From J.A

While bidding Goodbyes to this year, A line from my up coming Novel.

"Is life all about tragedy, is there no beauty in the world left to be seen? then I need to find salvation in my silent heart and in arms where ultimate beauty lies for the end. Where the stillness grabs the soul but no more suffocation and no more crimson fluid to roll." - Prologue (Death Letter J.A)

Hope you'll enjoy the Novel. Hopefully it will come up soon :)

RIP Pandit Ravi Shankar

The Sun came up high
shining his light bright in the sky
and here at the other side of the ocean
a shinning sun has died.

Gone forever
leaving us all behind.
Depriving us from
the glory of his music
bidding a sudden good-bye.

The Sun went to set
from Pandit Ravi Shankar's end,
But his music will always be alive with us.
The chord of  Sitar
is broken
But the tunes will never fade.
R.I.P Pandit Ravi Shankar.
Flamin' Icicle bidding Goodbye.

Singing - Happy Birthday!!

Here is a wish for your friend, to be sang at top of our voice... this song wishing all your friends and mine a great life ahead...

Burn My candles
Burn oh!! Bright
Shine your lights
to bless her bright
Let everyone know
she is the one glow
Lets her future prosper
with the life she flows

Burn my candles
Burn oh!! Bright
Bless her might
with you immense sight
Give her the courage
she needs
Give her the pride
and everything
she can achieve

Burn my candles
Burn so bright
Let her life glow
Let it shine
forever bright.

Happy Birthday My Dear
Happy Birthday my Friend!!

A Love Story

Put a one
before another one
and there is a love story
for one found another one.

Strength has met the weakness
suffering to the salvation
Hatred met a closure
and war understands love.
And there is a love story
for one found another one.

There is a reason for everything
for everything
thats come and gone.
But faith stays in
hope lets the love grow
when the heart connects to another one.
Trust builds the realtionship
and fate can turn another round.
For there is a love story
for one found another one.

Love maybe weak
But never can be defected
coz together its one
they give each other
the strength thats enough to hold
when one finds another one.

Its a love story
when one met another one
when heartbeat raised
and anxiety rushes through the veins
walk around with two sticks
where you and I met for the first time.
The sun goes down
the evening fell
and we died in each others arms.

There is a love story
when I met another one
There is a love story
when You met another one
and together we made
our love story
for you and me
forever one.

Sobbing Soul

Sob my heart
Sob the heart out
Roll down my cheeks
Flow down my tears.

Tears need to come out
Cry your heart out
Tears of joy, pain or sorrow
Tears that silently speak words
The words of comfort.

Sobbing soul needs salvation
Needs a shoulder to
Depend upon.
But life its a lone journey
My friend!
Sob, sob...
Coz people always go.

Sob, sob
When dreams come true
Sob my soul
for you need to
Sob my soul
to heal you.

Tears roll down
For am hurt
Kept holdin' still I could've
But let go now
Its been long enough
Joy, pain or sorrow
Let tears come out.

Heal yourself
From holdin' back.
Sob my heart
let it out
Roll down my cheeks
Flow down my tears.

Sob my soul
For love & joy
Sob my heart
For pain & hurt.
flow down my tears
nothing to be ashamed of
Tears roll off,
for destiny is near
The journey was good
Joy, pain and sorrow
Beginning to care.

Flow down my tears
Flow down my tears.

Say Hearts Of Demigods

The hearts of Demigods
Left without love
Father abandoned 'em
For said HE
"thou shall once be heroes,
To find place in my heart."

Achilles, Hercules and Perseus
Lived a life in hollow
Void to fill in,
Void in their heart
To feel they're loved
To feel they deserve love.

Father's love should be unconditional
But HE said to all
"Thou shall not bow
Thou shall not pray
Is all others
Not my son to say"

"They defied to accept us
Said we've to earn our love
Earn our places in Olympus
Fight to death for father's love.
To deserve a place in heaven
We have been judged everyway.
To have a place in your heart
We die everyday
And live a life of hurts.

We're heroes
We're Demigods
we see everyone die before us
Everyone we've been with
Everyone we ever loved.
We're Demigods 
we live a life so cursed.
No Olympus, No heaven we want
we want to be all others
Who live a life of love."

Achilles, Hercules and Perseus
Lived a life in hollow
Void to fill in,
Void in their heart
To feel love
To feel To feel they deserve love.

"To find someone who loves
To seek peace
Not war
We're Demigods
Neither human
Nor Gods
No place in heaven or Earth
for us Demigods,
Living a life of hurts."

