Peaceful Buddha

Everybody, Have a great and peaceful New Year...

Presenting you the peace loving Buddha I made. For more snaps of the Buddha sculpture, check out the Slide show.

I hope there comes no rage and hatred shadowing the world in the next year... or the years to come after... I know its too much to ask for from the world.... But please people! Readers, Please Help the world to bring Peace, for the world to Heal !!

If it needs to spread anything, spread Love and Happiness...

The Lone Teardrop

By Sir Charlemagne from Feline Smile

Sometimes some touching words leave you with some happy and sad tears, so perfectly acquainted with your life that you left numb, how someone else felt exactly what you feel.

1 Jan 2009 we started to a path unknown and new, we started our journey and we started to walk together and decide to continue on this forever and always. Today's 31 Dec 2010, its been 2 years we had passed ups and downs, and still passing some li'l twist and turn in the drive of our life. Whilst continuing this journey, today morning I told him about my Grandpa and his last couple of days. And today on our 2nd Anniversary the beautiful and much precious gift he has gifted me. He gift me with a poem, a poem to my Grandpa, a poem that something I wanted to create but the words never whispered back. I was practically AWWed! By the words and feeling as if they are mine even if not being mine.
So first time am posting something not created by me or under the name of Outlines of Shades but brought to its existence, only and only by Sir Magnum with his honest emotion.

A Li'l Salute to my Grandpa
















Staring back at the blank plastered ceiling
waiting for, listening eagerly for whispers
of my last breath escaping
floating above all dear ones,
through the hospital roof
and into the eternal sunshine.
"Hold on just another day,
for your granddaughter's graduating today"
These lone whispered words
in the voice I so loved
of my soulmate, of my wife
wiping the long tear streaks
on her age-impressed cheeks
reverberated through my worldly demise.
I remember her still fresh life
memories of her sweet, buxom smile,
and her dear daughter, the star of our lives
still learning to navigate through life.
Ah! how quickly does time pass away
why it was just yesterday
when she paddled over to me on all fours
beaming with the brightest of smiles
prodding with her tiny little stubs
blabbering on in her eternal rhymes.
Remembering again, my life that has been
recapturing inside, the sounds and the sights
the moments and memories that I have acquired
I wish to carry along with me to the other side.
I look at them all once more through my hazy eyes
as a single lone tear slides silently but gently,
traversing its short life to the ear from the eye.


P.S : Its really lucky to have someone in life who understands every strand of emotion I feel. I wish today that I have it forever.

Merry Christmas !! to all Readers

- by Outlines of Shades

Sorry Readers, for posting this a day after Christmas. I posted it on Facebook, mailed everyone I but forgot to put it on my blog.... So Sorry Sorry Sorry.... But the delay is worth the wait.... Check out a snap of the very special Christmas tree below:

I made this exquisitely hand-crafted miniature Christmas tree made from a complete scotch-brite packet...
unbelievable? .. Believe it!
But with a l'il help from my Star... Sir Magnum with the Star on the tree and standing strong black base over which the whole creation is balanced.

Best Wishes
Cleora

P.S : Merry Christmas to all... Christmas is all about merry, at least its what I believe... so my friends and family cherish the merry when you shower some of it.
Check the slide show for minute details.

A Way To INCEPTION

If you love some one so much and have spent happily a lifetime with that person then if you get a chance to spend the another lifetime again, to grow old together, to live a new life, You choose not to.
Jus' watch "Inception", not needed to say anything about the movie as it speaks for itself and if it ain't the imdb does. But the point it proves is that how a simple small harmless idea can bring a huge change in someone for better or for worse. We continually try to change things around us, God wonders when we really did try to change ourselves, when was the last time we stood in front of mirror not putting a makeup over our arrearage rather facing our own inside the very core where there is only survival of darkness and chilling cold. Where no one, no matter how close they may be is allowed, other than you yourself, that inner core that can be judged, protected and shared only by us, but only after we face it.
Sometimes we accept changes, for the sake of situation, what world demands. Some other times, for the sake of someone. But its only you to judge if that change is what you really are or jus a mask to pretend to put on a look-good face.
Whatever the reason is to change, even if you pretend, there is a change that exists, and for that very moment and every flow for every new experience and a new idea there is

something of a beginning, a start called an "Inception".

