, the son of God

On the ground
Helpless and clogged.
As I was mourning pity,
A gleaming light dazed from my blade
I knew what I had to do,
Without one more thought
I severed my mighty white wings.

I laughed in brutal pleasure of rawness,
"I am no longer an Angel,
Father, listen to me.
I am no longer your slave
or chained by your bitterness
This is my rebellion
from your blindness
and hypocrisies"

Free from my meager burden
I rode on the winds
navigated by my affliction
drawn to Her shrilling weep.

At a distance, smoke was rising,
Scene was gloomy,
and the ashes descending.
Sky was dark,
like morning was night.
Human's surrounded
something in their mid
screaming and cursing
at the top of their voices
"Burn in Hell,
You abominable witch...
Burn in Hell.."
They badgered crudely.

Meandering through crowd
I reached the front and the center
Only to be stunt
with savagery intended.
Helm by my dismay
stuck by my mortifying dread
I utter, appalled "I am too late".

I discern that ghastly sight
as my beloved burnt
with her last breath inside.
She tried to scream
but only in silence,
No voice no sound
drowned in the noise all around.
I watched her skin melt
like wax effigy
Her eyes filled with fear
and her soul leaving in agony.

My heart ripped into pieces
tears from my eyes dropped in torment
The barbarous descry, nothing to define
"She was a peaceful soul
How this is what you decide?"

I led my steps, As I mourn in silence
my final goodbye, My last bid
But then, "He is the evil one...",
someone ushered,
"Lucifer, the fallen angel,
Lucifer, the son of morning star
Lucifer, the evil incarnated,
Thee evil, Thee evil,
He is D'evil...",
together they declared.

Rage filled my veins
I wailed in angst
"How could you do this?
How could you do this? Father,
Make an innocent soul suffer?"
I howled in my grief
fury bursting though me,
as fire wrapped me in it
My fresh turned raw and exposed
horns extruded from of my skull
My eyes red with lust
to devour all human soul

Every wicked mortal on the scene
ran in dread, ran in screams
I take an oath
And here my journey begins
vengeance and punishment
Until the earth is cleaned.

Until Now in Lucifer :

Chapter One : Samuel

Chapter Two : The Reason
Chapter Three – Battle at Heaven's Gate
Chapter Four– The Angels Return

Further on :
Chapter Six – Pile of Death
Chapter Seven - The Dark Prince

A Decade

A decade ago
You gave me an earring
The one I lost
A half of a pair

A decade ago
We were a thing
Our passion with flying sparks
Admiration for each other

A decade ago
Probably we could have
made it work
If we hadn't hit a rough patch
If we hadn't despair each other

A decade has passed
And so much is changed
We are not the same people
I am not the same

A decade later
I come to hate myself
The person I became
All the failures bearing

A decade, now a past
Long walks on beach
And dreams we had
We loved no doubt
But now love is gone

A decade can change a lot
Maybe now its time to realize
Let's stop living in denial
Choose our own way
May that can lead to closure

A decade ago
We made each other happy
But chasing happiness
We lost our magic
Something's gone
Better left alone 

A decade too long

too much is taken

Following our separate path
Maybe bliss will come along.

For a decade I died
so many times
Dead inside,
I can still hear my soul cry
Not gonna wait
another decade again
It's enough
all I had to give

LCO Say's So

There is a hell of difference between "what we want to do" and "what we have to do". The lesser the gap is, the more is the happiness and satisfaction.

Lucifer - Chapter 3

For story until now Go To the END : 

Chapter Three – Battle at Heaven's Gate

I had to leave her behind
not knowing if she'll there, when I come back.
But I have to stop this chaos,
Fire of Father's wrath
hitting earth unleashing chaos
something outraged him
to hurt his own creation
I have to stop this
before everything is gone.

I have to talk to my Father
So I declared,
"Father here I come"
I have to talk to my father
and make him understand

He will listen to me,
Am his favorite son.
I wonder what raged him to fury,
"Is it about me and my feeling for her,
No!" I am not guilty to love the one.
He has created everything,
the light, the earth, the human being
He has created the feelings,
the envy, the love and the violence
"I have only chosen,
the beauty in his creation"
I opined to myself
standing in front of heaven's gate

"You're forbidden to enter Heaven
You're forbidden to see Our father"
scowled Micheal
with his army prepared to fight

"But why brother,
What this anger is about,
have I unaware hurt Thee father
If so, let me pass
Let me speak with him,
its all I ask."

