Scared of Fright!!

A fright is a dark soul
comes to consume
it feeds on you
and your raising pulse
It uses your nightmare
Its your core fear
it speaks for you
and its your reflection
assumed to be true.

It manipulates you
it makes you question,
yourself, your perspective,
your trust in thyself.

A fright is a dark soul
comes to consume
it feeds on your beating heart
and devour your cast
tear open your chest
it pulls your guts out.

Fright is your enemy
a wall before you,
you got to climb.
It blinds you,
your perception to see,
perceiving drastic illusion,
deceive you into false beliefs.
Fear is not real, my friend!
Its only an assumption
its you yourself,
you're afraid to stare

Facing your enemy
brings out the reality,
the big monster
actually open to vulnerability.
It could be worst to know
it can be good too
its jus a choice for your clarity
an end of ordeal chase finally.

Now its out in open
its all real
and you know your vanity
Its your inhibition
its all about you,
you got to accept it
or you sweat assuming,
fear to fail or
thy scare of thyself
choose to live in fright
than facing your true self.

Separate Worlds

I am drifting away

Falling apart

Scattering into several pieces

I hoped you will come

Collect my soul

And make me whole

Saving from myself

But today am drowning

Getting away,

Far from you

I am drifting away

Falling apart

There is no us

In that future land

There will be you

There will be I

But living in our separate worlds

A wall has been framed

My world I dreamed is erased

The day of end

Starts today

  

I am drifting away

Falling apart

Scattering into several pieces

It is your choice

It is my life

but now we live in separate worlds.

Am Jus' a Ghost

Am jus' a ghost
a reflection fading away
now am gone to past
and left forever
passed afar.

I quit,
am not a fighter
I can't fight any more
Jus' tried holding on to you
but then why you let me die
Drown me
till my breadth gave up
on my life.

Am jus' a ghost
a reflection you saw
now am gone to past
fading from your memories
you moved on with your life
like I never been existed
vanished over a blink.

You were my future
but now am your past
I had been your life
so you jus' took it away

My heart was in you
Love is all I knew
But who could have known
you were jus a gullible mistake

Now only I pay that price
and my love one still cry
when you dump me
and crushed my faith
cut open my throat wide

A month later
someone found me
I was rotten
crying badly
My heart still couldn't believe
How you could have drown me

No one could tell
even if they see
Nor did I tell
when I should have seen

Now am jus a ghost
fading away
deceived by you
I could see your guilt

Wherever we are now
it shouldn't have ended this way
You are haunted by me
and by memories of hunting me.

- Inspired by "No One would Tell" dedicate to Stacy Collins (Real life story of Amy Carnevale). This shouldn't have happened to anyone.

Do You Need Me?

Am caught between
the delusion and reality
if am wanted
if there's a need for me

My time seems to be passing on
and every step I take
with no moving on
With no purpose
no part to play
and everything seems to be
meant for nothing

I ask who am I
for whom am living my life
Why I bear the pain
Why I have to sustain
my faith shaken by crushed fate
if they want me
if there's a need for me

Today what I see
is this my clarity
my existence is all the same
even without me.

Am caught between
the delusion and reality
if am wanted
if there's a need for me?

Cadaverous Soul

My heart is bleeding
my scars ain't heal
my soul is crying for an escape
but six feet seem too far

I tear my heart open
and shot my self in chest
but I can't feel
I saw everything around me perish
I can't do much
is this all I am here to stay

Now am drowning in the water
to escape my suffocation
I can at least try
when I can't fix anything
but still am here
am not gone
can't even rest in my grave

the nails in my coffin
can't hold me in
am chained with this punishment
paying for eternity
I am looking for a place to hide
but everything is ruined

Put me in front of guns
let your bullets
make me whole again
my thoughts are taken away
and my mind has left my soul
nothing ever built to last
I have lost everything
I had ever set to cast

Let me be gone
pass into the light
with you be I
if you try to grab my hand
I can come home
like last sunshine
shining bright on my eyes
And I close my eyes
for the final time.

When its time to leave my life behind
I seek peace where you are
where my world is whole
let me be gone
pass into the light
let me rest now
in peace into my grave
to its all you and I.

My Rock!!

Passing through the memory lanes,
noticed something bright,
shining rock with sparkling shine,
oh! my diamond forever,
reminds my love
growing strong.
Heart throbs
and beautiful smiles,
together we bound
with scared ties.

Stand by me,
my rock you be
for better or for worst
together we'll be.
I fall, I fail
but you're my savior
My knight all along
you're my lone rider.

The unwritten vows
never need be to
say those words,
still you know I feel it
as unproposed conventional love.

Its jus' like a fairy tale
a struggle for that perfect day
someday, one day,
it will come.
We wait for it together
hand in hand
you beside me
you be my rock!