Best wishes
Cleora

P.S : If you still waitin' to watch the movie... then definitely watch it soon, but when you are in mood to handle heavy stuff. 'Coz this movie will literally sweep you off your feet.

And Leonardo... Well Done! if you read my blog ;)

I Am Nobody

- by Outlines of Shades

Its nobody

who touches my heart,
Its nobody
who feels my part,
Its nobody
who wipes my tears,
Its nobody
who holds me in fear,
Its nobody
from the start,
Its nobody
to mend my broken heart.

Several tears
I weep in darkness
in front of a silent mirror
choking in silence.

Its me
sitting alone now,
Its me
somewhere somehow,
Its me
lost in the darkness,
Its me
clawing in the recess,
Its me
falling apart,

Its me

dying of a broken heart.

Swishes Of My Brush

Am uploading my new painting in my slide show but by any chance if you miss to have a glance of it... here you can.

Look Through The Darkness

Darkness, its one simple word that symbolizes many things all at the same time. Darkness can be meant as in grave, a lost faith, suffering of pain. But is it associated only with the negativity in life? Let me share with you some new shades out of darkness.

When I close my eyes
and sleep
I dream though
the darkness I see.
When I remember my past
the happiness and sorrow
already cast,
I look though the darkness
turn the pages
wrote in black.
The hope lost
walkin through a tunnel
if lighted all place
how can I find a way out?
I wish for a darkness
all around
to see a li'l ray of light
to find a hope beside
a way I can find.
Darkness can be meant
as in grave,
a lost faith
and suffering pain,
a darkness is ignorance
but reason to question
an answer to face.
Darkness can be a strength
an unconditional belief
to sustain,
Darkness is absolute faith
in a dark room to be safe.
Dark can be grave
a funeral to take
but there's
other side of darkness
the darkness over which
our universe is held.

P.S : There's no pleasure to have colors and light in life always, without the darkness sometime shading our path.

Lonely Love

A touch of unconditional care,
faith to wait for the right moment,
sudden surprise of being happily shocked,
numbed by my own defination.

But then the darkness of questions,
unanswered insecure thoughts.
Uncertain fate of loneliness,
trustless scars that paused.

Happen to heal everytime,
each scar left by every fight.
Pain jus fades away,
and peaced with dried eyes.

But am so tired now
dis-believe it'll ever stop.
Lost my faith with scattered pieces,
looking at my broken heart.

Trapped in my insecure fears,
my cries are unheard
These sobbing graves insida me
won't be burried with love.

Painless Suicide

Its very easy to runaway.
So soon it has been too late.
Still taking a last trip
down the memory lane,
with broken heart
and cloths with blood stain.
Am silent, quite but restless,
they blames all on me
and unlawful justice,
breakin my dreams everyday day,
now everysec I blame my existence.

Darken my eyes
don't get wet anymore
my heavy heart
jus let everyone go.
"Is it easier to let all go?"
"oh! my guilty heart
how can you make 'em satisfied?"
I saw no way to rescue myself,
I saw its comin,
its closer to my pain
"can I at least find a way?"
to bid a goodbye
to let 'em abide by
to find a last way
a way for painless suicide.

I think about it
again and again
find new place
find new way.
but what would be there
on that last sec,
what I would want
other than living again.
"I love you" would I want, to say
or a goodbye grace, I will take.

If I close my eyes
who would be the last face?
Would they be smiling
in dry eyes
or drop a tear or two
on my lifeless wound.
Would I feel any pain
until I breadth
or embrace the death
in lonely myth.

Would I find a way,
to bid a goodbye
to let 'em abide by
a way for painless suicide.

