Moonlight Girl

- A gift of light, by Sir Charlemagne

Moonlight girl,
Oh! Moonlight girl
I reach out for her
but she slips away.
Silver trussles roll over
my face
and I fall,
fall, I fall in my dreams.
She hints at me
and I see
she goes around but
never comes around
and I come to.
Moonlight girl,
Oh! Moonlight girl
where you to be
this shimmer
that I see
ain't no place closer to be.
Life goes on
and I run along
through days
and there I see again
in my dreams I see
the shadow of the
Moonlight girl,
Oh! Moonlight girl.

Once Upon A Time, there was a Black Witch!

Once upon a time, long long ago there was a princess. She used to be very lonely, living in an alien town. This was the place where she met the prince Charming of fairy land. But they weren't friends and not at all close, jus two travellers sharing few words. The charming prince had already given his heart to the witch of far far land. The witch was a feeder, feeds on young heart, and was preying this time on dear Charming's heart.

She had a rabbit on her target and a prince to ambush. She had taken all way, made a prince to beg. But prince had faith, she is too honest, she understands. And her smiling humors made his life worthy. The joke was on him, when whole town laughed at his back. Still the prince kept on begging and asked for a date to love. The witch took the chance played the card of being friend forever. Henceforth she got her rabbit and prince wasn't needed to hold. She ignored him, she maintained the distance but prince kept on trying over and over for hopeless romance.
Months and months went by, his heart kept burning day and night. He started surviving on bread and wine, despaired the soles, departed from whole world. Then came the phase where he got soaked in work, but at the end of the day her letter and memories used to eat out his heart & soul. Nights started spending only with beer and wine but crying heart of his was never heard by her.
The princess was a distant observant, who couldn't watch any more. Gathering her broken heart together, she gave her hand to the man. The prince was broken inside and kept sobbing for the gone. The princess was there for him listening to every word he told. But while night fall, and before she sleeps she prayed to the stars to hear, "when the prince will look at me, when he will feel for me" but jus' before closing her eyes she wishes her prayer never come true "Coz I ain't deserve!".
The prince used to be rough sometime, she was left lonely some while. But one day the prince thought to try his love with her and kissed her in the beach rear. The day she could never let slip away, she promised her life to him since that day. But the prince thought its a mistake and left her on the first valentine's day. She passed through jungles of alien town, frightened by the darkness and the howling sound, still not losing hopes she pass to pronounce, "not to let go, we can work this out". Charming listened and told her patting "Until you there in the palace, you'll know there are thorn outside but you ain't have to worry until you're inside. But there's no certainty, no hope we can build a home but still we'll be together until we can hold". Princess was consoled and tried to hold on. Days passed by and months turned into years until one sudden day when everything was happy the witch came along. Charlie's sparkling eyes went bright seeing her, the love inside him once again emerged. Princess looked at him for some time and left them together for that while. When the prince came back they had a fight, and the broken trust couldn't got meld with time. Still she fought to let go and break the insecurity in her. Believing in unseen she trusted her prince forever. One after another the prince shattered her heart but one day his uncle remarked, "the wedding!", "Why not! It can be the time." Princess was again happy a purpose, a reason to be lively for sometime, this will change everything and answer to all fights. But the wedding was not until another year. And this year changed everything, every single goodness they had, the four pillars of relation, they fallen apart. The princess was turning to black magic and the prince was drawing apart from his rebound. The day before the wedding she showed up, the witch of far far land. She was beautiful and apologetic in tone, she asked to take, take her back for the love only she deserved to hold. The prince didn't reply as if he stayed pause, seeing him like this the princess couldn't stand. She came forward and shown her furious look, she tried to scare the witch away. That day the witch left to her far far land, left without saying a single word. And the wedding was done with a hope & dreams of happiness for always and forever.
Few months haven't passed, the prince was fed up with his own wife, always blamed her with mistakes of innocent tries, they never recovered the constant fights. The princess tried to understand 'Why?' even though it broken her inside until one day the prince left her again, and this time with hate in his eyes. With her heart broken she started the search yelled his name a thousand times, "wherever he is, he be safe, the only hope I can keep faith". She sent letters, she asked her crows to search. After the long night and half a day she finally succeed to bring him back. She hoped that things will change but it got worsen so much. So much that the relationship exist no more. The desperation to break up was final word.

