The Last 15 Days

Alas! Life can be so surprising
You've all the time in the world
But suddenly you've none.

Let's say one of day
I fell in your arms
As you held my hand
Fey my hairs
I wake up smiling
It's nothing
jus a tremor
A glitch for a blink.

We know
We believe in
We've all eternity together
But suddenly life changes
And here we are
Counting last fifteen days
Of us.

Life paused,
World stopped
Your beloved is taking a fly
Soon I fly above the earth
Away from you
Away from us.

Alas! Life can be so cruel
But so charming at the same time
Choices to make
A chance to say
A complete goodbye
Moment paused
and we held hands
For first couple of days

Death came everyday
A little more closer
With its silent steps
Trying to scare
Trying to seek
an opportunity to win

Every moment I was dying
An agony of misery
A fight to survive
Counting days
But not longer than fifteen

Last wish
to wait with you
Holding your hand
Close my eyes with
You in my last sight
All I want when I leave
You still be in my dreams
And I fly into the light
With peace in my heart

Those last fifteen days
Of agony of misery
All worth
If you be by my side.
As we vowed
For better and for worst
And we take the time
for our last goodbyes.

You may never see me
You may never touch
You will be left with my illusion
You may believe I was
But I am not.

Would you miss me
When am gone
You may never see me
When you come back
But those last fifteen days
you have your priorities
and our life
and miscellaneous activities
And life continues without me

Those last fifteen days
When I wait
You were missing
By my side
And by my death bed
You weren't there
for last goodbyes
You weren't there
For my wishes.

Alas! Death can be so faithful
To show the reality of life
We are all on our own
Everyday or on death bed
Without true love
Fictional and unreal
Keep haunted by the past
With no hope of future
Chained in the present loneliness
Until death comes to free us.

I Hope

- Teardrops parting tribute to Sir Charlemagnum

I hope you realize someday, thinking clearly and running every moment in your head. I know this very well you blamed me now and you’ll blame me then. But I hope you realize your actions, they were never the right ones, never to mend us one. Rather you words wounded our scars, broke our broken hearts.

You just had to say things even though they meant nothing, you jus' had to hurt us even though we were the only ones helping you and standing by your side. But I hope someday it all make sense to you. Someday you realize, what you had and why it's lost.

I hope someday you turn back and realize when I was there you didn't take a notice. I hope someday you realize when your fake single status actually became a reality. I hope someday you revisit my blog and realize, every single word I wrote, every single poem of mine is painful and is a cry. A cry for you to notice and agony worst than I die. I hope you understand why my creations are so dark and how I am lost to you in that dark.

I hope you remember, it’s not ones, not twice but several times, I gave you no hint but with exposed emotions asked you visit my letter to understand, what I went through, and how badly they hurt. How much that hurt more, when after thousand reminders you couldn't, you didn't even tried to open my words, how ignored I was, how unimportant I am. In love we hope we understand each other what sense does it makes if I explain my pain, still I ripped piece by piece and striped my lonely broken heart, showed you everything but you turned your back. Still with a smile, I tried really-really hard to make us work, in a hope that there could be an "us". I hope you realize how badly you broke that hope.

I hope someday you reach your sanity and you feel what I felt. I hope someday you try to understand someone like you never understood my pain. I hope someday you could make someone feel your love that I never felt. I hope someday someone can trust, depend, and feel protected with you like I have hoped in my heart. I hope someday you have everything I never had. I hope when you realize all this it’s not too late to start.