Invisiblity

His heart aches with the
pain of loneliness,
The feelin' of invisibility
haunt his way through darkness.
"Let Go!"
the screams surround his hope.
He pulls a bullet to his heart
which passed through his soul.
Nobody came to his funeral
Not a single tear for his departed sole.
A decade passed with
snow and rain.
As Eclipse falls to his grave,
the soulless body rise again.
His bleedin' eyes to looks at the world
"I wanted to quit!" he yells as far.
"Is there any solution to my aching heart"
He weeps over and over again
sitting in lonely dark.
Death ain't a solution,
he regrets for his mistake
"not even Light came to take me
is this is how am discard?"
Now he is invisible to earth
and each sole he pass.
I asked him "tell me if you feel any difference
from the pain of your scars."
he nodded whilst saying
"a single step, I wish I could have start"

P.S : A painfully beautiful Post by Sir Charlemagne over the same base "The Agony of a Heavy Heart".

Bleedin Eyes

The eyes with which he once looked at me
as once he told they followed me
some hidden love I made him feel
and believe in hope yes i did.

There came another day
he looked again
to share his feelin
to share my trust
his eyes so comforted
I lived a fairytale
he brought me back my life
he showed a dream
a princess a precious
a castle in stars.

But I saw him today
same eyes filled with hatred
his finger pointing at me
blaming me, judging my scars
I ain't believe in fate anymore
hurt but i believe I took steps so long
but did I miss a single step
that I fell short of
distance to cover that bridge to yours
your heart was never to my reach
Now am sitting in darkness
all of my own
unnoticed tears dried on my cheeks
and nothin' with and nothin' I seek
departed from destiny
I have lost my path
my heart aches so much now
I tired of this walk.
I try to now remember your eyes
those sparkling beauty I had missed
the love I found but all with my fake beliefs
the feeling of hatred at last it stared me with.

Its Sad How Loss Comes

Its sad how loss comes and struck us with its hardest stroke suddenly and unexpectedly. Without us having a blink of an idea that something matter to us would be taken away in next couple of seconds, that one thing which we want to protect with all of our life and nurture with our soul, if given a chance to. That one thing that will tear our heart inside out if we loose its existence from our life. The pain of aching heart and nausea of aching stomach due to the emptiness and hollow feeling jus never dies away. And all this numbness with a thought of, how loss can come and stuck us with its hardest stroke suddenly and unexpectedly.

What made me sense such feelin'? Well weird thing is how a small to smallest episode of incidents can affect our state of being. How something we haven't been a part of, can drastically change the directions of the our thoughts to recall if this has or could happen to me.

Yes, all am feelin' right now is sorrowful with discarded faith from the judgment of heavenly powers. Reason...? if I write it now... you won't be reading the document ahead. Ya! am tryin' to build a suspense here but with a promise to let you know of the reason before I end this post.

It takes a long time for the scattered pieces to come together and create a beautiful screen, it also takes lots of effort to make the clay to sculpture but we don't know how long this beauty of that mesmerizing happiness and satisfaction can stay. We do everything possible in our part to hold to that moment and cherish the benevolence out of it. We don't know hows the next second gonna be like, is it gonna devastate our future, or gonna bless us with more than we can imagine. If life is an uncertain "how?" which if frightens us then we wont be living at all. Someone said "Every song has a chord a final movement, Whether it fades out or crashes away. Every song ends but is that any reason not to enjoy the music."
Absolutely, its about life and how You live it. Each one of us is worthy of the beautifully waved life we are living. It depends on only us what we see and what we carry, is it dark ash from the past or uncertain hope of joy and cheers ahead. Decide yourself what you choose! 'coz it gonna decide if you are stuck or going to move on. Life is another name for water, which flows making new paths and changing directions.

By the meantime I need to figure out, how I move on?

Take care
Cleora

P.S : The reason for such thought is, I was watchin' a particular series (Genre : Drama) these days. From where I absorbed the pain of lost lives of the dear ones, which made me numb with a fear, how am gonna deal with such situation if face any.