One day the princess found a letter in his drawer. A letter the witch had written addressing to Charming's thoughts. That second paused for our princess, her body was numb, she sat on a chair and suddenly realised, "How I look now? its been so long". She watched herself in mirror, the mirror to reveal the soul, to analyse the truth lies in the dark eyes. She saw herself turned into a black witch surrounded by the crows of ugly town, she saw him to be happy if he kisses the maiden of far far land. The kiss meant by the prince only for her in the beach, which the black witch had stole with her dramatic surreal.
She asked her reflection 'Mirror! Mirror! What should I do? I leave, or let him go? He left me already what more to be told. I make him happy no more, but he can be happy again, why to pit the chances low.'
This is the end of the tale, The black witch will live, for a year of separation, for the prince to let go.
Finally the prince Charming will be happily forever after being together, with the honored maiden of far far land, living in a home. And the black witch of ugly town gets what she deserved, living alone in castle of dolor, punishing herself for the instances she belongs.

Can't Catch Up with You!!

Some people jus dont care,
could have talk little softer
could have not judged for past
could be a bit polite
trying to heal the wound
fade to be scars.

Some people have left already
its only the matter of time
still you are standing in a way
where nowhere is the route.

Some people you care about
and hurt by their act
but it so obvious
you aint worth their time.
your tear drops
has no meaning
your pain is noto their life
they dont care about you
its better to accept this fact.

They pretend to wait for you
to talk all over to smooth the path
you will be mad
but still you are moved
trying to meet his heart.
but they'll never come for you
they left coz they will abandon you
they dont look back for you
even if you can't catch up.

Paralysed Love

I feel paralyzed
With the guilt of being me.
I look at the sky
With empty vision.
In silence
I mourn my weeping heart.
I can feel
my insane sanity
feeling the wound everyday
accepting the reality.

Lightening has stuck,
Rain has cleared the dirt.
He sang a song
to peace my heart,
But still its weeping
I ain't know what it says.

Now there's drop
of silence
And there's so much
I would like to say.
Am sorry for my behavior
There's no justice
For which is wrongly done.

"Baby am addicted"
can you say it once more
Make our love lively again
Whisper a song,
Whisper me precious.
Make me feel
that I can't.

Heart In Sand

You give to me this
but then take it away
A moment of silent satisfaction
A moment I appreciate.

My heart feels
heavy with the emotion
So precious
So strong
I wait for the right moment
to pen my song.

Why it is taken away
Why I've to bury in grave
Why my emotions
get cold again,
when the warmth
of passion its meant?

The vows I'll take
of golden words
Not someone written
over sand
We draw our heart
together
We built a home
ours
We hold a hand
each other's
We grow old
together
But all in vain unless
we're in love
forever.

Can't Recognize

I stare in the mirror
once or twice
there's standing one
can't recognize
I feel I know her
sometimes
But who is it
can't define

I didn't know what been there
until then
somebody stuck it
with bullet in rain
shot to be dead
in a while
her means or absence
ain't mattered why?

Bleeding to death
but everyone passed by
her heart was cold
with burning eyes
mourn on her face
with silent pain
her absence to me
is crying night.

I was her a moment back
but now its me
who am I?
I stare in mirror
once or twice
there's standing one
can't recognize
I feel I know her
sometimes
But who is me?
can't define...

Bird Of Grave

The sun won't rise for me
my dark grave are held with cloud
its 60 days of night for me
I wanna to be alone in gathered stream.

Calling the darkness
fright the fate I create
the empty heart call an angel
for going a distant from all apart

I am
The bird of grave and starve
the feeling is depressing
but desperate in all my act

strive back, fight away
I see my frustrated past
am lonely I want to be alone
even frustration clumsy new start.

The walls are closing in
I know myself ain't seen
I see the mirror's cast
The matter I ain't figure out.

who is to say
who build this phase
how I get away
how I get to pay?

My damage, depressive past
I keep inside my heart
it will follow my grave
mock my existence even in death.

Ain't sleep in peace
ever again
My eyes still bleed
the tears of pain.
End is freeze
in conscious hell.
Never to tell
never again.

Am Damaged !!

The bullet has hit my heart
already am cold
you said and the boat has sailed
its done,
without or with action discussed and told.

My torn brown pages
are burnt
I exist no more
I got to define my action
those I did all for your good.

I am lost again
in the darkness, with no hope.
Maybe a clingy fraud
I look at mirror
You ain't known me, I told myself.

Two and half year passed so fast
I believe the understanding
been a trust
That day "I want a puppet"
its all you said
to shut me up.

Today our relationship is registered
but am still a cheater and still a fraud.
you said "I tricked you"
coz I tired to heal the past.

Am wrong to cry to top of my voice
I weep but cant change my past
my future I have changed
my own hand.
Its end now... Its end now...

Awkward Observation

Awkward nature is a fact of unusuality

Finding salvation is treated unworthy
remind me of the past and presence of ambiguity
The future seems so far away,
and the darkness there soon be reality.