"You have sinned Samuel,
You are not worthy anymore."

"How? please give me an answer
Is it because I loved her...?
But she is His creation
She is His finest creation on earth
Pure and Divine
She emerge from the aura
he lighted upon the earth"
I tried to elucidate my side

"We fly over the earth,
to watch upon His creation
We are Archangels
We are Supreme beings
rose from God's true powers
and this Humans are beneath.
They are created only to pray,
To build our fortress
and satisfy our needs."
Micheal stated in disgust
"How could you do this, Brother
Actually desire this creature
She might be most pleasant to see
but you're not just an Angel
You my brother, are the son of God."

"Micheal, I understand you disapprove,
You have always seen those being beneath us
But I walk among 'em
Live among 'em and I love one of 'em.
I have done no wrong
Let me speak to our father,
Not you but he will understand."

"Go away brother, without a fight,
Father has banished you,
You're not a worthy son
You have ashamed us,
so now you're exiled
from heaven and the skies"

"I am your brother, Micheal,
And I don't want to hurt
or to fight.
I am my comrade's general,
As powerful you are
I am too.
So let me pass and be at peace."
I demand my worthy visit

But God of war had his victory
battle among angels
stuck on heaven's ground.
As Micheal was losing to held the heaven's gate
Brightest light stuck
and everything went into darkness.

-- To Be Continued

Until Now in Lucifer :

Chapter One : Samuel

Chapter Two : The Reason

Further on :
Chapter Four– The Angels Return
Chapter Five - Lucifer Rises
Chapter Six – Pile of Death
Chapter Seven - The Dark Prince

Lucifer: Chapter 4

For story until now Go To the END : 

Chapter Four – The Angels Return

I watched him fade away in the sky

Distance growing as he left

He promised he will be back

But now a year has past

Am still standing here staring up in the sky

waiting for him, but there is no sign

Earth is burning where you left me behind

Flames of grudge eating each soul alive

I prayed to my Angel a thousand times

But lost in silence

like forever abandoned

Hope’s broken on earth

As tragedy stuck with million weapons

Plague, famine and war

Death at every corner

Man has turn into something not human

Hatred and evil now run the world

No one is untouched anymore

And hope of salvation is torn.

God must be angry

As the humanity in blink to extinct

No sign of Angels to save us
by our side, to guide us

or to fight this war

As I lose my last hope

I say to myself
I can’t take it anymore

I bid my final goodbye

There must be another life

I will wait for your love

I will wait for your return.

As I dig my grave to sleep in it

My eyes startled by thousand lights in the sky

People cheering “Angels have returned”

And for a second there a sense of relief has spunked

My eyes sparkle as I kept searching for him

“Where are you my Angel,

Are you the brightest one shinning?”

For a moment there I found myself smiling

My pain, my wound

Forgotten to a distant memory

“They’re here!!

Angels!! They’re here!!”

People cheering

Hope has returned on earth

Bringing people back together.

Shinning the dark sky

The Angels are back with light

But as the distance grew closer

Dread took over

Cheers turned into screams

People running for shelter

At the speed of shooting arrows

Angels came falling on earth

They're fallen soldiers from heaven
hurt, wounded and abandoned 

I  wonder 

“What must have happened

for these daunting Angels

to lose any battle.

These’re warriors 
comrade of The God

fallen from a lost battle
What tragedy could have stuck.”

Questions answered in silence

And darkness again wrapped the earth

Despair prevailed

And moment of hope, disappeared.

My eyes widen with fear

When I saw my one Angel crashed on earth

His wide white wings made him distinct

Fallen too far beyond in the distant mountains
The edge where earth touches sky
far beyond the grove
where sun never rise. 

God, show mercy on us!

We pray for your hand to light us

Save us from what's coming

Give us strength to fight the evil.

As the Angels struck on earth

Fire of hell broke loose to devour

I passed through the molten fire 

And climbed on the mountain

My bleeding enigma

Couldn’t stop my feet

Tear roll down my cheek

And too far this journey I seek

After a week on foot

With no rest no food

I noticed a glow at a distance far in the woods

Burning like fire

Shinning like gold

Aback I got strength
filled with love and its vigor intense.

I ran till I reach
only to witness a dreadful scene

Laying at a distance,

I glanced at his large wings

Soaked in his blood

Broken in pieces,
feathers shredded scattered everywhere.

