My Missing Piece

I miss you
I won't lie about it
every time you gone
I hope
Am gonna be
okay about it

But still there is a knock
on the door of my heart
I don't understand
what it is
I don't understand
its thought

A feeling chocked with emotions
an ache in my heart
an emptiness a void
a loss comes haunt my soul

I don't remember
the merry memories
I guess because
I remember the bad ones
I have thought about it
and I have said
"you left me
and if you leave again
I hope you never come back"
I hope I never want you back

But why my heart gives in
I still don't understand
I believe am used to
having you around
Its not love
but am handicapped.

My tears you never wiped
you are not the shoulder
where I cry
I can't let go of the past
the brutal memories
of you breaking my heart.

But I don't know I don't understand
why I opened my arms then
probably I will do the same
when you come back again.
Not sure if this is love
but I miss you with all my heart.

Death of Faith

I should stop living
coz life is without faith
and now I collapse
without hope
the thoughts of past
haunts back
my path has lost direction
but swings back on the same path
where am going am flown away
somewhere and somehow

Am bound to say things
I don't believe
but I pretend to be me
when am dead.
Only outside stay
am gone anyway.
Inside of me
my are emotions dead
am cold
as chills of morgue
every time I move
am haunted by myself

Someone talks about hope
everyone has taken a bit of it
now life has faded away
and light is bright at every step.
A self realization before my existence
lost  in dismay
Did I lose something
Or found myself.
Why am consumed with darkness
when light I see.

Thy Reflection

Oh! thee world
the laughters and the mourns
blisters forgotten into thin air
and depth has been lost

Call for a fellow survivor
venture upon own visage
evil or innocence consumed
in the fire of hell

Lost direction
hoping for a sweet gesture
fooled by empty words
only to outcast lies

Oh! thee world
the sorrow and the howls
victim of rage
and entangled into despair
hatred for one another
crimson stain on every eyes

Left with void
defied from mercy
no faith
no replies to our cries
where is thee
thou effigy we are designed
there is no Ergo,
alas! our fate
We can't separate
innocence and evil
our souls are tainted
our faith shaken
believe in thee
with only fear of dismay.

Blood on thy hand
Can you hear my mighty Lord
Even thee will not be spared
when judgement day arrives.

Look at thy visage
what thee see, My Lord
we are created
only thou to reflect.

Drowning Solitary

Solitary all I wanted
but death in solitude,
its mourning
not a drop of tear
not a soul to chase
lost in darkness
deprived of light
exiled from peace
only to die die and die

Is this all I worked for
is this my lonely fate restore
cultivated my own funeral flowers
dug my grave
and craved my name on tombstone

Drowning in my solitude
I question all those judging soul
what you have done
and what I have not.
Why am banished
and why am scarred
lost everything I had
and still been judged
without empathy
without faith
no hope to look at.

Asking for that little soul
that feels, that mourns
that cares about
what it is and what not
if I am even alive
if dead all along

Is there a little shred of hope
a silver-lining to look upon
or its long gone, departed all.
I had been drowning
and I jus' got to know.

Under Crimson Sheet

How many times,
Did you come for me
Taken pity for my broken heart,
Wiped my tears in my miseries

How many times,
Did you fought for me,
took my hand,
been on my side,
or whispered
"it's all gonna be okay
in a while"

"When was the last time,
you made me happy" You said instead
When I was broken
when my heart was aching.
You left me a million times
Even if I was with you,
alone was I.
I was in darkness
and you left me to be haunted
when I was scared
You were never beside me
to protect.
Steps I took towards you
I went another inch deeper
drowning in surreal fantasies
Trapped in a quicksand of lies.

I stand like a fool now
my lifeless corpse witnessing
Your deception
asking for reason
Why you did this
its all I was wondering

I gave up everything
I loved you for eternity
I could've given my life for you
but you choose to end me
suffocated me until I was breathless
stabbed my heart till last drop in me bleed
punched in anger until no one could recognise me
and then left me lifeless and cold
under crimson sheet soaking my death