Curse!!

Surreal flow in mesmerizing chores,
then chords broken with hustle loudness,
something smashed,
someone's scared
battle ended but beginning of war

Drowsy sleep
intoxicated with evil
faithful loneliness
sorrow enslaved
slowly poisoned into the vain
chocked and suffocated,
spill your guts.

Have the spirit left
drift away
sway to the hell
burn in hell's fire.
Warp in hallucinating cast
is it beauty
or a trap?

Oh! fire of hell
lit my soul
burn me in ire
to become ashes with no shape
with no matter

Oh! spirits of curse
grab my heart
and pull it out of my bosoms
squeeze it to the last drop
dry it out of emotion, of love.

Oh! the ripper of death
tear my skin
pull out each inch
slit the last bit
so that I don't feel.

Darkness drown me
in its evil
turning me, suffocating,
chained in lifeless boundaries
No heartbeat,
No pain,
I look at my reflection
with no image.
What made me turn so dark
was it my love
or my prejudice
my curse has cursed me back
in the cold grave
Am lifeless walking dead.

Still I hear your surreal chores
war is over, I sleep in peace
until blood thirst my throat
Eyes open with crimson fury
no mercy, no sparing
I come for you
I hunt for innocence
I rip it, I tear it
as I have been torn
I swallow your spirit
and unleash my curse
a curse so monstrous
a curse with no escape
Neither death can save you
be'coz you're too a walking dead.

Its once I was in Love

Sorrowful bliss comes shading the way
A sign of silver lining
looking for hope and believe in
If I can leap
I can jump
if there is a way back to your heart

Oh! so beautiful, life was
the first time, falling in love
heart raising, beating strong
as loud as I could hear its rhythm
waiting for you
until you come
hold your hand and walk on
The first kiss,
do you remember?
A memory vivid
so fine, so sudden.

Can't time stay still
can't I go back
to cherish a few good start
to know each other
to believe in
even though nothing said
nothing's heard

Now you say everything
You ask me to trust
you swear for me to believe
but why can't we go back
when sudden kiss
could fix all the fights
when we knew
this was about love
nothing else matter
until one day you broke my heart

My world crashed
then there we paused
the story stopped
and lost its way
promises never made
then what to say
I wish I could have turned
and be gone

Love stories aren't epic,
its not a fairy tale,
as every girl imagines.
Its fake faith
still we walk in,
we choose to believe
on that prince Charming.
Someone who dares
someone to hold on
who says he will jump with me.

There is a John, There is a Jack
who comes now and then
to restore my belief,
waiting for that story
for a shining silver lining,
a light of hope
in the blissful sky.

So cruising through memory lanes
admiring the past
I laugh at the foolish fights
I mourn on lost causes
shed few tears for the loss
nothing to change
its present,
am locked down of the past

If so be it
I choose to spend my life
living in the memories of the gone
torn brown pages
turned over
maybe not epic
but its my story
its once I was in love.

Survive

Extreme has reached

Now its time for a disaster

bomb shell waiting for a boom

its jus a matter of ticktock 

until the last clicking sound 

before the explosion.

I hoped there is a way to go

a path we saw to follow

not only you snatch that away from me

but you left me breathless to die

leaving me hollow

Am gonna soon lose my life

and you gonna clap about it

standing on my funeral

you'll smile on your victory

I never knew 

what I have done to deserve this

a light to merge with 

even that I can't perceive

I am the lost spirit 

there is no way for me

A home, a family

a lost cause for me.

A life I had imagined

scratched the picture 

with your finest deceives

now I am left with nothing

took all, my dream, my life

away from me.

Lost without a name 

I wander in dark woods

until a monster hunt for me

and tear me up 

turn me into spirit

I hoped there is finally a relief

so wrong I am

I ain't even deserve it 

my tears cost nothing

not even its to mend something

the coldest heart I see the watcher has.

How I seek a place for my salvation

I need to reach a point

from where there is no turning around

from where there is no coming back

a place for me 

not lonely, but where am complete

not to wander anymore,

only for my life and me

to survive this world.

The Lucifer

Why am gonna be betrayed
again and again, so several times
Why I will be humiliated
so many times,
pointed with fingers,
laughed at,
rest of my scattered soul.

My tormented heart
bleeding tears, Crying
"Why? Why and Why?"
asking every sole,
Noise of my own echos
oh! clutter my head
with evil rhymes.

Can't think anymore
Stopped feeling so long ago
With my broken faith
I can go a distance
but every door is closed.
Everyone shows my position
Questions called upon me
dismantled my whole existence,
where to hide my disgraced face
No place I can seek
Nothing left with me.

Is this what I deserve,
how my lanes are turning
am unable to pace up.
There goes another pair of judging eyes
lost sense under being judgmental
defrauded by baseless assumptions
living each day pretending to own self,
deceiving others
and ignoring my perseverance.

