Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Sermon of War




















Thou shall not fear
Thou will burn in fire
Hold faith in yourself
And in none other.

Give up? no! no!
Given up no faith, no hope.
Will survive
Will fight
Will Strike back
'Coz the souls can't die.

Thou shall strive
Its faith
Its in mind
thee made for war
To conquer the world.

Stepping in his boot
Alexander will enlighten the path
He will show the way
Making the ages count.

You are made for
some thing more,
Don't sob over lost souls.
Thou shall not fear
Thou will burn in fire
Hold faith in yourself
And in none other.

Thou shall face
what comes
Thou shall not rest
Until war is won
This sermon we live by
singing this war field song.

Monday, June 24, 2013

These Scars Of Mine






















I remember from the scars
How I Passed through
The wounds of past
I go through the same old path
Lost somewhere never to come back.

My scars of haunting reality
My scars of despise and tragedy
The scars to remind me
Another forgotten story.

All I want is to forget
The haunting memories
Of dreadful truth
A reality I ain’t accept
But they show me
My mirror image.

Walking souls
Buried with dead conscience
My conscience is shouting
The wrong and right decisions
I fight with ‘em
Losing my consciousness.

My scars of haunting reality
My scars of despise and tragedy
The scars to remind me
Another forgotten story.

My open heart
Burnt with tragic bruises
With fraudulent turns
I have lost hope.

Scars won’t let me be
forgetting my past.
My scars of haunting reality
My scars of despise and tragedy
The scars to remind me
Another forgotten story.

What’s happening to me,
Where I am
Stuck in this moment
Caged in denial.
I can’t move
To move ahead
to move on
Where is that only thing
Which can be my freedom.

Then I see those four little scars
Out of no reason it made me laugh
When I realized I have that smile
I couldn’t stop wondering
How wrong been right.

The moment of that playful fight
The joy and happiness
And many hardships I survived
Every scar tells a story
Happiness or sadness
It has its melody.

Story continues and so many scars
But every story ends
With the same tag line
I have lived
I have survived.

My Scars are worth it
‘Coz they define
My being and
Who I am.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Last moment to Live

















What's there to feel
If its last time everything is real
My hands are all numb
and limbs are still
Aching heading shouting
the same words

I wanna breathe
some air of relief
am suffocating inside
chased by the midst.
I wanna cry
I howl in silence,
I wanna feel
something, anything
and everything that's real
for this is the last time,
before I die.

I got to sob
a little bit
feel the tears
running through my cheeks
the warmth of being alive
its the last day
I have got to live.

Laying like this,
Am hallucinating
the past lived moments
those fragments didn't last
I can't go back and say
"Am sorry, for everything and for the last time!"

Every bit of me
was lost in denial
But now am calling for little peace
and salvation I'll never found
But soul is searching
a song to remember
but I keep ending up saying this
the same repeated lines,

I wanna breathe
some air of relief
am suffocating inside
chased by the midst.
I wanna cry
I howl in silence,
I wanna feel
something, anything
and everything that's real
for this is the last time,
before I die.

I got to sob
a little bit
feel the tears
running through my cheeks
the warmth of being alive
its the last day
I have got to live.

Looking ahead is no option
turning back is no solution
stuck in this mourning moment
Actuality haunts my conscience.
Am having a fight
sense of judging
wrong or rights,
while leaving this world
bound by sins
I have lost the my conscience.
Having no faith I lived
but today I hope
and still believe in
given a chance a want to live again
saying same lines
over and over again

I wanna breathe
some air of relief
am suffocating inside
chased by the midst.
I wanna cry
I howl in silence,
I wanna feel
something, anything
and everything that's real
for this is the last time,
before I die.

I got to sob
a little bit
feel the tears
running through my cheeks
the warmth of being alive
its the last day
I have got to live.

I wanna Live
the Last moment
until tomorrow  comes
to say goodbye.

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Cry Thou Humane














Cry, oh! Cry
Cry thou humane soul
Look at the agony
Thou pain we are going through.

Does rain wash away?
Does the earth cry along?
We all feel the grave
A sole cries,
Tearing others’ soul.

Howls are shrill
Pitching though the deaf ears
But still motionless
We stand bending our heads
Blood in our veins
We are made to feel
Then why holding that candle
Why not we rebel?

Cry, oh! Cry
Cry thou humane soul
Look at the agony
Thou pain we are going through.