"We Demigods
Need no place in your heart
Need no immortality
You ain't deserve.
Jus mortal humanity
We want...
want to live a life of love."

The hearts of DemiGods
Left without love
Father abandoned 'em
For said HE
"thou shall once be heroes,
To find place in my heart."

Be My Guest...!! - III

For story until now Go To the END :

Chapter Three - A Dream So Real

A Salute to BRAM STOKER on his 165th Birthday

Oh! My dear lord...
I slept so dead last night
That even the moving train
Couldn't keep me
from sleeping tight.
Where to the time pass by?
and when did the sun rise so high?
I slept for so long and Oh! so tight
That now, the evening light is shimmering bright.
Still am feeling way too tired
As if I've worked so hard
I guess in my sleep,
Maybe I had a dream
A dream where
I was running away
where to I coudn't say
mortal fear gripping my soul
but afraid of what I couldn't know.
All I remember was running away
All I felt was running away
But I can't remember
who was chased
to far far away.

I was awaken by sudden brake
The train stopped
in some lonely place
I rise up to look around
Everyone was sleeping
Motionless people
Motionless all were.
The train started again
but still motionless all were
in this train.
The moving train
travelling in darkness
heading into a tunnel
where darkness lay hidden.

"Mr.Ray... Mr.Ray..!"
I tired to wake him up
But he was sleeping so deep
Even my yelling voice
Couldn't penetrate through his dream land.
Everyone in the train was
Lost in a similar state
I couldn't move a single sole
All my screams were in vain.

I panicked
And thence started to sweat
But looking outside I saw snow
covering the earth under its white shroud
Seems like the earth was dead
for several years under these chills.
"Jesus help me, I am frighten"
Unable to understand
What I have gotten myself into
"Oh! Lord... Oh! Lord
Save my soul
From this darkness and this evil train"
I prayed and open my eyes
to my astonishment
everything was dark outside
I believe we entered the tunnel
its so dark, its pitch black
Its night under the daylight.

I turned my lamp on
closed the window
for freezing breeze.
I had nothing more to do
other than wait
wait for people to wake up
wait for someone to call my name
for some small talk
or this silence is driving me insane.

I waited and waited
I waited long enough
for my watch seemed like
past couple of hour and half
but not a motion in this train
nor tunnel we were passing has ended
the same darkness all along
and everyone is lost
in their own dream lands.
Its frustrating!!
and my heart was beating fast
sweating like a pig
and breathing hard.
I opened the window for some air
but so suffocated
and chocked I have got.
"Oh!! dear God...
Whats happening"
I rise from my place to take a walk
I couldn't pass through my boggy
for its block with walls
I looked for the door
but found none.
"No... No... No!!
I am getting insane"
I looked again at the watch
and 4 hours had gone
"Atleast the time is passing away
I can tell in this crazy train
its the only thing that defines
that am sane"
"Mr. Ray for God Sake
Please wake up,
Please talk to me
jus take my name
or Say a word..."
He didn't move
As if he is dead
"Anybody..!! Anybody..!!
Somebody... Talk to me
AHHHAAA!!!!"
I shouted and sobbed
at one place.

There was a long silence
other than the sound of the train
The quiteness in here
was testing patience.
Then suddenly... "Hello Mister!!"
Voice of a Lady refering me
"You're so manificiantly handsome"
with a pause "and young
Why so depressed??"
She possessed the beauty of a goddess
an angel came from heaven
I looked at my watch again
to ensure am not insane or dreaming
5 more hours had gone by
since am awake.

I kept looking at her whilst she said again
"Hello Sir...
I heard your voice
Came searching for you"
"Oh!! Goddess came herself
to save my soul
from this insanity of loniless
giving salvation on my way"
I spoke to myself.
I then gain courage to speak few words
"Am sorry Miss
I got panic
in this lonely train
I don't understand
why everybody is so dead sleeping
Even I tried to look around in the train
And wouldn't make it to next boggy
No humane contact
to even speak few words"
She laughed,
"Oh!! Dear... dear!!
you are such a poor soul
I jus came from next boggy
you were so panic to get yourself through"
"But still that doesn't explain
why each sole here
is so dead sleep
even my dear friend here
Mr. Raymond
is not answering several calls"
I questioned.