My heart went cold
and I couldn't move anymore

“Is he...?” I left numb and stunned

I came to my senses,

as few moments passed

I went closer  

and touched him at last.
Burning like red coal
bleeding magma
through cracks of his wounds,

"What shall I do...
what shall I do...?"
I kept questioning
howling under the silver moon.

-- To Be Continued

Until Now in Lucifer :

Chapter One : Samuel

Chapter Two : The Reason
Chapter Three – Battle at Heaven's Gate

Further on :
Chapter Five - Lucifer Rises
Chapter Six – Pile of Death
Chapter Seven - The Dark Prince

Be My Guest - XV

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                                                                                                Chapter Fifteen- Tamed Beast

Am paralyzed,
A moment felt like eternity,
Words echoing in my ears,
"Devil saved your life"

That night of terror
A few broken memories
I remember
Something that's haunting me
for so long
So many questions
wiggling unanswered.

"Tell me my good Lad,
What you remember of that night
The night you left your inn
you started your journey
lost in woods
lost and unseen."

I have no answer
I thought to myself
but words started pouring
right out of my lips

"I remember, it was raining
and I was running deep into the woods
I kept going
Kept going
but feet hurt my bones"
I tried to recall

"That's right my Lad,
what more...?"

"I don't know when did I reach
that graveyard
Now its snowing
and chills shrilling
with howling of wolves
maybe a dozen,
or a hundred of 'em"
I started panting
catching my breath I said

"I know am gonna die,
am sure of it
but then the scene went dark
as my vision disappear
I hear the howling getting closer
closer and more closer"

"Did you hear anything else?"
The count asked
"I hear horse or a carriage
I hear footsteps
then everything is blackness"
I rose from my chair
in shock and unrested

"You are precise my dear Lad,
You remember lot of pieces
than you thought."
the Count said with a grin
"Now let me put the puzzle together
for you."

"That night you remember,

in the graveyard,
it was snowing,
because you were lost in the woods
for two days and one night"
Count paused for a second
to let me soak in
"That night you fled the inn,
leaving your luggage behind,
you walked out of the door."

"Sweet Lady, the owner, the keeper
She saw you walking away,
so she sent for me
summoned me in worry
We looked for you.
We thought you went on a quest
of your own,
Unsure where we can look for you
in this thick forest."
he explained.

"You remember precisely,
The wolves howling,
they were chasing you
and you finally seek shelter
in a graveyard,
But these nasty creatures,
They can smell you from distance
And if they have your scent
they won't stop until
they have ripped you to pieces"

I was shivering,
reliving my worst dread again,
as he continued telling,
"But you were very lucky my Lad,
As those wild wolves have your scent,
My Devil here, also got your scent
from the luggage you left behind
And so he found you, 

jus' in the neck of the time.
And so here you are.
All safe and sound
without a scratch."

I kept staring at the wolf
that saved my life
suddenly his monstrous persona
made so naive and kind.
The count loosed his lease
and asked him to walk to me
So huge, so powerful,
yet so loyal and amiable
I wonder.
He no more felt like a peril
or like a wolf who's hunting,
rather a trustworthy dog
a friend and company in the big castle
so I patted him and hugged him
for all I knew,
he is a companion I can fully trust.

Count smiled at us
"I told you will bond" he said,
"He can live with you
as long as you're here,
I know it gets lonely here,
big castle
and the night are the most darkest
Believe me he will keep you safe
He will die before anything cause you harm"

I kept brushing him, and said
"Thank you, I can sleep well now."

Until Now in Be My Guest :

Chapter One - Boarding The 3:15 Train
Chapter Two - Solitude As I Had Asked For

Chapter Three - A Dream So Real
Chapter Four - Breaking Dawn to Break Free
Chapter Five - We Arrive!!
Chapter Six - 666
Chapter Seven - The Dread Room
Chapter Eight - The Dread Room Continues
Chapter Nine - Is Everything Real?
Chapter Ten - The Letter
Chapter Twelve - Wanderin' Among The Dead
Chapter Thirteen - Nightmares in the Castle of Dracula
Chapter Fourteen - Midnight Conversation

Flatline

Do you feel like you are done
Everything you had to do
is already said and done
jus' one more mile
time will run
I will fade away
into void
walking into
white blank.

A few pieces
I need to fix
A few mails
saying goodbyes
but there is no one
it reminds.