A change is what we need
Breaking out of this bloody rules
Still making us walk
Down the same road
Even if all the turns are wrong
Hiding the truth
Chained our feet
Too less to explore
Why we stand waiting for justice
Taken in own hands
The future in your own perspective.

Forgiveness is saddest thing
Waiting and expecting
What could have been,
But thou humane
The had beens
Have passed away
Still crying over
The gone's dismay.

Cry, oh! Cry
Cry thou humane soul
Look at the agony
Thou pain we are going through.

Change the future,
You will live in
Change the truth
To what you believe in
Fight for justice
Never rest till it is
Cry until your
Voice is heard by every soul.

Cry, oh! Cry
Cry thou humane soul
Look at the agony
Thou pain we are going through.

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Be My Guest...!! - VI

For story until now Go To the END : 
Chapter Six -  666

















The haunting darkness
Numbs my limbs
My blood is cold
So frozen I’ve been.
Frightening thoughts
Oh! Clustered my head
I can’t think, I can’t think.

My pen froze in my hand
I paused, I was writting somewhere
Evilness was haunting my mind
I closed my eyes
To pretend am elsewhere.
Oh! I came with a stranger
To an unknown land
May be the evil is at its high spirit here
May be am the next one of ‘em to be sneered.

The doors of heaven would be closed for me now.
No sign of hope
I can’t cry or howl.
For if my intuition is predicted
My soul would have no chance
To purge and regenerate
Oh! Lord what I have put myself into
I must stay calm
And play along this floating song.

But while I was buried
In deep thoughts of mine.
Mr. Ray shook me with his deep voice
“Come my companion, we’ve arrived.”
I looked outside,
Where the darkness was darker than inside.
I grabbed my coat,
And carried my bag
My suitcase was heavy
‘Coz I planned to stay a while.
But I ain’t know now,
What’s ahead in my life line?

I alighted from the train
One step at a time,
As soon as I touched the base
The 3:15 train started pacing,
Silently chugging into the dark night.
I glanced up and down the platform
Not another sole I could sight
I wondered
If I am the prey of this whole set up
Every evil thing was hunting that night.

Placing his hand on my shoulder
Mr. Ray politely motioned me to move on
I followed him with no choice
Walking into the evil traps.

A carriage was waiting in the darkness of night
It was glowing red,
With the light burning inside.
The driver was wearing a black cloak,
His face was invisible
under the mysterious hood.
“Why all the secrecy
Why all the mystery”
My heart was crying
With the evil tendencies.
All vibrations talking to me
Speaking in their own languages
Warning me on each step
I stepped back but Ray push me ahead
Politely he smiled
Gestured to move ahead
I grew pale
I grew white
When the lamp light fell on the drive’s smile
“Give me the Herr’s Luggage”
Said the drive looking up with a gleaming smile
With extreme alacrity my bags were handed
With courtesy he directed me to get inside his ride
Helping me by gripping my hands
He must have prodigious strength
With grip of steel he caught my arm.
Mr. Ray sat beside me
As quite as he didn’t exist.
Without a word
the driver shook his reins
The horses turned
And we swept into the dark night.
I looked behind
At the station’s lamp light
Loosing into the darkness
No turning back
From now and here.

I was staring at Mr. Ray
With my questioning eyes
Not sure where am heading
In the night of Devil’s time.
He consoled by patting to be patient.
Saying in calm voice
“Denn die Todten reiten schnell”
It raised more confusion in my mind.
I anxiously questioned,
“What you even mean?
I don’t understand a single word.”
He smiled and said,
“You’re Dracula’s guest
No harm can come your way
My companion.”
He consoled me again,
“Don’t worry,
We will reach nearest motel very soon
To rest for a while.”

I waited for the carriage to stop
I waited to breathe some air

Finally the motion paused,
I looked through the windows
Saw the driver talking to the inn lady
The owner beside her
was frightened as seeing a ghost
Pale with fear
They were constantly looking at me
Even in that little lamp light
Their horror was clear.

He politely greeted me in
The Inn lady asked
if she can be of any service
their over politeness
was intending to please me.
“Oh! Herr, please come in,
Make yourself comfortable
Let us know
If we can be of any service.”
Mr. Raymond was left behind
I turned back to call him inside
But he had left somewhere
Lost in the darkness
In that chilling season
Left me in confusion and
with lot of questions
I kept staring in the darkness
With no answer
And no solution.