She smiled and pushed me to sit
I looked at her closely
She was as fair as can be
with great,wavy masses of golden hair
and eyes like pale sapphires.
I seemed somehow to know her face,
and to know it in connection
with some dreamy fear,
but I couldn't recollect at the moment
how and where.
She smile again and came close to me
I went drunken in her beauty
but I marked her brilliant white teeth,
that shone like pearls
against the ruby of her voluptuous lips.
"You are so young and strong
I feel like ripping you
and drink your crimson blood."
She advanced and bent over me
pushing and pressing me back.
There was something about her
that made me uneasy,
some longing and at the same time
some deadly fear.
I felt in my heart a wicked, burning desire
that she would kiss me
with those red lips.
She whispered something
and started laughing
such a silvery, musical laugh
but as hard as though the sound
never could have come
through the softness of human lips.
It was like intorrable, tingling sweetness
of water-glasses when played on
by a cunning hand.

I lay quite,
looking out under my eyelashes
in an agony of delightful anticipation.
I could feel the movement
of her breath upon me.
Sweet it was in one sense,
honey sweet, and sent the same tingling
through the nerves as her voice,
but with a bitter underlying the sweet,
a bitter offensiveness,
as one smells in blood.
I was afraid to raise my eyelids,
but looked out
and saw perfectly under the lashes.
The Lady went on her knees
and bent over me, fairly gloating.
There was a deliberate voluptuousness
which was both thrilling and repulsive,
and as she arched her neck
she licked her lips
like an animal,
till I could see in the lamp light
the moisture shinning on the
scarlet lips and on the red tongue
as it lapped the white sharp teeth.

Lower and lower went her head
as the lips went below
the range of my mouth and the chin
and seemed about to fasten on my throat.
Then she paused,
and I could hear the churning sound
of her tongue as it licked her teeth and lips,
and could feel the hot breath on my neck.
Then the skin of my throat
began to tingle as one's flesh does
when the hand that is to tickle it
approaches nearer and nearer.
I could feel the soft shivering
touch of the lips on the
supersensitive skin of my throat,
and the hard dents of two sharp teeth,
just touch and pushing there.
I closed my eyes in a languorous ecstasy
and waited and waited with beating heart.

But at that instant
another sensation swept through me
as quick as lightning.
As my eyes opened involuntarily
I saw Ray's strong hand grasp
the slender neck of the woman
and with gaint's power draw it back
Yelling "He is Count's Guest
No one lay eyes on him
before Count says."
His eyes were blazing red with fury.
She patheticly said "But Count is..."
He grabbed her through her neck again
and threw her out
through window of the train
while exclaiming
"How dare you? How dare you touch him?"
The woman vanished
with a scream.

I suddenly came to my full senses
and sat straight and erect.
To my surprise
Mr. Ray was laying next to my seat
reading a book under the lamp light
"What happened? You seemed to have a bad dream
You are so wet, sweating.
What you saw?"
I looked around,
outside it was dark as night
or being in that tunnel.
I was confused
I looked around with confusion
"You are palely white
what happened? it was a bad dream
don't worry... we are still on the train
and its been an hour
since you have slept"
He explained to me.
I checked my watch
It was jus' 1am
the only thing I was checking
to ensure my sanity
has now betrayed me.
I admitted "Yeah!! I guess...
had a pretty bad dream.
Last hour seems like a whole day."
He smiled and suggested
"Go back to sleep,
Sleep as much as you can tonite
Coz we will be reaching
3:15am after tomorrow.
so tomorrow's night
you won't be able
to have good sleep."
and wished "But my friend,
have a sweet dream this time!!"

I was still in a shock
every detail was so real
even the pain on my neck
where the dent of her teeth could've been.
I was looking around in confusion.
But I turn and pretend to sleep
to avoid any questions.
Looking at my watch
I saw the seconds to pass
and wishing Morning to come fast.

-- To Be Continued...

Until Now in Be My Guest :

Chapter One - Boarding The 3:15 Train

Chapter Two - Solitude As I Had Asked For 

Further on :

Chapter Four - Breaking Dawn to Break Free
Chapter Five - We Arrive!!
Chapter Six - 666
Chapter Seven - The Dread Room
Chapter Eight - The Dread Room Continues
Chapter Nine - Is Everything Real?
Chapter Ten - The Letter?
Chapter Eleven - The First Meeting
Chapter Twelve - Wanderin' Among The Dead
Chapter Thirteen - Nightmares in the Castle of Dracula
Chapter Fourteen - Midnight Conversation

A Day Of Funeral

Am standing in a funeral
where ashes fell from heaven
White lilies are blooming
Soaked in crimson.
No one is there to mourn
But three of us were standing tall
"if only you could have seen
Thats all"
I prayed on that graveyard.