Guity with your Lies

They call me refuge
am a piece of garbage
they call me discarded
am suffocatin'
what am suppose to do?

I call 'em, they're full of curve
piece am stuck with, under sky of dust
can't depend on li'l mean feeling of yours
so ask 'em dig li'l deeper
so they lay far apart.

I have no grudge of my own
swallowin' all the pain I got
I bleed the thoughts,
the word you put me to hurt.

How can you point that finger at me
I wanna shut the door on you
now its time for taking action
am not guilty no matter
how you put the question
I will again ask you why.

Am gonna discard you
without even explaining why
I leave you to wonder and cry
I will end with you
when its minute to midnight.

Lost Him to Life

He walked away from me
taking small steps
my voice was shaking
loosing him in grave.
I watched him go away
I waited all his way
did he care where I go?
'coz he didn't turn a single time
a last glance he didn't care to steal
a last love he didn't make me feel.
I waited still my eyes go all his way
a hope, a faith, something change, and he will stay.
He went away, he's gone his way.
Am now standing at edge
before I fall into my grave.
I think of the memories
I cherished with every passing day.
A smile he had so dear,
a life he made so worth,
A way he made me walk on,
I hold his hand, as he held mine
he called me his precious sweetheart
with all the colorful dawn.
Now the world is grey to me
with the shadows of haunted sober
happiness and laughter buried in probable trait.

He walks away, he walks away,
his head down and shoulders straight.
he walked away, he's gone his way
didn't take a glance, didn't feel my stay,
where he walked away is no more my way,
My hope got lost and all faith is stopped
I have lost my way I have lost a way
the way he found me on, someday.

Silence That Chills

An empty darkness is haunting me
am lookin' around
sounds of unknown screams.

My heart is empty
surrounded with fears
sucking the blood my past had bleed
am emptiness left with scar
anguish memory which never heal.

Look at me
with eyes filled with tears
can I smile after
you mimic my mirror.

The pain of silence
is locked under water
reflection of purity
I had bear
A second it took
to make all shatter
into the darkness lost forever.

Abandoned memories now chasing me
I've lost my way aimlessly
Now if you come back
I won't be able to forgive.

Pick You, I Do

- Answered to Prick Me Not, My Lovely Rose by Sir Charlemagne


















Picked you once
Will Pick you again,
Every stage you're mine
Pick you in lost fate
will Pick you when I cry
The sorrowful dismay
will never let me sway behind
I will pick you once
I will pick you fine
I pick you always
in shadow and shine.

You're thorn closest to me
You said you promised
you'll protect me
Stranger be not, my protector.
prick will hurt in silent shutter.
Hurt you once, hurt you fine
pain I feel in lonely eyes.
Picked you once, will pick you twice
pick you always my only spike

Trapped inside a Lilith

I can see, the tears dropping from my eyes
I can feel its warmth, rolling down my cheeks
its my face, its my lips
and the words that I speak
but I don't know who is it?
who's that devil
controlling me?

I can see, I can see
but something else is controlling me,
the unfaithful trust am bound to believe,
someone else's life am forced to live.

I can feel, I can see,
crying my soul back
crying to seek
crying for a second chance
crying to be free

trying to breathe, trying to live,
air of trust, beginning of belive
I had thoughts, hoped held high
but something else is now part of me,
insida me, beginning to deceive.

I don't know what am fighting for,
I don't know what am fighting against,
all I want weeping loud
hide in arms of someone my own.

All I want is someone to understand,
am scared, trapped by fears
all I hope for an unconditional trust,
believe me, my soul is scarred
accept me for what I am.
Fill me with love, don't despair me.
Am not a Lilith! Am not a Lilith!
An innocent girl still hiding inside me

Crying Howls in Galloping Street

- Inspired by The Highwayman by Alfred Noyes



















Crying howls in moon light
night so dark bleeding eyes
firing storm doesn't calm down
whats left with dawn
is mourning sound.