Would the world weep
As I part
Would a single soul ache
At last
Don't I need to know
if anything you've to show?
Nothing you have now,
so it won't matter,
when am gone.

All you have to say,
is said
All you have to give
is given
Please don't mourn
or even pay your respect
I am a chapter
read and forgotten.

This last part is
for someone
My one soulmate
My only link to this world.

If we born again,
we will be born together
our soul intertwined
and we have each other.

As long as one live
so does another,
If you have a heartbeat
I promise I will breathe,
but your flatline
will take me with it. 

A Decade Old Habit

Nine years
of letting out the monsters
reach nowhere
and stone cold as this

Its not that
we don't understand each other
We never did.

Every fight
Scarred us
We fall into ditches
We dig.

I can't tell your version
of the story
But here
I have this

You wanted to do
what deemed right to you
You didn't think of me.

Every action affecting you
Has impacted me.

Least bothered you carried on

Raising questions on my solutions.

All I needed,
was you to support
my opinion
Even if, it didn't make sense
to your uncomprehending perception.

I don't want to strip naked
again and again, every time.
Just to make sense and
make you understand
How I bleed,
How I ache
broken with every hit.

Nine years has passed
And I finally understand

I have to struggle alone
Throughout my life
Even though I had been your rock
In those toughest days and nights.

I have to fight
To make my own way
Even though I fought with the world
For you at every step

I have lost myself
Fell into my own grave
Suffocated under dirt
And hit by my headstone
Dated back to a decade.

My expectations weren't too much

Or was it, so you thought?
But always you have acted against

weighing your logic than my respect.

All I needed
you to be on my side

Echoing for once
That my heart 

wants and decides.

For once I wanted

to be the special one
for a day my choices 

to be attained
fulfilled in every term.

But your surprises
were too much to bare

Broke my heart
And all my wishes.

You choose to
Kill my soul 

with your bare hands
Let me bleed, my will to live.

Your hatred so vivid
Your anger still has no rest
Maybe this is what I deserve
But tormenting your feeder
Where is the sense in this?

Nine years
I hoped we'll be better
We could fix this
If not sooner then later.

Its not that
we don't understand each other,
We never did.

It is that
We don't respect each other
And over the decade
We have learned to despair.

There is nothing to save
Or salvage in what we have
So let's draw a line today 

and break free
from our darkness
and evil hell.

Let's not drag
something meaningless
torturing and tormenting,
Something agonizing,
suffering filled with
only pain and aching.
Something like a burden
to weigh on every scale
Something so dark
that shadows love, care
and goodness.

I will live with my demons
Let 'em run deep
Escaping each other
Will give a perspective

For better or worse
There were no vows
There were no promises
So allow me to set fire
to a decade of miseries.

Let the blames
drown me
Let everything be buried
with my body.

I break you free
From all obligation
I ever expected

I break you free from
Your social responsibility
That you've never fulfilled

I break you free
From being my partner
'Coz we never shared
Our pain, our happiness
Our complaints.

Almost a decade passed,
But now wait for
four more months to come,
Like always you're incapable
I understand,
so I will come with a closure
that untie the bond
of void and nothingness.

Freeing you from
all your legal bounds.
I need nothing
Expect for my life back,
You have taken my will,
My freedom,
You've scarred my soul,
Never to mend and be whole.

But I don't blame you for anything
I was born with this fate
And I accept
I deserve this
You were jus' a medium
Fate brought in
But now escaping fate
Is my decision.

I mistaken you 

for my necessity

Someone I needed

to rely for certainty.

But you were my addiction

and I was a junkie

Realizing am sober now

I need to break 

a decade old habit.

Not to Born Again

Everybody kept saying
I don't belong
Am not
'coz am from a different place
With my faded memories
and my tainted soul
I start my journey
lost in rememberance
tattered by passing time

Am an old soul
a soul of an ancient king
fighting everyday
battling still.

I couldn't see then
that I can see now
all I needed was to let go
but I was already
in the war.

My amour broken
my sword still fighting
but my body paralyzed
Counting my moments
As everything

came to an end.

I am still in the battlefield,
standing all alone,
surrounded by shadows,
I didn't lose, I didn't win
am jus' numb

Lost in my solitude.

Nothing matters,
nothing to carry on
I scream
I yell
but chained with cycle of life.