Its awkward how we choose sides
somehow or another ditch the true eyes
its easier to run away from the responsibility
to judge and open up our eyes.

Strange is the human nature
yet naive to sit and observe
before understanding the animal nature
own habits need to be apprehend.

Several hurdle we put in each others way
no reason for which we blame
action speak no meaning at all
no match with the decision you say.

We ain't even look in reflection

Yet pass on the comments to judge
How am I failure someways
How dare you didn't say nice words.

Rudeness is golden trait
while in politeness
and sweetly it can be faked
Gesture we expect from other
ain't it too much if its not ours.

Observing ourselves is awkward to try.
Still show how if noticed
you cant return to that point
changed as a person, solitude stays by.

Awkward observation is a lot to jot down

every point shows our criminal eyes
how we face ourselves in own reflection to fight
when monster stand infornt of us
and we had expect a fairy smile.

Taking an Exile

I start, then I stop,
I hear and then get blind,
The heart scream and am quite
when tears roll, I keep smile.
The silence stays on my lips,
but can't stop my mind,
to move around this,
What is peace, whats happiness,
when my soul is complete.
I try to chase a light,
to open up, to escape and cry out loud
I try to seek a sound,
when whole world has shut down.

I pause, when I start.
am lost, when I walk.
The beauty I gaze,
yet my heart can't skip breath.

There several striving back
but always I fell upside down
Now I can't get up to find
those broken solution are confined.

Every faith I had, is lost with time
my strengths are drowned in weaknesses now.
whats sorrow, how I define
my whole life's been struggling time.
When sadness become a music
and harmony is played by misery
where the life stops
to appreciate the beauty
the stage I admired around.

That moment I was alone
I enjoyed talking to my own
several hymns and words I spoke
carelessly ignored other soles.

But my poor heart can not feel,
the hole inside heart didn't heal,
the sufferings are still excruciating
and there is nothing in this world to hold.

These storms, which frequently pass by
it rises with winning height
I fall on my face for the last time
and this time no tears but a smile.
I admit my failure now
I realize I can't win any how
defeat is what I take, with my head bow.
I can't fight, no more.
I won't struggle, no more.
I give up, with numb fold.

I take away this lost sole of mine,
am not guilty but won't give any alibi.
With all I have given up,
with all I am leaving behind,
my heart will be there with you,
when I take an exile.

The World is About To End

Some said the world will end with fire
some said with ice
But none coming to despair
I hope Thee be satisfied

some greys left with ashes
memories left in tears
pass by those foggy colors
once cherish to share.

How can I erase the truth once felt
with the lies I witness today
How did I misjudge the honesty
I trust to built all okay.

The unanswer questions are forgotten
but nothing leaves those memory lanes
forget the passing clarity now
the soul insanely trapped in tragedy.

Lets move ahead outta the open beach
We embrace each other one last time
before demising our existence behind
and lets kiss till this time ends
for that's the way we remember this paradisaical end.

No painting will keep our memory
No writing to save our tale
The only peace is to rejoice the moment
where no difference would ever meant.

What is REAL?

Let it be the last time
Let's not fight again
the hurt and pain if I give
Lets us erase those stains

I won't hurt you again
I will be someone you wanted
It won't happen again
It won't happen again

Am the one in fault
Please forgive and lets move ahead
I hope for a future of being us
so Lets fight once again
to get our love back

Lets fight once more
to strive back to each other
to bridge the gap of stress
together the future we have

This is how I see it
give me your hand to show you that

But what if, what he said, all a lie
pretending, its all it was
how you believe what you see
and there nothing else than deceive
broken my trust when he said goodbye
next time he wasn't even ready
but then came a text to tell me
"I hope no hope of us in future"
This is what I perceive
How you decide upon what is real
is it what you see or the words you hear.
Oh! my reader tell me this, what I do,
with the pieces of my broken heart
how I decide, what is real?

GoodBye ("You DON'T CARE NO MORE")

- Photo By Sir Charlemagne

The tough thing is you aint share your tears
the toughness in the emotion you dont bear
the truth is the heart has died in numbness of fear
lost in dark valley
speaking of truth
in the memories of falseness
paying for the mistakes
to dream to breathe and to be alive

The rough patch is to move ahead
the rough patches are the memoirs of toughness
the rough patched time is the time when
you left me alone
you leave me to suffer
I always knew
you'rnt the one to stand by

so you left me alone already
from the start
i was blinded by the love
you misused my scars
you left me alone
forever and always
you left me alone
didn't even say goodbye.

The One Who Paid For Being In Love

- One by Outlines of Shades

Oh! we call her Medusa
the one who paid for being in love.
A beautiful priestess,
innocently living with an open heart.