Moving on with tied up thoughts
pulling sword scaring soul
truth degrade, fallin' inception
drenching rain
lost the perception

Galloping street
stands waiting today
Alone I scream weep in silence
tears role down warmin' cheeks
awaited still in false belief.

Crying howls lookin' for peace
unsettle memories, burning kiss
seasons so gone cold it is
heartless emotionless left with this.

Silver moon shines in morning light
shadow so grave dark is sky
grooming blossom in crying eyes
waitin' your step, you will pass by.

There comes the autumn
I waited so long
now tearin' eye with joy with dreams
comeback I will live another life.

Passed by the same horses
rode over those same street
wines and beers
bottled they leave.

I awaited still
you yet to come
my eyes are drained
weepin' on.

So long it has been
I went to that inn
sat in pause
not hungry, no feel
upstairs my room
still a while
blood stain on floor
a gun to my chest

Is that the reason
I can't cry
Is that the reason
I am silent
Is that the reason
you wont come.
On those galloping ways
you'll never pass by.

Forgotten Flames

In my mind where
I beginning to think
where several paths
in front of me
which way it links.
Intention too instinct
no route to be convinced
goes on in my own way
in hollow thought
in empty space
Lost in the crowd
world filled with hatred.

Its too dark
Its to feel
numbing cold
forgetting chills
stand up
take a step
forgotten past
can't keep you held.

If I pretend
a blink of freedom
uncaught in destiny
Melody in rhythm
lost in reality.
Leaving pieces
of solace behind
unwrapping your soul
to cover up sins
abandoned in corners of mind.

Its too dark
Its to feel
numbing cold
forgetting chills
stand up
take a step
forgotten past
can't keep you held.

Not so hard
to keep it real
end of day
all you feel
passing green
passing gray
every stone
carried away.
Frozen screams
burnt to grave
tattered soul
demons crave.
Bleeding heart
pulsing fire
its my life
a lonely satire.

Its too dark
Its to feel
numbing cold
forgetting chills
stand up
take a step
forgotten past
can't keep you held.

By Outlines of Shades

Beggar In Love

Am a beggar in love
I have nothin' to give
A treasure of pain
weepin' ocean I cry
can't give that too instead.

Still I took the step
chose the way of mistake
I fell in love
so true I trust.
Faking face inside the mirror
lies and paints dreams aerial
mocking my reality
it smiles on my agony.

You were the rescuer of time
salvation you had promised
"As long as you're in my castle
my princess you'll be my precious"
I was living in fairytale
singing birds in strawberry lakes.

But am a beggar in love
if I have nothin' to give
how do I pay back
you gave some dream
broke 'em in pieces
so I have given all up
I've thrown my love away.

Am leaving your way
go ahead be brave
your pretty li'l part
now you can get back.

Am a beggar in love
I have nothin'
that I can take it back
I had your li'l love
my only way
from cruelty and pretend
but along came the past
now swept me away.

I can't blur those hurt
the pain survived I had
trust left so weak
to depend I did.

Now you again promised
Redemption came your way
to earn a li'l bread
and a piece of respect
but my love, I already left your way
my heart is stoned
my feelings are dead
I remember the time
when I had lost all ways,

Do I have reason to move on
to erase the space in between
there's darkness in my heart
where memories carved in scars
every lie every denial every mistake
led my scream in silence
I wanna feel a feeling of love
feeling to cross
this distance that divides.

Am a beggar in Love
I have nothin' to give.

The Void In My Chest

Am a face so cold
expressionless
emotion I had
drown in gust
water now roles down
warms my cheek
saline it tastes
sound of drip.

Innocent memories vanish
and fade in darkest shades
silent are my screams
disappearing in my grave
I look down, no hope
endless road i see
no destination no motto
no pretending perfectionist.

I take a step to end this passage
to move on and laugh again
fake a smile to smile again
weeping storm draining rain
I stand alone I have been left again
Am looking down on what I wrote
couple of notes crumble in my hold
I care No More they say
the endless road must have a way
the grass will be green some way ahead
I care but I turn around
I smile I see the sun shine
still these scars remind
past so ghastly left behind.

