Haunting Dread

All I feel is hopeless

Drive me crazy

Am anxious

I don’t know

What’s eating me

I am yelling silently

In my self.

God help me

From this feeling I get

Save me oh! Save me

Save me from myself.

I feel nothing expect

Am feeling this

I feel hatred

I feel dread

I feel nothing

Except I feel this way.

I feel nothing

Except am dismayed.

A haunting feeling everywhere

I can’t escape

No matter am any where

My affliction my anguish

How can I figure out some way?

How can I figure out some way,

Until I don’t understand

my mirrored self.

I feel nothing

Except for feeling this way

Dying crux, my faith giving up

On my way

Am running away

But I can’t escape

I can’t figure choices I make

To escape myself

To escape this grave

Mourning with woes

I keep running away.

I feel nothing

Except for feeling this way

I destroyed the good

While coming this way.

I can run away

But can’t escape my fate

To stand and face

Maybe a hope I have, someday.

-- Theme Picture borrowed from "Dark Girls" documentary.

Accepting Denial

"Denial is the first hurdle for a problem, Acceptance is the first step towards a solution." 

An inspiration touching that naive face
a tragedy that pushes to success
breakthrough for inspiring the change
denial to chain everything.

Let me breathe,
Let me go
to inspire those certain souls,
lost in darkness,
lost in unknown,
lost in wild anguish,
Let me be
their peace and hope.

Destroyed faith of human nature
diminished faith in God
decoyed, deceived, disrespected
fight ends when everyone is gone.

Fight for survival each day
struggle to live one more second
whales, animals and human beings
anguish destroying everything.

Hidden in denial
Hidden from truth
darkness mantled way to move
Calm we be
breathe air of relief
eyes settling in
to see a way through
finding a way to new future
finding a way to live together.

Innocent blood shredded be dry
move with grave souls, we cry
we mourn, but we try
a future, a way ahead
a fantasy if ever be real.
Truth to accept over denial.


Appealing all anguish to turn into ashes and peace behold in whole world, where everyone lives together, no one be the master, no one be trained to surrender, no one is killed on the name of God... Is that really not pssible, to dream of such a world?

Again!!

Life turn
tide run
slash and break
over the soar
We run
fall wretched
break our heart
our faith

Darkness of clouds every where
so cold, I am blind
hands stretched for you
aback I stay, no say
rolling into the fears of night

Hauted souls
dread I feel
left alone
frighten with ownself
reflection mirrored
shadows have surrounded
captivated in my apprehension
saturated with clutter stress
I don't have a connection
break through,
or wrectch my soul.

Life turn
open eyes
I stand to walk anyway
choose ways
found some
suffocation still aint lemme breathe
I walk, I walk
I keep taking failed steps
I see, I can see
Lights on
day glow
bright sun, rise through
tunnel ends
distant light
new morning rising through.

Cloudness shreds away
fallen darkness
has been raised
Life will be in place again
ripple can turn its way.

Destiny held bright
unfullfilled purpose to find
falling again to fly high
keep running,
Run again
fall again
my soul have to rise again
life paused, but turn back
run ahead
to begin again.

To Be Gone

So on, these words
try to make a song
but can it utter
the pain I have gone?
Lights passing out
and how I been left alone
empty room
in silence I mourn.

Defied by fate of love
in coldness
I have abandoned myself.

So on, these words
are trying to make a song
but they
can't utter
what it takes to be gone.

What its like to be gone
Lost somewhere all alone
never to be found
am gone
What's to be forever gone.

No shoulder to cry on
No shoulder to rely on
No one I can seek for
No one around
to be called my own.

With invisible existence
invisible like am gone
in my grave am all alone
six feet down in a hole.

How's it to be gone
Lost somewhere all alone
never to be found
am gone
Gone forever with no mourns.