But I had known since long
This chase won't end
with any result.
I left and never came back
Until you rest in here.
We left and never came back
Until you rest in here.

Once in a while
I had thought
Of memories we had shared
a few good and rest awful
We can recall
But hope you in peace
We prayed all along.

Today my dear
I brought you a flower
In this black dress,
I part you with respect.
But then why your grave
so haunted with loneliness
Why no one came,
No one for whom you gave up
Everything you once possessed.
Where are your brothers
For whom you betrayed,
Why they aren't mourned
Or paying you honest words of respect.
"if only you could have seen
Thats all"
I pray on your stone.
With my broken heart.

Truth can be bent
with many angles
Or shaded with colors
But truth is truth
and will be forever.
Why you couldn't see us
Why you couldn't feel us
We reached to you
'coz you were never ours.

We won't cry for
you had blamed
We won't try
to prove something
I won't forgive for your sins
Though I wish you R.I.P
In your grave.

You made me wonder
For our emptiness
The void you have left
The trust you betrayed
Which I can not forget
Every scar you've given
I won't forgive
For tears thats fallen.
I wish you R.I.P
I wish you riot in hell.

I came with a flower
on this funeral
To See how lonely
is your end.
The ashes fell from heaven
In here,
See your happiness burning
If you could have known
you have mistaken
Whats heaven...
And where is the hell.

I will be at your funeral
When the day will come
For you to leave
with a flower and black dress
With my mother
You had never deserve.
I promise you Father
I will come
And I will never forgive.
No matter when you ask for it
If you were living
Or in your death bed.
You won't find it.
So have peace with your betrayal
Rest in peace in your rotten hell.

When You Been Gone!!

I see nothing
I see only the emptiness
I feel nothing for you
The pain, the sorrow, the cries that haunts
I feel no more.

If you don't remember
what I have done for you
If you cant remember
what I have been to you
Then you turn your back
as you have always did
I don't care
even though it saddens me
I don't care
the way you have been before
I don't care
I cant pretend
I care
Time wont erase the scars
you have scratched forever on me
I wont care if you live or die
Better you be dead
'Coz you are already dead
to me
so am fine
Let us be fine
I cant take
Everytime you are mentioned

I can't ignore
how angry you have made
I hate the monster I had become
Now go to pit hole where you belong
GET OUT FROM OUR LIFE
YOU GONNA LISTEN TO ME
RIGHT NOW!!
RIGHT NOW!! Right now!!

you have to go away
you have to be dead
I don't care
you exist or not
I want you to be erased
from our lives.
Forever... Forever... Forever!!
You be Gone!!

Be My Guest...!! - II

For story until now Go To the END :

Chapter Two - Solitude As I Had Asked For

I boarded the 3:15 train
when everything was silent
and darkness everywhere,
the only light I was seeing
was light from blue night lamps.

All the passengers were deep asleep
lost 'emselves in some dreamland
with cold chilling experience
they were sleeping as hard as they can.
I tried to see the people's faces
while passing through
I saw several red glowing lights
shinning through the pitch black darkness
it seemed like glowing eyes dipped in crimson.
Red eyes looking at me
waiting for me to fall asleep,
to grab me by my throat
and tear my soul from within.

The feeling was as haunting
as its was chilling inside the 3:15 Train.
Whilst a pair of cold hand
grabbed me from the darkness
"Mr. Watson! please be careful
watch your step
and don't sweat with wariness
am here to grab you if you slip
Am here for your safety
to make sure no harm comes"
soften my beating heart,
His calm voice act like a tranquiliser,
I exhaled my jaded fears
and finally took some life in.

We reached our seats
it was numbered 6 and 8.
Mr. Ray handed me a blanket
and a thick book with torn brown cover.
He said its cold, and I may need it.
His presence made me so comfortable
I didn't think twice
before closing my eyes for a nap.
"Its a long journey
over 3 nights and 2 days.
All can do is sleep
and write and read
and eat of course"
Mr Ray was prepared
for the journey all along.
He pointed at the thick book
"Ancient history of Transylvania
and the Count's legacy" He paused
for a moment and then continued
"Its a huge book and of many interests
it will be useful
for your knowledge of this journey
to understand
and write on your say
and on the subject,
read it throughout the journey
as this journey will be very long
and nothing else to do."

There was really nothing to do
So I tried to listen to what's around
There was no sound
not a single moving sound around.
The silence was growing deep,
other than the constant music
synchronising the tone of the train.
I tried to read the book from my companion.
The night was very very cold
so I wrapped my blanket,
I planned to read,
But all the yellow bulbs were
either broken
or not working
Thence I couldn't read that night
Soon I fell asleep
and dreamt peacefully.

