Dear Husband

Dear husband

I am doing well,

Since you have been gone

I have found myself

I forgive you 

for treating me 

the way you've felt 

about yourself.

I am broken

I am bruised 

I crumpled  

In disdain

I'll build

I'll survive 

But I'll remember 

this pain

I loved you  

With my heart and soul

I trusted you

Even when you abandoned me

In darkness and trouble 

Instead of wiping my tears

you wiped my smile

My light is gone

And the spark in my eyes

I had lost my worth

Doubted my existence 

Still living 

Still breathing 

But darling I am not lost anymore 

I found another version of me

I didn't know 

I am capable of

A different person I am now

The girl who sees the world 

Not with rosy glasses

A girl who's built from ashes

And gonna take over the world

Dear husband 

Thanks for showing me 

how weak you are.

For telling me 

you're not good enough

While never making a try

to be the partner

I deserved,

In 12 years 

Of lifetime 

Still, I fought tooth and nail

For another last chance 

To finding something 

That never existed at all.

"Its too late 

for us to survive," you said

It's me and not you

that's the story you tell

Last, slither of hope

Vanished in thin air

Silence fell 

and not a thing to say anymore

Nothing to survive 

Nothing to salvage 

I paused for a moment

to mourn

But not for long

It hurt less now

Letting you go

Without a doubt 

My dear husband

You can blame it on me 

tell any story 

thats yours to believe 

I loved you once

Now I feel nothing

I don't hate you

I am not in dismay

I am moving ahead

And I dont care

If you exist.