Crushing my hopes
you think you achieved a lot
Sticking in this misery
What am I?
Am I a sadist,
or forever vowed to live under slavery?
I ask this question
again and again
to myself, to my reflection
Do I have to break to be born again
Do I have an escape, if I not choose my stand.

After the bloody saturation
reached limit and crossed over
I see no light
I see nothing that can save me tonight.
Am drowning in the quick sand
am covered till my neck
chocking and suffocated
am waiting for my death.
Then a miracle
a golden shimmering light,
from my forehead dropped on the musty ground
for a fraction of that moment
reflecting my image
catching my eyes
my only savior in lonely frame
there is no one else
but I.

I have been good,
Oh! I have been so very good.
But now its time for the evil,
to be on its full spirit
arise and devour
quench my thirst with your blood
destroy each soul
until heaven drowns in crimson

You have awoken
my vile spirit,
now you have to pay a price
with your honor
with your life.
You killed my soul
thence the angel has died.
With fury of hatred
I am born again,
heartless monster I walk the pane
there is no mercy
You will have no savior
you trapped with me now
I am The Lucifer

Be My Guest - IX

For story until now Go To the END : 

Chapter Nine -  Is Everything Real?

Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up Joseph
get afar from your dreams.

Oh! confused mind
wandering every night
frustrating as I sleep,
as I dream
I see creatures crawling,
wolves chasing
I see beautiful and voluptuous lady
trying to feast on me.

Precarious precipice
I wake up in another unknown scene
Oh! Load what's happening to me,
Where I am?
Where I am?
I ain't know when I slept last night
that weird dread room
left behind
now I am somewhere else
unknown scene
Is this a dream.

I search for my journal
To write this
It was left on table
Jus like I remember
Leaving it
But that was a different room
How I reach this place

Am panicking, am panting
I can't explain how weird is this
How i can make anyone believe
Of what am witnessing

The letter
The letter from the count
I had in my hand last night
Before I went into the dead sleep
I need to find it
Where is it
Maybe it will answer my questions
Maybe it will talk sense in me
Where is it
Where is it
Am going crazy
Where is it?

Until Now in Be My Guest :

Chapter One - Boarding The 3:15 Train

Chapter Two - Solitude As I Had Asked For

Chapter Three - A Dream So Real
Chapter Four - Breaking Dawn to Break Free
Chapter Five - We Arrive!!

Chapter Six - 666

Chapter Seven - The Dread Room

Chapter Eight - The Dread Room Continues

Further on :
Chapter Ten - The Letter?
Chapter Eleven - The First Meeting
Chapter Twelve - Wanderin' Among The Dead
Chapter Thirteen - Nightmares in the Castle of Dracula
Chapter Fourteen - Midnight Conversation

Pay it Forward

Yesterday, I helped a woman.
She was choking and coughing brutally.
Her eyes were filled with tears
she was suffocated breathlessly

She got a son
and a husband
sitting next to her with no response
no water on her table
in the restaurant.

I was sitting few tables away from her
I was about to get up and take my water
My mom stopped me,
she said,"No"
Its not that she doesn't want me to help
she was scared if something bad happens
they would blame it on us

Yes, world has turned that way
you rise to help someone
and you think twice, thrice
and maybe four times

My mother taught me a lesson
feel for everyone and reach out to help
but today the world is different
and many point of views are in place

I called my husband
asked the waiter
to immediately give her some water
Her son seem to help her
with her inhaler
and her husband had still no response

Thank god! the waiter reached her table
with three glasses of water
soon she was in relief
after drinking that heaven water.

Well, nothing much we did yesterday
for her
But when I passed by
she held my hand and smile
she said, "Thank you so much"
I was jus awkward and replied,
"It was my duty"

We didn't even catch her name
neither she knows us
but that moment was humanely
and I found peace in my heart
a fuzzy feeling i didn't understand
but bet you it was a great
feeling you can't imagine.


What we did yesterday
was nothing for her
We jus' been human
and we felt for her
Its what human do
and should do
not thinking twice, thrice
or maybe four times
What has become of the world
Why can't we help each other
not thinking of the danger
not thinking of the blaming
we may face
or get tangled

What has become of the world?

Today when I am here
and am writing this
I wish I could have told her this
"Don't say Thanks to me,
It was my duty
Jus' be humane to someone in need
pay it forward in small or big gifts."

Worldians!!

The dark haunting empty room
speaks for the clearance
there is a way to reach
your destination
where you attain peace
where grass is really green

chasing the fate for such a long time
lost the focus of your goal
a place where salvation exists
with world's heart beating on one beat

Shared difference
shades of colors
but together it paints
beauty and glory
this world come to be one
no boundaries, no religion
no color of skin
to deceive eyes of believer.

The darkness can fade discrimination
darkness can tell you what's real
let us find that peace
reach out to strangers
and make 'em a part of this belief
together, we build world peace
together, we're The Worldians.