Everybody kept saying
I don't belong
Am not
'coz am from a different time
With my faded memories
and my tainted soul
I started a journey
lost in rememberance
tattered by passing time

Still wandering
whats real
what am fighting
I escaped a life
But still battles following me
Everything spinning around
like am center of chaos

still invisible
spontaneous combustions
incapable to control

I exist but I dont
I am solid mass
but I dont matter
My tears are filled
with pain and agony
of thousand lives
but my feelings don't matter

not to anyone.

Am surrounded by crowd
but am alone
Every one passing right through me

But keep saying
"You don't belong here,
This is not your place"

And I wander
I am an old soul
I came from the past
Am still battling 

to escape my demons
trying to find my freedom

Trying to find 

broken pieces of my soul

Am I capable of mercy,
or need forgiving, to be whole.
Something I need to fullfill

to rest in peace
To escape this life
and end this agony
closing the door to chaos
Be one with pieces I've lost
so old
so tainted
carrying surrow
carrying wounds.

Trying to escape this cycle
Break my ties with this soul
Wish Thee Lords,  for fate

Praying to say

Let me leave,
Not to born again.

LCO Say's So

Don't die for someone, who doesn't care about you. Live for someone who lives for you.

Be My Guest - XIV

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Chapter Fourteen - Midnight Conversation

Knocking at my door

Woke me from my paralyzed doze

Left lying on the desk

Papers crumbled under my cheek

Knocking continued hammering the door

A moment I took to catch up what’s real

So tired, like I was drugged to sleep

Back crammed, weary, stiff and rigid.

Dragging myself to unlatch

Only to find Count

holding a wolf that’s tamed

With half opened eyes, I tried to make sense

But sudden glance of the monstrous wild

shook me alert from my drowsy sleep.

“My apologies, to wake you up

But you haven’t eaten

whole day and last night

Am worried am failing to be a courteous host

You deserve.

Please accept my apologies

and come down for dinner.”

“No, Sir…” I said with hesitation

“I am unaware,

when sleep spelled my eyes closed.

I kept lying on my desk

I am guessing whole day

maybe I need some stretch.”

Count grinned,

his long canine pressing his lips

I swear I saw blood on ‘em

No, am not sure

I was half-asleep

No sense in what I think I see.

I hastily said to divert my confused mind,

“Give me a moment to freshen up,

I will be right down”

“Of Course, Of Course, My lad.”

Count turned to leave

And pulled his leased pet.

After a while I joined him,

He was slipping through his wine,

Sitting beside fire

Humming a tune

And stroking his wolf

“You’ve met my sole companion here,

His name is Devil,

Isn’t it obvious, because he is all black.”

Something about this pet

Made me feel uneasy

Hazy remembrance becoming vivid

“Ah!! When am gonna get over

my haunting conscience,

It’s my journey to blame,

But why am having anxious feeling”

As I was thinking to myself

Count politely pulled my chair,

“So let’s have a seat at the table

And as I tell you a story

you enjoy your dinner.”

He walked to other chair afar,

while tamed animal followed him,

he sat and wolf laid at his feet.

“You’re afraid of Devil” He smiled and said

“Well, everyone is at the start.

He is big, black and people call him monster

But let me tell you a story

A story how Devil saved your life.”

I kept gazing at him

in shock and surprise,

Spoon dropped from my hand

into the bowl spilling my soup
Am paralyzed.

-- To be Continued...

Until Now in Be My Guest :

Chapter One - Boarding The 3:15 Train
Chapter Two - Solitude As I Had Asked For

Chapter Three - A Dream So Real
Chapter Four - Breaking Dawn to Break Free
Chapter Five - We Arrive!!
Chapter Six - 666
Chapter Seven - The Dread Room
Chapter Eight - The Dread Room Continues
Chapter Nine - Is Everything Real?
Chapter Ten - The Letter
Chapter Twelve - Wanderin' Among The Dead
Chapter Thirteen - Nightmares in the Castle of Dracula

She, Her and I

Why every footprint is left by her on the burning sand, walking hundreds of mile under the sun, a question to which we're still searching an answer. A very detailed Acrylic expression with shades to capture the reality in the desert of Rajasthan, India.

She is the main character of this piece, Her pot is symbol of her hard earn gulp of water and in her hardship, she still sees it to be a celebration of beauty and decorates with positive adornment that she could afford. And I am the artist bind to this - She, Her and I

                   

LCO Say's So

A firefly shines brighter in darkness, but it can't be mistaken to be a star, or can it be if only for a moment.