Her hair were like
meadows flowing,
with the perfumed grace
of her fair soft skin
reflecting light from every edge.

On her lay the eyes of Poseidon
eyes as blue as the ocean
He was holdin' His holy trident
in His strength of manly grasp
"oh! lady so fair, so precious
if I can ever have a night with her."

She was as angelic as she could ever be
she didn't know about His secret crush
but then He came to visit more often.
His tough muscle hypnotised her heart
A man to depend, a sole to love
a trust to get beheld in His arms.

"Oh! my lady come to my arms
give into yourself, and spend a moonless night
oh! my lady, I will give you a life
my love I will give, spendin' one night."

"Oh! lord of supreme power
am jus a small priestess of towering Athena's temple
livin' the ages of bronze
will you protect me, will you love me?
Forever in your arms
will you behold?
Is there in that heart
do I have a place, a part?
Like you stay in here
forever and always
and you can never part."

"Yes my lady! Yes my love,
not a night but life would be together.
Hold my hand and move this way
show our trust, and let'me hold you today"

Oh! so lucky, a God had her loved
she was a priestess, she was so fair
an innocent heart paid for being in love
her angelic soul for once fell in love.

But what turned her into a monster,
it was a curse of a jealous heart.
"Let her beautiful hair turn to serpents
make her face so terrible to behold
that the mere sight of it
would turn onlookers to stone
I curse you! I curse you!
you are the refuge of my temple
Athena says you are filth
then how dare you tried to seek love.
now pay for your mistakes
now pay for being in love.
Leave now! leave now!
Leave my temple
where you brought the dirt."

"Oh! Poseidon save me from this curse
I love you, I made no mistake
tell mother I deserve your love"

"Tsk! Tsk! Tsk!
your appalling face deserves no love
You monster! seductive, sinful creature!
you would be abandoned in Erebus.
I leave you! I abandon you!
I turn my back on you!
you ain't deserve to be in love"

"No my lord don't leave me
I loved you, I trusted you
Please hold my hand now.
Oh! mother I served you so long
my childhood, my youth I laid
in your honor inside temple's door.
Please don't curse me,
I ain't done any wrong
No sin I made
Don't make me pay for my love.
Save me oh! mother, Save me oh! my lord,
Save me oh! god, Save me oh! god,
sob... sob... sob!"

Her wails were ignored
her whimper faded away
her name though still remembered
A monster called Medusa
one who paid for being in love.
Later killed by her lover's son
Perseus called her punishment well-done
A life ended, a sole dead in grave and betray
Oh! we call her Medusa
the one who paid for being in love.

Burnt out Raven!!

I stood up
but nobody listened to my howls
I have been blamed now
for my mistake of being unheard

The past of my lost ways
the fate been buried to grave
the hurt been discarded
discrimination in two faiths.

Am watchin' here standing still
my head's bowed to other's feet
"I ain't wanna be the same... wanna be the same!"
I SCREAM, saving me
from my diminishing existence.

My sobbing silence yells to the world
"give li'l mercy to this loving heart"
my fault can't be Am in love
believe my say as I have grown up.

"I ain't wanna be the same... wanna be the same"
This all I have to say
So be with it or discard
Coz I'll be what I be
granted by you or not!

Movin' On

Its been so long yet we remember every scar whenever taking a trip down the memory lane, or whenever the broken bones ache if pushed li'l harder. Its human tendency not to accept the present, sometimes it is the past which is better, or the uncertain future would be good if you jus loosen up by making some sacrifices. But uncertain and unreal is not that's gonna shape the future, nor would gettin lost in the past make things better. Nothing gonna change by keepin' the pain alive in the heart. But what if I can't let it go? A sleepin' dragon doesn't mean a dead one. Its furious in all the same ways if poked a li'l to wake it up, furious enough to destroy everything around, lettin' go of the good and demolishing the bad. But loss can only be wept on by the one who has lost it, who's gonna judge later, if it was worth it.
The start of this year, I made no resolutions. But I made a prayer not to God but the world, to be in peace, to keep the enchanting harmony alive. But 2nd Jan 1 AM, I stood in front of the mirror drunk and asked myself a question, "Forget the world... did I do it?" And of course, an honest drunk answer "Nope! Not at all!". If I can't have control over myself, am totally not rightful to expect the same thing from others. Whatever the reason would be, rage, anger, and frustration, ain't the answer. Ego doesn't solve anything. Its not gonna fix the future, its not gonna heal your past. The only thing it can leave you with is a team of mistakes, regret, disappointment, sorries and what could've been. And if it takes a meaningful apology and a true start to fix all, I'll choose to take it. If you don't, then I would say, "Welcome to the Team, man!"