My eyes opened with a sudden jerk
the train stopped at a station
with only one stall.
It was morning light
shinning bright on my face
through the window beside.
I looked around
no one was there in the train
not a singe sole around
Even Mr. Ray left a note
"Mr. Watson! I have left
your breakfast on the table
I jus' came to know,
one of my acquaintance
is travelling in the same train
I will be back soon
Hope you enjoy your breakfast
and the book."

I looked outside
for where we were
its was more than an hour
we were unmovable,
I got down, but neither anyone at the platform
nor any board with any name on.
Even the station master
was not there where he should've been found.
I got back inside the train,
confused but what could be done.
It was solitude as I had asked for
then why my soul is being haunted?
Why I feel so frightened?
But nothing to do
rather than wait for the time to come.

I had my breakfast
and tried to concentrate on the book.
It was so fascinating how the author
had carefully portrayed the history
with his words.
I didn't know where the time flew away.
Next I remember looking outside,
and the train starting from the station.
It was already evening
with little dark wrapping the earth.

Here comes Mr. Ray
"Oh!! my Friend am so sorry
I took so long
When you meet people
after a long time
the time jus' fly by"
He smiled at me
and continued
"I knew you didn't have lunch
you must be hungry
so I brought you something to eat"
"Oh!! Mr.Ray... I was so absorbed in this book
I didn't know how time flew
And of course am very hungry"
I paused and marked he was carrying only one plate
that he handed to me
"Only one plate,
you're not eating?"
"No No Sir, I ate with my acquaintance
in the afternoon."

I ate my lunch
its was most tasty food
I have ever had
"Wow!!" I remarked
"Thank you for such a nice meal"
Mr. Ray smiled and said "pleasure is mine"
Then we talked about my work
in The Friction Times
he remarked the work
he liked most.
By the By its was dinner time,
Mr. Ray brought us some food,
but he was too tired to eat and
went to sleep.
before he falls asleep,
he turned and said
"Enjoy your journey...
we will be reaching our destination
3:15am after tomorrow."
With a smile, I wished him Goodnight.
I was very satisfied with my meal
and journey all along.
I wrote my journal
and went to bed.
it was so comfortable
that I fell asleep as soon as I lay down.

-- To Be Continued...

Until Now in Be My Guest :

Chapter One - Boarding The 3:15 Train

 Further On :

Chapter Three - A Dream So Real
Chapter Four - Breaking Dawn to Break Free

Chapter Five - We Arrive!!
Chapter Six - 666
Chapter Seven - The Dread Room
Chapter Eight - The Dread Room Continues
Chapter Nine - Is Everything Real?
Chapter Ten - The Letter?
Chapter Eleven - The First Meeting
Chapter Twelve - Wanderin' Among The Dead
Chapter Thirteen - Nightmares in the Castle of Dracula
Chapter Fourteen - Midnight Conversation

Born From Love - II

Chapter Two - The Wedding Bells

When the wedding bells ring,
Thou shalln't wait,
For the song to end.
Probably the King of Gods,
Will not let it swing.
The wedding Bells ring,
The wedding Songs sing.

The Last night ended
with twinkling stars,
so as the morning
shining bright.
Nut was dressed
in golden glow,
finding heart
in her bridal pride.

"Its my wedding
Its my day
Am so excited
am so gay.
I can't stop jumping
I can't stop dancing
Its my wedding day...
Its my wedding day..."

"Thou shall come,
make me bride
kiss my lips
to pronounce Man & Wife.
I look at my ring
and its so sparkling
like stars in my body
shining Bright... Bright ... Bright."

Nut's song was echoing
through the whole universe.
The happiness and sunshine
dazzling bright on the world.

But HE was not
the one who cherished.
"How somebody could defy me,
I am The King of Gods,
I am The Ra.
Thou shall pay for this.
If you take this day
and suck the merry out of it
you shall not be complete
no way I shall let you be complete."

Thunderstorm....Thunderstorm....Thunderstorm....

"Hush my love...
this should be a secret.
Until we are one
beyond any boundaries
You and your Geb
and their soul is one.
I don't wanna
take any chance,
Its me and you
against the world."

"Oh dear Geb
you are so right!
your love, your Nut
is so naive.
I was so happy,
didn't think of the boundaries
didnt think of the reason
of our short and small wedding.
Oh lord of love,
take my gratitute to you.
To send the cupid
to strike us with its love.
Oh the lady of love
Aphrodite..
pray the world is bound in love
pray The King of Gods
understands our love
If not today, but someday
he understands
the meaning of love."

