Oh! Beautiful Butterfly

Acrylic Color Brush Stroke!! - LCO @ 04/22'13

Battle Field

Black fumes every where
Ashes falling from the Heaven
am sitting right there
where battles played
and dead were lying.

The ripples with the storm
the fallen life left behind
to sit here I mourn
look around with shattered soul.

Several souls were buried
It was a lost battle
Whole world crumbled
for what? a lost cause.

The world ain't remember
the reason to play along
the merciless monstrous
the fight till death
for no reason.

Darkness haunts every soul,
With my own hand
I pull each sole.
The rotten and the ugly
the scattered and the lonely
I dig holes for every one
the one I knew
and the stranger I have never known.
No enemy I could see
my friend and he
every one painted with crimson
no monster, no companion
no leader I could predict.

Alas, it used to be so simple
jus' fight and die with glory,
With winning faces
we celebrated.
Women, drinks
and wild nights,
all fulfilled our trophies.
There was no wretched soul
no conscious mourns
for the lives lost.
I shredded blood,
of the strangers
their heads roll down
and I never bothered.
A brother, a son
or might be a father
Nothing to mourn
in my way to conquer world.

But right now,
am digging this hole
with grave heart I sob
tears roll down
and I can't stop.

Darkness haunts every soul
With my own hand
I pull each sole.
The rotten and the ugly
the scattered and the lonely
I dig holes for every one
the one I knew and
the stranger I have never known
no enemy I could see
my friend and he
every one painted with crimson
no monster, no companion
no leader I could predict.

A burning bush I throw
and all the dead consumed in fire
everyone burning along
no discrimnation
can be seen.
oh! Lord have mercy
Rest in peace
who have gone.

Mourning for those lost souls
I watched and wondered
why am alive?
Tears rolling why
I am, why I am
Who lives to sing this song.

Oh! Lord have mercy
Give this soul some rest
Reason for my breathing
is there something
still yet to be seen.
or something I haven't done
Why am alive, my Lord!
Why am only one to witness this.
What the purpose of my survival
What the purpose I didn't fulfill.

A monk was passing
suddenly caught a glimpse
He came to me
pointed at the river
"Once so pure was the water
crimson flowing with it
The river of blood so it will be called
come see your face
and what you've achieved."

I looked at my face
my red reflection haunts me
how scared I am
at my own self
What my children would see?

Peace I seek
is my motive
I understand now
why am standing with this
My life will be to spread the glory
"Buddham Saranam Gacchami"
My peace is now
on your feet.
My glory is now
on your feet.
Your peace will be remembered
Until and after The Ashoka lives.

LCO - "Life is all about fighting chain of battles all along, but the real war is to survive each battle."

Athenaeum of LCO Says So...!

11/12'17 : There is a hell of a difference between "what we want to do" and "what we have to do". The lesser the gap is, the more is the happiness and satisfaction.

09/21'17 : Don't die for someone, who doesn't care about you. Live for someone who lives for you. Don't die for someone, who doesn't care about you. Live for someone who lives for you.

08/24'17 : A firefly shines brighter in darkness, but it can't be mistaken to be a star, or can it be, if only for a moment.

08/18'17 : Dependence makes you compromise with the wrong, Independence helps you to do the right thing.

04/24'17 : A Snake can change its scales a thousand times but still it'll be a snake.

04/20'17 : You don't have to fire a gun to be a Hero.

04/19'17 : Jus' wearing "Being Human" t-shirt doesn't make anyone human being, compassion does.

03/10'17 : You can only avoid something for some time, delaying it doesn't make it any easier.

04/20'16 : I like to pretend am alone, like post apocalypse or plague.

04/02'16 : You ain't wanna marry a gorgeous girl until she has a good heart... living in swallow superficial world gonna be so temporary and settling into that will be nothing but tragedy.

02/24'16 : Workout to love yourself, not because you hate your body.

02/12'16 : When someone is not there when you need 'em the most, then there is no meaning keepin' 'em in your life.

02/10'16 : You've destroyed the person I was, you've destroyed the innocence I preserved, you've destroyed my dreams, you're the reason meaning of my life is over. You've snatched everything, you've left me void, you've pushed me to darkness, you've made sure I never come back. You're the reason today I lack hope, You're the reason I don't care about anything anymore. You're the foe dress in a friendly sole. You're worst mistake of my life. If anything I wish I could wipe you off.