June

Whole June past away
not a single word
I could phase
scars are haunting
dreams of death
memoirs unmasked
intense wound
bloody pain

Silent scream
now watching my grave
carried away
with furious flames.

If there's a way
to control the time
every blink of second
to be captured in mind
spil that sand
from the glass of hour
to separate the pain
for now and forever.

Straight From Petals' Heart

I accept all the petals of your heart,
holdin your hand again am steppin to start
Suddenly there's somethin' stung me,
am hurt heart broken but love I see
mournin' time I took a while
instead of regret I pass a smile
now tell me will you try with me,
'coz we fail and trying in worthwhile.
I can't stop judging scars inside me,
several years it takes me to heal.
Its pain the aching heart unreplaced
but placing another will take me to dread
the thought leaves me so empty
I try to run away
not take another pity
passin by your face catch my way
first time we were alone
first time jus being eachothers' friend
a laughter out of darkness
a light that kept shinning my way
feels like a dream today
blurred past that was made of clay
promise me now
jus one more time
may not be diamond
but will stay
tough enough to face the rough
in your palace where I will be safe.

Tears Of Broken Dreams

Its broken
its saline
its warm
when it flows down.
It hurts
its unsaid
its quite
but it screams out.
It has no color
it means nothin'
its so worthless
its a waste.
It doesn't have to be
it leads no where
its a sign
of disappointment
and of fears.
It shows no hope
its end of the way
its a shadow
of the dark grave.
It asks for mercy
it begs to survive
it comes for love
it goes when die.
Its a pity
its a pain
it cries inside
with a stitched smile.
Its broken
its silent
it has no color
its a sign
its a waste
its a shadow
its a pity
its a love
its a disappointment
its a pain
its unseen
its my tears
of broken dreams.

Am Not! THE ONE

How can I be the one
the charmed can't stay long
the spell will break some how
the color will darken our vow
signs aren't right to mow
then how can I be the one.
Seen that smile I never see
all the pictures hold good to me
miss the one I can no where see.
No one remembers
fade I will be
stand alone I shall always be
no one to hold
dying in scarcity.
I can't be the one
the mistake the evil
the haunting reality
I've carried with me
blood on my mouth
of the murdered souls
every night every day
the light fades
another inch away.
How can I be the One
letting you go
cherish your pure soul
bloody my hands
nested my corrupted thoughts
palace I built was built of gold
carrying a diamond
found in rough
but deserted dearth
unfound till now
drowned some where
under Atlantis shore.
The one could be the one
have you forgot the man
the laugh the chill
so fine you can be
no cries no screams
no failing dreams
the freedom the air
the never ending sky unseen
the cherry and the champagne
those beautiful words coming
no guilt no fight
or pain in between.
You say you were lost
I say you've lost
Lost a way
lost a path
lost a destiny
to your heart
Lost a passion
Lost your cast
you're now loosing
your own past.
See yourself look in the mirror
Man standing infront of you
are you strong
are you confident
are you the person
like captured innocence
those still memories
speak a lot
you look good
apart from me being your part.
I wish I never existed
exist in your life
or at least if I came
I wish could have lost.
I can't be the one
am ditched with pain
loneliness and blame
am wicked insane,
troubled to be hold
relation I find
am a gypsy wondering the heights.
When I look back
I see the time
stuck sand hurt my eyes
the flowing river
pass me by
so don't regret don't feel sorrow
never drop a tear
for trust be the one
never to be borrowed
if you remember
remember what I say now
remember this song
which I call
Am Not! THE ONE.

Salvation To The Rescue

All my life I was loved
carried with all my flaws
sane insane pain was touched
then i see feelin' of disregard.

Pain carries no fear
stupid and brave it bears
so much darkness filled in passion
death feels like only salvation.

Anger led to no mercy
cries and tears are not worthy
what is scar that's never lost
but heals pain to bruising past.

Then he touched
with love so pure
scars jus vanished
fade in fog.