The inn lady patted my back
She said the driver will be back
In her broken English
With her motherly touch
She uttered these particular words
“Must you go? Oh young Herr,
Must you go?”
She was in such an anxious state
She lost her grip of English
She mixed her words
But still managed to say
“Do you know,
What day it is?”
I shook my head
And she continued
“It is the eve of St. George’s Day,
When all the evil things
Will be in full sway.
When the midnight will strike today.”
She crossed herself
And said again
“Morning the drive will come again
Don’t leave this Inn
Until next day.
Believe me young Herr
You will be safe.”

I smiled at her
And comforted with respect
She lead the way
Motioning me to follow
directing me
To my room ahead

The rickety elevator
Swung open the grates
She stepped out
Onto the sixth floor
And went straight ahead
The dark corridor
Ended in a drab door
Where she stopped
crossing herself again
I glanced at the door
It had a number on it.

Handing over the key
She hastily retreated
Soon I was all alone
Standing and staring
At the door
Seeing and wondering
What lay ahead.

I undid the latch
And twisted the knob
The door creaked open
Slowly, ominously,
I stared inside
To what lay beyond
The door,
The door to the room number 66
The room on the sixth floor’s
In this lone Devil’s Home.



-- To Be Continued...


Until Now in Be My Guest :

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Being Guilty




















Reliable, Dependable
no you are not.
In my fear
I seek
Oh! I can't seek
you arms ain't
protect wrapped around me

Tell me a story
honey
explain me why
I pay without
being guilty

I look out for you
I expect to be your part
to stay and wait
but instead you
breaking my heart
You make me look
like a fool
standing alone
in the crowd
left at a junction
without a destination.

Happiness is lost,
in the darkest frights
my nightmares are not real
I am not so weak
that I can't face you
Love, trust and being untrue
I can't live
to be with you.

But honey
You left me
long before
You left me
all alone
am leaving to survive my part
I won't pay
for your mistakes
without being
guilty of falling in love.

Friday, June 7, 2013

"Where is my Home?"

- Based on True Incidents in the life of a friend.


















At a distance I hear a song
floating in melancholy I hear her voice
a sweet voice humming in her house
echoing through the walls
circling around.

"Do you sing" I asked her
Sweetly she shook her head
"a pretty girl like you,
why trapped inside four walls?"
"not walls am surrounded with,
T'is a cage am living in,
captivated in my own self
I have no where to escape."
she replied with grave voice.
"Where is your home, dear"
I wondered
"Where is my home??"
she wondered.

"Years have passed by
but not long before
that I can forget from my sight.
My life changed forever
and loneliness is all
I have find."

"That day I wondered
I wonder again and again
Where is my home??
I solicit an answer."

she took a deep breath
before she could speak ahead
she sighed and said,

"Not long ago
I was on cover of magazines
Crowd cheering for me
praising my name
my beauty they perceived,
Now I had passed that phase
all that mattered
in the name of marriage
But I believed
I was free.
A person to love
who loves me."

"But still am wondering
Where is my home?
Is it where
He is?"

Hopelessness I could see
her eyes were dry
but voice shaking
in agony.
She paused but not for long
she continued with anguish in heart,

"I couldn't understand
why I deserved
all the punishments
The prices I paid
without being guilty
of anything.
The life I have
in solitude and agony.
My cries and sob
dried in seclusion"

She poured her pain
only tears were too dried
lost in the foggy midst
her words were reflecting back.

"I don't make sense
I understand
too much in a life
and too li'l words to make a line.
But lemme try to sing you
my life
if am buried in wondering
someone would know
Who i am."

She started on a tune
softly humming to sing

"Wrapped in a darken sorrow
hidden from any light
my life turn upside down
when story begin
and mother was gone."

"I was a li'l child
maybe 15 that time
my mother left me
and my father brought a bride"

"Life changed since then
alone I was, I still am
lonely in every turn
drifting from everyone."

And she hummed again,
Continuing with her song

"I found my way
when I found my passion
I found respect
in beauty and fashion.
The only thing I loved the most
in this earth and on name of heaven"

"But still emptiness
haunted me in the nights
Cold bed and how alone I am,
Everything seemed fine
but I still wondered
'Where is my home??'
Where I belong
to be jus' fine."

"When love came into my life
I hold on the one
I loved with whole heart
with breath of mine
I put my soul into the one.
Happily married,
I left all I had,
to be a better part
to start a new life I had."

"But now my dreams are far
from what it is.
Caged inside the four walls
am trapped in my own dream.
I wonder again and again
"Is this my home?
Is this my life?
Is this is where I belong?"

