Wherever You Are...!

Can't stop thinking about you
Since last night its all about you
my heart aches
and silent tears I swallow.

But still waving you
with a smile
Be wherever you are
you reach to the stars
you will be in my heart
my friend,
wherever you are.

Never seen you with my eyes
not an actual moment
we spent beside
you were on another side
over a thousand miles
Still you have power
to hurt me
You always will
matter to me.

Can't ask you to stop your steps
I can only tell you leap ahead
shine like a bright star
with your light
I see the path

Don't forget me, my dear
Am always there for you
anywhere I am
and wherever you are.

---  Dedicated to my friend and colleague Akiyo Dunetz

Am Cleora...!

I get this question quite often, "Why Cleora!!??" Well its not jus' a name which identifies me. But Cleora is more of an expression, a meaning, a freedom which gives me an identity. Which defines my soul from resurrection.

"Cleora" is created not only with the beauty but also the intellect refinement notion of the great queen and the last pharaoh of Ancient Egypt "Cleopatra". Dedicating and bowing to her power and control, her personality, vision and wisdom along with her popularity and infamous beauty. A small abbreviation of "Cleo" derived from the greatness of Cleopatra carries the burden and the greatness from silence of history.

Under the blessing shade of Ra, with its mercy and benevolence, the tolerance and the liberty HE serves with grace of goodwill. The Sun God RA is the custodian, the defender and the guardian angle which shades the greatness of Cleo to be carried forward.

Together I am Cleo-Ra. Am the raw power of Ra & the enticing beauty of Cleopatra. I am me, I am Cleora...!

La from French and Ortiz from Spanish, signifies my belonging to the broaden open arms of the world and being stretchly dedicated to the universe. I don't belong to any nation or any religion or any language (Though am comfortable expressing myself in English), I intend to speak to ever sole, I belong to this huge universe.

I am a Worldian.

I Waited But Its Too Late!

That night was dark,
Darkest I've ever seen
Every movement was silent
with silence that screams.

The sky was clear like never,
No cloud of confusion,
to deceive.
Stars were twinkling brightly,
in the darkness of moon-less night.
The chocking heart
still reminded of hope

"He will be back!"
its hope or dream...
We were meant to be together
we complete each other.
But now he needs to figure it out.
Is it right? or wrong whatsoever.

Clock in the calender whispered
Its October,
At twelve past an hour
Silence went deeper,
the cold darkness
deprived of love.
Cluster the thoughts
Night of loosing him or loosing her.

Standing at my window
Looking through those bars.
Captivated my love
in the cage of broken trust.
Helplessly standing there
All I could do is wait
till sun comes up.
Suffocate my aching heart
and yell your name a thousand times.
Then I take a pause,
waited for your voice to say a word
kept hearing my own breathing
rise and fall,
But no one I hear
who could answer my faded calls.

Sleepless red eyes
drowned in heartbroken tears,
searching for the partner
Who once promise to protect her.
"I'll save you from all outside,
Trust me, my precious.
My love, you're the reason I smile."
Winter may take away my love
and then the smile may be gone.

But still I ain't believe you can go away
So, I waited there,
and waited until sun rises up.
But that night was long
Cold was the darkness
In that silence, I tried to hear
"Where are you?" only reflected back
nothing else other than my beating heart.
Remembering your sleeping sound,
smiling at your heart beats I listened
wrapped in your love warmth
As cozy as blanket in your arms.

The love story you said,
the songs you played.
But today he could only ask
"When was the last time you made me happy?"
I stood at the window
and watch you leaving me behind.

That day our story ended.
The story of forever
on 14 Feb or 14th October
The night past away
The darkness mend in blue sky
the day came as bright
Sun glowing up high
As morning brought him back,
Returned home with regret in his eyes.

"Its too late" My mother said
With sobbing eyes
pointed her finger
at the body that lay
covered in white sheet
soaked in crimson fluid
Wrapped in cold death
Deprived of love.

No note of Goodbye

No last words to remembered by

A life ended. 

But my love

the love story will be

Always & Forever.
"I waited, But its too late my dear.
But only in this world"

Drifted Apart

You pushing me away
I understand
Why you blame me then
To be drifted apart.

My life paused for you
To grab your hand
To be there for you
Forever in your heart.

I become your part
I be your better half
Till life we have,
and grow old together.
We mean to stay
Forever and always
till death tear us apart
We live
In each other's heart.

But then you push me away
And I understand
You blame me again
To be drifted apart.

Seen no way
To say
Seen no place
To go away
I jumped into your arms,
Even if you haven't said.
Bound this knot
It wasn't your plan
You said to me
From the beginning
Of start.

Still I complain about
For pushing me away
I should have understand
Its only me to blame
To be drifted apart.

May be some day,
May be some where,
some one will make you love
Your heart will skip a beat,
Breathe will be taken,
With her beauty
Your world will pause.

But Baby, I understand
Am not that someone
You want in your heart.
Not trying to be your part
am not your better half.

Am only a turn
to be left behind.
Am not the book
But closed in a chapter
Am no poem
But only a verse.
Am not your partner
To be in love.

Goodbye, my love.
I won't complain again
For pushing me away
I do understand
We were meant
to be drifted apart.

I do understand
I was never your part
I am not your love
So I drifted apart.

Dear Love

The loneliness what bothers,
But the darkness is my part
Being along
Walking by my side
Fetching sorrow
And lost in my darkest nights
Are willing to leave this world?
To bear the serene
To take my hand?
The light will be sucked
The friends will be lost
The moon won't light
Only orion in dark sky.
will be my partner
Would you take my hand.
Suffocation of loneliness
Ache in the heart
How brutal my world is
Where depression cries so hard.
Its my world of loneliness
Its my world so dark.
Will you be a partner, honey!
Would take my hand?