Friday, September 25, 2020

Dead Inside


I pray
Turn my heart cold
So cold that 
I don't feel again

Turn me into stone 
So walled 
That no one 
can get in ever again 

Take away my emotions 
Let me be numb
I drown
Into my own despair 

I accepted 
My path, my fate
"Fine w.e"
You turned me
dead inside

Monday, September 21, 2020

Cut to Bleed




You stabbed my heart 
Cut it out to bleed
Crimson blood
Drenched your hands
But it's far from 
your grasp 
How much 
you've hurt me

Its time for me 
to be lost in shadows
Fade like 
the smoke in hollows
Erase all trace 
of my existence 
the stranger I am
Vanish in the distant lands

Petrified of the darkness 
That echoes
The cruel cold of winter 
Loneliness settles
Still my warmth 
is minuscule and unvalued 
Like rubbish left unwanted
because I played no games 
offer my love as gift attainable

I held on to you 
with nothing to gain
But you ridiculed 
my emotions 
you rejected my pain
You saw right past me
Like am a ghost 
that lingered 
It didn't matter 
If I don't exist at all

Why am so helpless 
I keep asking the mighty Lord
What's store in fate
What's destined

I know you'll 
never hold my hand
I know you'll 
never kiss me 
I meant nothing 
like an extra
in your life.
As you forget to remember
it won't even matter 
If I leave 
never to return.