"My lady lets not loose another second,
with the power of universe
lets become one.
Let rush dear, lets rush...
Its not the time,
for joy and celebration."

They rushed to the holy place
where two souls were meant to be in one.
By the time King of Gods could stop it
They were already bound in one.
The Universe prouce 'em Man & Wife
as ceremony ended
when both took their vows saying "I do"

Celebration finally begin,
as Geb kissed Nut infornt of all
Even The Ra witnessed
their holy matrimony
dipped in Love.

Its the announcement of party in the heaven
and the earth celebrated thousand years
with lavishing food and wine.
Everybody blessed the newly weds
with their gifts and love.

Born From Love - I

Chapter One - The Engagement

The ancient civilization
was yet to start
where the universe was held
by only the Gods.
Love was burning as bright as fire
and love was still forbidden
in cages from desires.

"HE shall never let us be together
HE shall forbid our love from future
We shall not cross the axioms
lest our life will be cursed
Nut separated from Geb
forever.. forever... forever... to Sob!!"
with agony choking her throat
tears of dismay pouring her blue eyes
she some how shared her heart
to the lover of her soul.

"No my love, never utter a word as such
I can't imagine our life separable
No matter if we stand at the court of
Heaven or have to go through Hell.
He must... He must have to consider our love
Our love so powerful so virtuous so supreme
even the mankind to come will remember
our words."

"Dear lover! you don't understand
He is Ra, The King of all the Gods
He knows one from us
will overpower his kingdom
His chair.
HE shall never let us be one"
She held to his hand
and mourning her fear
She was feeling the gusty future
coming to shatter 'em
from each other.

But he was determined
as he pull her hand
and wrapped her in his arms
so strong... to never let her go
"If He comes to fight
I will fight against Him
still am alive...
If a year of 360 days
need to be turned
Promise me my lady
you will not leave a stone unturned.
Promise me my lady
you will not leave a stone unturned."

"I do... I do...
I promise you my love"
Sob... Sob... Sob!
Holding him tighter in her arms.
5 nights it rained
it rained, it rained, it rained
for she was sobbing ghastily
with anxiousness.

That night the couple
was so afraid
that they didn't wanted
to let either one go
"My Lady! I don't want to
leave you tonight
or any other night
why to loose a moment
for tomorrow we never know.
Let us envy what we have now
and shrine to togetherness
I purpose to you
Oh!! my Beloved
Marry me... Marry me! My love"

At this she pulled back
he was afraid of her reaction
he wondered if she was hesitant
so maintain his dauntless face
hiding his fast beating heart
awaiting for one word.
She smiled!!

"Your intention is truly virtuous
your love for me so pure
then why your heart beating like thrum
my lover... are you unsure of my answer
are you unsure of my intentions"
With a smile on her beautiful face
the reason brought a glow to charm
several stars shine so bright
and clouds of rain
somewhere fade.
"Yes... yes... yes!!
I say it infinite times
But I question
How we celebrate this engagement?"

The moment changed everything for Geb
the sadness of depressing night was shining
with the moon and the twinkling stars
so his heart beating fast
was now playing a trumpet of harmony
Shouting as loud as he could
"Lets get married... Lets get married"
his voice echoed through the universe.

He picked up a rock,
that was shining like a star
he put the rock on a melting metal
waited till it cool down
and turned in to a ring
It was so beautiful, so shining, so bright
as if it held a star.

He sat on his knee holding the ring in his hand
"My love... I ask you once again
Will you marry me...
Will you marry your only lover"

She was so happy that tears rolled
through her cheek
and few stars were shooting
brightening up the night
and sound of harmony through the air.

"Yes... Yes... yes...!!
I can't stop saying it again and again"

He held her hand in his
kissed it and put the ring on her finger
"I love you my dear...
forever and always
even the heaven and hell together
can't come between us"

She was mesmerized
"Wow! its so beautiful
what is it? it looks jus' like a star!"

"Mankind will call it a Diamond
for now on
It is very rare
after million years on earth
a piece of carbon becomes
such a rock
piled up with the dust
the shine of beauty will be held preserved
only those with pure heart to love
will propose their beloved
with such a rock,
celebrating the engagement of togetherness
it will be called The Engagement Ring.
it will be the tradition from today
and will live from now on"

----To Be Continued----

Shape of Emptiness

I looked inside myself
I wanted to see the light
which has shown the path
to achievement
which has shown the path
enlighting my life, my world.
But today I look inside myself
the light is eaten by darkness
the knowledge is coated with dust,
faith has broken into million pieces.
Strength is weaken without trust.