Hope for peace
he asked me so true
forgive and forget
move from these blues.

Pain will disappear
with med of trust
mountain ocean
together we'll cross

Rest in peace
being one soul
happily ever after
one day we shall be.

My Only Weakness

I call it my only weakness
when I stand strong
and can't show broken tears
I hide fears
don't speak
that my heart is crying
from distant creed

I call it my only weakness
I love
but let go
I stop where
am slow.

I call it my only weakness
I sob
I fail
I try
for one more time.

I call it my only weakness
am scared
but I hide
am not
brave in my lonely times

I call it my only weakness
the strength
the smile
a fear of whisper hidden unfaced

I call it my only weakness
when I fight without an alibi
I keep quite
when hurt touches deep inside

I call it my only weakness
when am alone I realize
undone my mistake
can't be buried behind

I call it my only weakness
am cold
I fake
when am strong
but weak at the bottom line.

Vampires’ Grave

Once it’s gone
nothing can fill that space
its dark
its empty
it’s a living hell.
Bitterness costs something,
sometimes it’s so frustrating,
pit of hatred in heart
where disappointment creeps within.
I can't control,
I cannot trust,
several mysterious spells
the wind cries to thrust.
Sobbing memories
Keep the faith blurred,
But then I took a pause
to acknowledge the trust.

Crossin’ several lost souls,
I emerged.
Rose from the dead
to a furious hunt.
Feeding upon the crimson luscious,
sucked through the flowing gall.
Livings called me callous vamp
with their inhuman stung.

Returned to skeleton boneyard,
I wiped my colored past
snow has covered my grave,
the stone’s beauty has past,
but after so many lives I fed
now it’s time for me to rest.
I don’t breathe,
I don’t sob,
coz I feel nothing
neither glee nor gust.
My death hasn't
changed the world,
no rage or revenge
can make it shut.
I am a Vampire
filled with grudge,
but am scared
with these bruising facts.

Turned to the dead
I found warmth of love
overwhelmed with several words
I stood mute with tears.
My soul so purified,
passion to fury
evaporated from the dust.
Peace I have finally found
in a cold sober.
Smiled at the world for the last time
R.I.P I wish with a Good bye.
concord pacifism I crossed my heart
sleepin’ beneath the stone of Shady White.

Invincible Curse

Something insida me
is taken
is broken
is shattered
in my darkest dream,
Something inside
never comin’ back
never be replaced
even after loudest scream.

I've scattered my parts apart
broken myself in two halves
destroyed every emotion I had
hitting your invincible curse.

I can face myself with your blames
take my shame to the grave
benevolence falling from the edge
when I see your look on my face.

Suddenly wind jus stopped,
am suffocating words of disregard.

Dearth of redemption, I feel
’coz abstruse scar would never heal .

Am scared but not running
‘coz old pages won’t be turning.

Accepting your ugly pathos of reality
inflate my deepest sanity,
Caged with your ghastly formalities,
I invade my own identity.

Nosferatu Chords

Going on to a new tomorrow
bumped with blurred past
Turned a few to ashes
to keep away the
screwed up parts
A token of yesterday
that was borrowed
for sake of forgiveness
for all that has hurt
for the truth insight
Unfinished shades of memory
guilt that are disregard

I got up
am caught with
again shut up
with the darkness
insida me
Am done with
I cant take back
am washing my hand
from ghastly tact

A Faking mourning smile
feeling hurt deep inside
Angels cry with me
and Devils are justified
Looking for tomorrow
still no hope for sunshine
Darkness leaks tears
Vampires kissing bloody night.

I got up
am caught with
again shut up
with the darkness
insida me
Am done with
I can’t take back
am washing my hand
from ghastly tact

Saving one last spark
Creeping in the pitched up lost
Feeling trap with dreadful grudge
Exile from the start
Sealing the pain within the walls.

So am shutting the door
on you
Turn back
never face me
Taking back
everything you had
Am falling
am crumbling
am not showing
a single tear I have
So if you face me
I face you
With another mourning smile.

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