Directionless

Directionless, chasing you over broken pavements

Questioning every move every emotion

Every sentiment 

Darkness grows darker

Tripping and stumbling over rocks you left

Broken bridges am trying to mend

But burnt my hands in making promises 

Hurts every word

more than the wound I can give myself 

I can break into million pieces 

With a hope to whole our fate

But shattered without knowing my fault 

Blamed myself unaware of what 

Directionless, Am chasing you 

Till darkness eats my heart

I follow till I lost you at a distance.

Fog's getting thicker

Skipping a beat every minute 

Can't see, can't breathe 

Lost I was, jus kept sobbing.

Cold and haunting 

Your indifference towards me

Don't know why, don't know what

I did to deserve this?

Directionless, I chased you in zigzag 

Lost myself, lost my last bit of life 

Scarred my soul and broke my spirit 

All in an attempt 

To make us whole.

I fought against the odds 

Only to lose the war

I fought so much 

Now don't have the will to survive.

Directionless, I chased you

For once you call me your own.
You can condemn or curse
All I need was a single word.

But discarded and despaired 

You left me hurt 

on the broken sidewalks.

Passed by like you don't know me

Left me to my fate,

Left me breathless.

Don't know if this is how it all ends

Or is it jus a part of long pauses

I close my eyes now

To take my last breath 

Or tomorrow a life is waiting 

For us to be whole again.

Alive!!

-- In Memories of Chester Bennington

Mortality is so overrated

I think of leaving this world

Wrapped in despair

Some believe it’s cowardly to Quit

But it takes lot of will to bleed

Every time I hear those voices

Every time they scream into my ears

Every cell in my body freezes

And I keep deciding

Shall I bleed

Shall I choke

grasping for life

How I feel

What I feel

Is it worst

Than what I can do to myself.

My tears rolling down my cheek

Feels like earth slipped out of my feet

No Soul to turn to

No shoulder to lay and rest

So I decide this is my final day

And that moment is all it takes

So I decide I need to bleed

Let the bad blood drain

I search crazily

For an incentive

Something sharp

To cut through my vein

Give me rest

Forever from this fate

I picked a blade

Rusted and deteriorated

I push it through my skin

I cried I cried

Tears kept rolling

Pain too intense

My heart or my vein’s bleeding.

Gushing blood and pain intensifying

So I quit

Leaving only this wound

Later to turn into scar

A reminder 

how far I went

A reminder how weak I am

I chose to live again

I chose to give up to my physical pain

To breath again

Cowardly breath air

Cowardly breath live

And next moment am in my senses 

am in a fight

Fight to survive

My will completely broken

And am opening my door to the night

This was a week back

And today my life moves on

I hear about you suddenly 

Been long since you shared a song 

Didn’t know I will hear from you like this

You chose to quit

Quit on me, on us

You are gone, jus’ like that.

Leaving the world mute

Speechless without a word 

Stunt, shocked
and numb forever 

I will not hear you live

But your songs will still be undying

Your voice will echo

And you’ll remembered
by every broken soul

Mortality is so overrated
but you’re a legend
and you’re going be Alive.

LCO Says So

Sometimes Quitting is the right thing to do to start something New.

Charles Says

By Sir Chalemagne - Its easier to Preach than Practice.

LCO Says So

A Snake can change its scales a thousand times but still it'll be a snake.

Charcoal Buddha

LCO Says So

20/Apr'17 : You don't have to fire a gun to be a Hero.

19/Apr'17 : Jus' wearing "Being Human" t-shirt doesn't make anyone human being, compassion does.

Trapped in slow motion Car Crash

Trapped in slow motion car crash
everything spiraling around
whole world moving too fast
yet every screen so comprehending

As life is disappearing 

A rush through my vain

Several volts electrocuting

hollowness overcame with dread

No control of whatever next
shall I scream or say a prayer 

Grabbing anything I can find 

Drowning in noise or silence intensify.

Can't breathe, restless, panicking 

This moment keeps on stretching

I see clearly
even in panic, chaos and flying debris 

every moment flashed in pieces

Her face I see

Connected to everything 

My salvation in you
as I closed my eyes
I am at peace
and accept what it is
no fight, no war anymore
no curse no grudge
or blame to throw.

Wind wrapping me in its arms
am flying outside the car
every spin reminds of a chapter
My past and what could've been the future

A possibility an anticipation
lost in the chills of darkness
as cold blankets my last gasp
whats left of me
is nothing.