Today I look inside myself,
today I look inside myself,
its a bottomless darkness,
Its all hollow inside myself.
Today I look inside myself
and finally I find
its not where I am
but who I have been
and what my existence stands for
Today I look inside myself
and the am standing in some hollow,
where the voices echos through my soul
I look inside myself
and am empty as I find myself.

Be My Guest...!! - I

Chapter One - Boarding The 3:15 Train

The isolation is
what I was looking for,
my peace of mind is
what I was looking for.
The journey to find
such place in the world,
I started without taking
any second thoughts.

The train left England
the land of the crowded soles
the land of opportunities
the land of moving on

I took the journey to Munich
to find my piece of salvation
to find little peace
to be with myself,
to discover my blocked soul.
The journey came to an end
after several tunnels
and rivers we passed on
It took me a day to realize
its not the place I can hide.

The people at the bar heard me
talking while I was inquiring
of the solitude in the abandoned scenes.
They asked me
if I really like to
fetch some adventure.
I shake my head
"No my dear fellas!!
I want to heal my soul
from the broken pain laid insida me...
Am a poet or I used to be one, there in England
But I can't write no more
beating my head everyday
I scarred my soul to drive my words
but I find nothing
I find only hollow
I find darkness lying insida me
I find someone calling me Empty!!"

The fellas at the bar stared at me
what I was saying
was beyond they could comprehend.
But one good man there raised his cup
told me to join him
to the journey of Romania
He said, "If you want to find the solitude
If you want to write the unwritten
you should go to the central Part of Romania
where still the histroy lives
with every sole deep within
It will help you rediscover
your words, your life.
My Friend the Count Dracula
very wise nobleman
will help you with his history
and will be happy to accommodate
for your stay on his grounds."

Sudden cold chilling silence
fell on the bar
The bar manager was frozen
with a terror on this pale face
I asked him whats wrong?
but without answering me
he crossed himself thrice
he crossed his finger towards me
the dismay on others
was also pretty strong
Strange that everybody left their glasses
and cups and food on the table
and left, leaving the bar alone
for me and the strange guy.
I asked the man
what happened to these people
He smiled and told me
to sleep early tonight
if I really want to rediscover my soul
I should come with him
to the land of history
to land of noblemen.
He also told me grabbing my hand
with his cold hands that he will be waiting
at 3:15AM at the station for me.
I was hesitating but some sense in me
was attracted to his offer.

I went to bed later that night
but I could'nt sleep
all my head was filled with his
words of history
and writing the unwritten.
why someone should do
something so good for a man.
Suddenly I wondered how long
and cold his hands were
his nails were sharp
and his smile was
that Judas in hell might be proud of.
It creeped me but I decided to go for it.
Maybe the Englishman in me
was taking the call for me.

I left my inn
while my innkeeper was sleeping
Ergo I left some money
at the table in my room.
I couldn't find any carriage
so I walked, I walked and walked
and when I was walking
It jus slipped my mind
where I was going.
When I came to my senses
I was standing in front of the station gate.
There was no one at the station
I couldn't even take a ticket
It was weird,
as if the whole of Munich was sleeping.

I climbed the stairs,
My heart was beating much faster.
When I reached the platform
I saw the strange but good man
I met at the bar, waiting for me
as he had promised.
He handed me my ticket.
It called the Train
from Munich to Romania at 3:15AM.
I looked at my watch
it was already 3:10AM.
I was excited, but also suspicious
I asked the man what's his name
as I have never asked him before.
He smiled again the same way
as his front teeth impressed on his lips
And he answered
"People call me Raymond, or Ray...
Am Raymond Miller. Pleased to meet you.
And very much appreciate that you came
Mr. Joseph Watson."
I was startled "How you know my name?
and everything you are doing for me,
why?
People don't do so good to another man
not without any intentions of self benefit.
So please clear my doubts, my dear fella
before I board this train."

He was natural at being a real gentleman
"Gladly!" he said and clarified further
"I have known you from London.
You used to write for 'The Fictional Times',
Am a businessman,
and I travel a lot for my business.
So I have been to London many times.
And every-time I buy your newspaper
jus' to enjoy what you write.
Am an admirer of your work.
But last time I went for my business tour
I bought the newspaper
and to my shock
saw some amateur taken your place.
With sorrow I went forward with my work and left London.
To my surprise, I found you all of a sudden
where I was enjoying my drink.
When I heard what you said
about your block of writing
I couldn't resist speaking to you,
and offer you what I had to offer.
My only intention is to read
and enjoy your beautiful words
and also I will appreciate it
if you can tell the history of my land to the world.
So Mr.Watson, am not helping you
but will you help me?"