And I cry to myself again and again
I sob for a answer to this question
"Where is my home,
What I am?"

"My soul cries to be free
get into the world
and breath air of peace.
The glamour on
the pages of magazine
now buried in ignorance
lost in unknown wanderings.
'What's love?" I wonder
haunting me in loneliness?'
I am slave of some others
Dancing in each tune."

"In the nights
My bed is still cold
and am still alone
fearing my own ghost.
"What's life?" I wonder
having no life of my own
I ponder, I surrender."

"Where is my home?
I wonder
Where I belong?
I wonder."

"Even if the door is open
I know my wings are broken
no place on earth I can go
There is
nowhere I belong."

"Now do you wonder
Where is my home?
I still wonder
Where is my home?"

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Love is...
















Love is so complicated
Yet so simple
It needs three words
To communicate
And a gesture
to surrender
But then why it’s so hard
Tied with ego we had.

Alas, there is an irony
Love is so easy
Yet so complicated
Bound by the wrong or right timings
To be or not to be meanings
And when all set, others aren’t liking?

But the question lies in his eyes
And the question lies in her eyes
“Do you love me honey?”
If the answer is “Yes!”
Can crack heaven
Or jump from heights.
Love is something can’t hide
Like smell of fresh roses
Or the rain and wet soil
A bright light in hopeless dark sky
Twinkling stars like magic in the world.

Love is so lovely
Yet can be obsessive
Violence and insanity
All roll in tragedies.
Love is lonely
Love is haunting
With broken heart
It’s agonizing.

But Love is so simple
People complicate it
Or it’s the situation
Which makes it evil?
Love is so complicated
Expectation and dependence
Differences walled and drifted souls
no way to find a connection.

Love is so complicated
Or love is so simple
We make it difficult
or we can’t control our fears.
Love is so simple
Or Love is complicated
The disappointments are real
The emotions will turn in tears
And everything else is fantasy.
Love is brutal
Love makes you feel.

Love is a feeling
Love is caring
Love is a need
To be with someone
When it’s lonely.
Love is drifting
And also departing
Love is depending
Trusting the one with everything
With expectations of nothing
Spring vanishes drying.

Love is so simple
Love is so complicated
It’s a sweet smell
But a bitter poison
It’s a bond
Breaking and connecting.


--A Love For Ross and Rachael from F.R.I.E.N.D.S! 

Broken Boundaries























Be an admirer
But don't be a judge
Captivating my imagination
cluttering my thoughts.

Oh! the art of living
or emerged from broken soul
Alas! the beauty so unspeakable
such grace embracing each soul.

Life wrapped in pieces of mysteries
unfold the layers with love
compassion, you need my dear
hatred will finish all.

Darkness and sin
Light sparkling hope
fading autumn
or sunny spring
my art will image all
will make you cry
or will make you smile
and silently mesmerized
you behold.
Art is not
to be bound in boundaries
or caged in restrictions.
Captured imagination
pushed to darkness of suffocation.
My thoughts will freely roam
experiencing every right and wrong.
Behold the beauty with own eyes
will paint imaginations of hope.

Be an admirer
but don't be a judge
don't captivate my thoughts
Imaginations incept from beauty
or emerged from broken souls.
Captured in the chains of darkness
your beliefs forced on my fate
My conscious haunts me
and I feel hatred.

But what can you feel
if you can't feel at all.
Channeling your thoughts
you ain't think at all
Control you seek
your hunger for power
but you can't hope
you can't dream
but only burn in desire.
blinded by your evil propensities
you clutch my life
and want to bend
in your wish.

But Oh! dear sole,
don't you understand
life is to live
to play your own part.
You ain't control mine
I have a choice to breathe.

I like to cherish
the darkness and light
you be my navigator
but I will drive.
My art, my life
I have no boundaries
like the sun's light
perfume from blooming flowers
or breeze flowing in melancholy
I control my own life.

Be an admirer
But don't be a judge
Captivating my imagination
don't clutter my thoughts.

Oh! the art of living
or emerge from broken souls
Alas! the beauty so unspeakable,
such grace embracing each soul.

Let me feel 'em
Let me outta boundaries
I can't fly
but I dream
I may fall and hurt
but I will feel.
I will feel alive
lively to breathe
free from suffocation
I will dream.

Be an admirer
Don't be a judge.
Broken boundaries
I will jump.