Monster Titan

Monster, oh! evil
devour thou own bairn,
Looking with one eye
frighten with thee essence
with monstrous fright
ye ordain a fight.

Thou ain't know
where ye destine
what is thee quarry
why thy hauteur.

Thy will be thee
Thou vacillation
crush under firm vanity
push away thee precious
toll to die alone.

Bairn love entrusted
with free thoughts
capture to suffocate
in golden cage,
forced to love
thy mistake.

Far away
far away
the sound of Nightingale
sing the winning war
still thy loose to thyself.

Consumed by You

Empty darkness
Consuming my soul
With haunted hollows
am numb with cold
Paused with my
Paralyzed thoughts
Can't move
an inch ahead

Slipping away
am drifting apart
future seems so lost
I have gone too far
you're distant further
Can't reach you now.

Am down with chills
With your coldness of heart
Where is moment of first love
where is that first kiss
that sudden rush
beating heart so fast
catching my breath
I could finally utter,
"I am in love,
am in love"

Excited to see you everyday
long walk on beach
praying the day never end
in the dark
lost in thoughts of you
holding hands
together forever was true

The memories shattered
each single one at a time
little by little
we drifted further
what made us stand here
where I see no future
why life is darkened
why we are here.

What if I could have walked away
the very day you discarded me
why not the next time,
when my hopes crushed hopelessly
you chose someone else over me
why not time after that
or the next or the next
why there was always another time.

You moved on
but I stuck in
couldn't let go
the faith I believed in.
Life could've been different
if I had chosen differently.
How our life could have been
if you never have met me.

Am Your Reflection

Let me tell you
with my broken heart
I had always loved you
and I will keep doing too
If you don't understand me
its okay
I can take that hurt
but don't misjudge
for what I don't deserve.

Think for a while
if you talk to me again,
and if its the last time
before I evanescence,
blurring my human form
turning to ashes,
burnt in rising flames
never to return.

Its okay
if am unfortunate
but I held to you
for better or for worst
I have given
my words
written my life
on your name.
I am not scare
of loosing myself
I not afraid of getting hurt
but daunted by the turns
where we might have reached
everything I say
you misinterpret me.

How can you imagine
I can ever be,
coarse and bawdy
if I mean all the wrong things
my life has no meaning.
My existence is nothing but lie
without you am done living.
I can't tell you to take my hand
I am your own reflection
you face yourself
you look at my eyes
see if it bleeds
with tears of misery
how can we mistrust each other
how can we stand facing different bent
we're part of each other,
even if your heart can't deny
may be deep deep within
you know the real me
whats stopping you to except
am still who I used to be.

I am your own reflection
look into my eyes
and tell me if am untrue
look with your heart
I am not dead cold
am not dead to you
don't call me a stranger
tell me where am wrong
why you judge me
for what I haven't done.

Let me tell you
with my broken heart
I had always loved you
and I will keep doing too
If you don't understand me
its okay
I can take that hurt
but don't misjudge
for what I don't deserve.

Remember am your reflection
I will get torment,
if ever you been hurt.
I am your reflection,
I am part of you
You may discard me,
so abandoned I will be.

Love lost to Lust

What's the difference between
Love and lust
One so tender with melody in heart
but then there's an apprehension
hidden in thoughts
buried in guilt.
Can't be seen
with licit heart
but deep within
its what he wants.

Can beat the desperation
throwing your life away
over a moment so temporary
but rush through the veins
adrenaline so addictive until it ends.

Thrill that not to last
but excitement once again
its like falling in love
only better
with all these hidden games.

But there is a dark corner
every time you come home
every second you face her
why you feel so consumed
why you are so choked out.
every time you close your eyes
it haunts you like
something chasing you
and you are getting caught
wherever you go
you are not alone.

Maybe today you slip the judgement,
Sooner or later
you'll have to pay
there'll be a time
you'll have to chose
who will win you
Is it your admiral voluptuous covert
that makes you feel alive
that sustain your passion to high
or the angelic love,
you called that compassion
your occult trust
your dubiety to the one.
You pause,
why you've to think
You've thought of your benefit
it was always been lone veracity.
You can't love anyone
it had always been lust
and your greed you chose all along.

Love stood understand shadow
asking you why?
for the betrayal,
for taking advantage of her trust
"Why you played me,
Is it that you no more love me"
Then she comes to the most
adage question, "Do you love her?"
funny that question never made sense
it was never a question of love
or whom you want,
It is your benefit,
It is what serve you save future
Why it is always about you
when you're most pathetic
deceitful figure of love.
Unworthy of any ones mercy
You played with both
you had no line between love and lust,
you touch the surface
but never reach the soul
deep inside you're pit darkness
void in your heart
despair of ever being whole.

What's the difference between
Love and lust
One so tender with melody in heart
but then there's an apprehension
hidden in thoughts
buried in guilt.
But lust shadows love oh! divine
love fades away
lust excite you in different ways
if caught to addiction
there is no escape.
Maybe today you slip the judgement,
Sooner or later
you'll have to pay.
Choice was never yours
when you choose over lust
Our memories went blind
there's nothing to remind
'coz you left me behind.

I am ME.

I don't know
where dreams fly away
pacing through
future seems all blur
clearance to look at my path
loosing chances
falling off my hand
Can't even express
how am going down.

Letting go of your hands
I can't feel
expect for am nostagic.
There is no opportunity
maybe am stuck too deep
dream is only
a picture to look at now
What I wanted
got no shape now.
I wanna be someone
what my heart wants,
to be known to everyone
reach one and all
and inspire your life.
But lost my inspiration,
maybe that dream
meant to be gone
and never be reality
For I understand.

I don't understand myself
where am meant to go
is my present my future too.
Maybe the signs are too clear
Maybe am too scared to accept
fighting with myself
I am getting too comfortable
Where I am.

Defying the facts
of Who am I
Defying to accept
who Am meant to be.
All my decisions seems
to directionless
try my heart
what it beats
how I want to be
is this is what I want
or I want to be ME.

This is my last chance
this is my last salvation
to figure out a road to escape
to get to know
Who I am.

You ask me who I am
"Tell me about you,
and why you are"
I need to answer myself that
I am my reflection
what more to that,
Tell my heart
what I want
what my beliefs are
figure out myself
my path,
I have drive through
find out my way
my first step
to figure out this,
who can best judge
looking in the mirror
who I am?
I am Me.
And am not letting go of that.