11/02'15 : Disappointment is mother of abandonment

11/01'15 : Ignorance is bliss but sometimes drives to massive destruction and drifted distance bringing cracks that can never be mended

10/31'15 : The worst than an enemy is a close one's betrayal. But don't test my patience too much 'coz remember every Lucifer was once an Angel.

10/27'15 : You don't work, you don't get paid. People will tell you to be easy on yourself, but only those who care will be hard on you even though it breaks their heart.

10/16'15 : Sometime right is treated wrongly and wrong becomes right - Sadly that's right in this world.

10/14'15 : When one lives in darkness and believes he is blind, then no one can make him understand the value of light or beauty of world outside.

08/26'15 : What's the use of social networking when you're not social enough.

08/26'15 : What you gotta love about your idols-is honesty, too much of drama and too much faking jus' kill the show. But how about not standing up to any expectation, does it mean not being idol enough. Doesn't matter until one is responsible for someone out there. Be an inspirer not idol.

08/17'15 : Is it when everything is wonderful, you feel happy or when you feel happy everything is wonderful.

08/06'15 : When the world goes drastically wrong, even the vampires walk in sun.

08/03'15 : Abolition in rout is sudden but recovering is only with time

07/25'15 : I always wanted to need someone, because I knew I don't need anyone.

07/18'15 : Sometime your world jus' exists for someone, but suddenly that world jus' shatters and existence doesn't matter.

07/15'15 : When you take a pause to look around, you either see ignorance or rejoice beauty. Its only up to you what you choose to notice.

07/14'15 : Its not the option you select matter, but the one you apply in your life.

07/06'15 : Scarcity makes us do crazy things.

07/06'15 : Ideal isn't the one you mimic but the idea you believe.

06/27'15 : In solitude find the most loyal friend, not far away but in mirror looking at yourself.

06/22'15 : Sometimes Distance brings Closeness.

04/15'15 : Life is a journey on roller coaster, you're scared, you scream but it has no pause on slowing down... only thing you can do is get your guts out or apply Einstein's theory of relativity and enjoy.

03/03'15 : What is old, What is new? The gone be gone and left with memoirs

03/03'15 : If you're not happy yourself, you can't make others happy.

02/25'15 : It's okay to have no friends than having fake friends.

02/14'15 : A man who can't man up to his flaws is not man enough

02/07'15 : You can hurt someone badly, but can't ask 'em to heal in your time.

01/05'15 : Hatred is wine of rush, memories are weakness and love ruins.

11/07'14 : Abolition in rout is sudden but recovering is only with time.

11/01'14 : With protest there comes change

10/31'14 : What a human, if cannot feel.

10/21'14 : After we pass the smiles, after we run through the lows and walk through the highs, after all settled, calm and joyfully, why a bomb shell of irritation takes away everything we fought for, and sorry ain't fix anything anymore?

09/04'14 : I sit at one place and pace through the memory lanes. Lost in what could have been and what if(s). What's ahead is still uncertain and hazy, meaning held in one's heart and one can keep on walking. I am LCO and am seeking purpose...

09/01'14 : What makes Life valuable is that it doesn't last forever, What makes it precious is that it ends. Time is luck. So don't waste it living someone else's life, make yours count for something, fight for what matters to you. - Gwen Stacy, The Amazing Spider-man 2

08/31'14 : Leadership is a decision, not a position

08/24'14 : Words, snaps, expressions communicates and you're responsible for what you tend to communicate coz that portraits your image. To be bold, to showcase change and protest - one ain't have to be rude. Is it True?

06/17'14 : Some Lies can come True.

05/25'14 : Driving through the crazy sun, with a li'l bliss. Can there be a moment or two when the life will find its meaning. A purpose to live, motivation to chase, not looking over the shoulder, living in freedom away from this captive cries... Oh! the dream so bright, some day one day if it can be real.

05/23'14 : Last minute on earth, shatter the ground devour the soul evil and daunt. Earth shaking with anger, frights running through veins, numb thy limbs, chase the memories, lost future nothing ahead for running to. Flight is the way to escape, stay and die, its a dead end. Adios Enviado from grave. For tremors in mi city.

01/23'14 : Life turns with fall and with loss, follow though, pace on, live the moment gone, come by catch your breath, better its late than never again. Chase dream as your last day, it will all end maybe today. Follow your heart and everything it says.

12/09'13 : Philosophy is only to sustain life, but to survive life in reality, its all about calculation in terms of Mathematics and Physics.

11/25'13 : When you have no one around to look for, to grab for survival. Only thing that hold you and your thought to proceed towards future and to hope, is your family. Now its very important question who is your family? Not always blood can relate or connect to form a Family.

11/08'13 : Risk it all, Risk all you hast to find that dream beheld. Don't be scared, even if not prepared. There gonna be some way.

11/03'13 : "If there is one thing I've learned in all my years, in all my journey Ms. Murray is that - When it comes to dreams, one may falter. But the only way to fail, is to abandon them." - Alexander, Dracula S01E02.

11/02'13 : It's scary and there'll be distraction.

Close your eyes, focus at one point.

Let all sound vanish and listen only to your breathing,breathe slowly and deeply, let all your fears go away.

Let go of all your dread with the air your exhale.

Pause a while and you're ready to face that evil fear inside.

11/01'13 : There always a good time to quit but never a right time.

10/31'13 : Be responsible. Help others by helping yourselves.

10/29'13 : Don't ask questions, you don't need the answers to.

09/26'13 : Living life is swimming against the current, you have to keep striving before you get to breathe and you have find a safe spot before letting yourself float.

09/23'13 : "Denial is the first hurdle for a problem, Acceptance is the first step towards a solution."

09/11'13 : Remembering 9/11... We mourn, we stand strong because we stand together. And for 12 years, life is moving on and will go on, missing the departed and the gone.

09/07'13 : Old memoir hit present but past bruise hurts and pains, Acknowledging the scar, the time moves on. Leave present behind, faded to the past. Move on, move on, my soul your journey is still on.

09/04'13 : It takes lots of guts to come along a long way and achieve what I deserve, cross the rocks on the path way, stumbling, falling but again ready to stand and chase my dream. Its the idea I live for.

08/17'13 : A numbness of eating pauses, choked soul suffocated in stagnant clauses. I pull again and fall in pain. But hurt when I realize am stopping. Let it be free, my soul to breath, let me live my dream. Small steps, leaping high, not to stop until I die.

08/13'13 : Oh! Thee part of void soul, tatter conscience, lost bliss, gone so distant, utter something. Dreadful my being, without a word, in silence, in warmth of rolling tears.

08/06'13 : Life's guts blow before death. Roll on until the breath ends. So on, so on, so soon it be gone, never to return again.

08/05'13 : Life goes on, Life is to relate. Then blood flows down and the story ends. Haunted friction, dread illusion, startled delusion lost in the waves.

Oh! dear gone, merge with the loss, live by his death or let your blood play its role again. Cry out for help, but silence in 'em, let it be silent, in tears of broken dreams.

07/18'13 : Is it easier to pass judgement over deciding on someone's fate or jus' judging a sole from a distance than standing in front of a mirror and actually get to know own self?

07/17'13 : Inspiring a single soul and stretching helping hands to rescue a sole is the only way to true salvation.

07/17'13 : Save your health, Save your world, Paddle your bike if you aren't far away.

07/04'13 : Man knows ways to ruin, the fix is unknown. (Not Gender biased intended, Man here refers to society of humans)

06/30'13 : Don't be ashamed of being proud.

06/27'13 : I don't know who follow me, I jus' walk.

06/27'13 : They say know me, they may. They think, they know me, they think. But Do I really know myself in every turn? To believe, to change, to judge the answer is within.

06/19'13 : Life takes turns and we move on, sometime look back and mourn, sometime laugh with no reason. Life takes turns and we move on, leaving behind the gone and bless with what has to come.

06/16'13 : It's a matter of second we lose that touch, its matter of minutes we are lost in that unknown fog... then you remember 'em and try to connect again. But the gone are better be gone, to move on, to find another world.

06/12'13: It not a horrible fact that I have to see and I witness, the fact is horrifying when I scream but silently inside my mind and can do nothing.

06/08'13: "Fear is not real, its an anticipation of what maybe or may not be in the future. But don't take me wrong, danger is very real but fear is not, its jus a feeling." - Will Smith, After Earth

05/08'13 : A love is one I preserve, a lose is one I mourn and faith is that I earn, my soul cries for the one.

05/08'13 :The lose comes to take lives, breathlessly chock they fly but then again they form shapes, though another life to shine bright. -Hope is everything fellas never let it die.

05/19'13 : There is never a Dream wedding but there is always a great relationship and a perfect marriage, a dream can always come true if there's a perfect partner to spend a life with.

05/01'13 : Life plays hard tricks, leaving lose ends with no closure, haunting past triggered by gruesome memoirs. But still there is a way to hope, light seem at a distant sight comforting everything will be alright. Does life reminds of painful past or acknowledges hope to live future?

04/26'13 : Will not break down, will not fight, will not change a thing in your faulty might. Will not stop, will not let you take my pride, will not bow to you even if it means last second to survive. Its my WAR now and I WILL take it from here. Watch your steps or you may fall.

04/22'13 : Life is all about fighting chain of battles all along, but the real war is to survive each battle.

04/03'13 : The strongest force in the universe is not the gravitational force that pulls you down every time you try to take flight with your dreams, but the nuclear force that bonds with togetherness, with fulfillment of compromises and a passion to be on eachother's side, not too close though, to repel. 

That's why people who pull you down don't play a bigger role in your life than the ones who actually stick around to brighten each of your days. Enjoy the li'l things on your way.

03/29'13 : The expectations are the reason for death of relations.

03/29'13 : A Dragon's Fire can only burn it if held inside.

03/29'13 : Sometimes good things have to let go for better things to come.

03/27'13 : Sometimes you need to run, before you learn to walk. --Says So Tony Stark.

03/21'13 : Honesty is a treasure, don't waste it brushing and polishing others shoes. Character is a virtue, don't juggle it to entertain others ego.

03/21'13 : I can only be Me, sorry can't help it. I can't act or pretend to impress you. If you like me for who I am. Good! If you don't like me, you can show me the door and I'll be glad to walk out and close it behind me.

03/20'13 : Me and tide float up to the hill, reach the peak and seek menace deceive. I won't break from what I am, ain't stumble, or fallen free 'coz your love is what made me, you have been my endurance. --To my mother with Love.

03/16'13 : Loneliness is haunting, chasing thoughts grip stronger and suffocates the sole. Maybe not dead but death of soul.

 03/14'13 : Assumption, presumption and then drawing out the conclusion is easy. It's hard to actually know the person 'coz knowing is being responsible. Are you responsible??

 03/13'13 : I like to pretend am alone, like post apocalypse or plague. --Says So DM

03/13'13 : Is it a heartbeat or a broken heart, to love the one or hate someone li'l care you need that's not for anyone. It's a heartbeat or a broken heart, for the special one who matters.

02/26'13 : Its time to move on, leave 'em behind, pay respect to the lost souls and never to turn back or not wanting to be found. Adios Amigo!! 

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Admiring The Connection

-- Inspired by words of "The Connection"

This could be my last perfection
This could be my last Goodbye
This could be my last words
So Hear me out
This could be the last time

You did turn back on me
You ignored my feelings
My fire kept burning
until my heart is burnt
and consumed my livin'

Did I run from the past
did I ask my sins to wash my cast
then why you're running away
why you're hiding
seeking pleasure
in all the wrong things.

I know the truth
I can look inside your soul
I can bring the monster in you
Believe me, there is
nothing I haven't seen
Your pretty little games
its all known to me.

Am addicted to the gruesomeness
it makes me feel so real
how beautiful it is
I can see the demon in you
I can feel it screaming
so let it out
I believe
you feel it too.

Every day I wake up
am fallen to grave
am sick of myself
its end of my world
Now leave me behind
and measure your steps.
I don't need your sympathetic thought
I don't need your touchy corp
Every day I ask myself
is this thing real.
I don't have control
I wanna believe if there's little hope
But there is no other way to know
the tunnel is too dark
there no day after this night.
I feel like am hanging
at the edge of my world
I can't go on
I can't go on.

Am walking out with disappointment
may be I could stick along
But am finding no reason
am finding no option
am finding no attachment
not to move alone.
Jus' when I realize
the scary thing is to survive
and am not standing in a dream
all the pain is real
But agony doesn't feel
dripping blood surreal
but I die with a broken heart
chocked with own tears.

So I walk away
I leave you behind
and no other way
I find myself coming back.
So I walk away
I leave you behind
I am finding no way
to connect your heart.

This could be my last perfection
This could be my last Goodbye
This could be my last words
So Hear me out
no fate in my part
I die with broken heart
leaving this world
passing into the light.

But then again
why not fight
until you give me back
that's mine
even though am rejected
even if you make me feel neglected
I wanna breathe
I wanna shout
Am not paralyzed

The fire in me
can burn you down.
You can take control
but you can't take my pride.
I wanna breathe
I don't wanna die
so lets give it a try
you play your part
I will play mine.
Am never coming down.
Am not living for today
I have a long life
even though am gone
my words will be left behind.
Am a soul in the darkness
you can't make it darker
You can loose everything
but nothing I have to loose
to break The Connection.

--Token of appreciation for PAPA ROACH.