I nodded with a smile
and nothing else was needed
to put his good heart
and intentions into words.
Meanwhile the train came,
I boarded holding his cold hand
and admiring Mr.Miller's warm nature.

--To Be Continued...

- Edited by Sir Charlemagne

Further on Be My Guest :

Chapter Two - Solitude As I Had Asked For

Chapter Three - A Dream So Real
Chapter Four - Breaking Dawn to Break Free
Chapter Five - We Arrive!!
Chapter Six - 666
Chapter Seven - The Dread Room
Chapter Eight - The Dread Room Continues
Chapter Nine - Is Everything Real?
Chapter Ten - The Letter
Chapter Eleven - The First Meeting
Chapter Twelve - Wanderin' Among The Dead
Chapter Thirteen - Nightmares in the Castle of Dracula
Chapter Fourteen - Midnight Conversation

Haunting Loneliness

When the city sleeps
My shadow haunts beside me
Sometimes I wish the devil
listens to my screams to find me
my soul so alone
so broken
that my shadow haunt me through the night

I cant follow my thought
somehow I can not separate
from the memories
of my broken parts.
when the city sleeps
My shadow haunt beside me
Sometimes I wish the devil
listens to my screams to find me.

The crazist part is consciously I deny
whats so confusing in me
the sense of security,
I am intending to achieve or hide
but I walk alone,
And my shadow walks beside me
and makes me think
Is there someone I wish to walk along
and my existence is still be mine.

When the city sleeps
My shadow haunt beside me
Sometimes I wish the devil
listens to my screams to find me
'Coz I can't be alone
In the crowd of all the well wishers
In the safest place
my heart still cries
for the wholeness
for the completeness
and to be recued
from the darkness of my inside.

TITANIC - In Memories

Honoring a century past of that majestic maiden, which had no future but made history and has been immortal through the torn brown pages, connecting to so many lost souls, giving 'em direction and changing lanes for so many others. A symbol of great tragedy. A symbol of immortality. A symbol of majesty beauty, but beyond all, A symbol of love. She was named Titanic... and she made history...

She started off on her journey to make history and to make a headline when she will reach New York, she made one... she made it to the headlines, she made it to the pages being immortal in history. Only by shocking reality - that unsinkable can be sunk, and a rash reckless behavior pays its own price.

James Cameron quoted "Titanic was a very capsule of the modern world, where people are divided according to their class, the money etc. And at the time when crisis hits, the rich make their way and the poor suffer." After 15-20 years of research James has now decided to move on to new projects and keep her in memories.

Sad, isn't it... Titanic had brought so much of sorrow. Its a tragedy on the human face where its crying from  12,000 feet (3,700 m) below the ocean surface to connect to every sole in the world with a different perception. I guess that's why its worth the obsession of so many and still be the graceful beauty we love falling in love with.

Yes, Titanic is romance and love... even being tragedy and sorrow. Many of us loved her for her different shades of beauty. And today after 100 years, we all remember her and appreciate her for being one of her kind, and mourn this old lady and souls graving with her to rest in peace.

14 April 1912, 11:40PM Titanic hits the iceberg. 15 April 1912, 2:20AM she was buried in the North Atlantic Ocean. The count of lost soles was 1514. (Here we jus light a candle, and take a moment to mourn!)

I feel her, since long... she makes me sad, but she is the one who made me understand what love is. And made me fall in love ever since. This is me mourning for her death 100 years from now, but this is me celebrating her glory at the same time.

Until yesterday I couldn't decide what should I do for her - a small gesture? a moment of silence? what? I didn't know that even after 100 years she can touch me with love again, immerse my soul which had sunk into the darkness of lost direction and depressed graves, finally seemed a light of those candles and felt the warmth of love once again.

I was so busy in my personal problems that it was not until last moment I realized that its the day she submerged under the ocean. I wanted to do something, anything for her! It will be the only chance I will have in my life time to do something to show that she matters to me, I decided to light up 1500 candles for every lost sole (later I felt ashamed, how could I forget the 14 more officially counted people.). On my plan, my mother and husband laughed that it ain't even possible, and later with their suggestion I agreed to light 15 candles (one for every 100 lost soles). By the time came I again got occupied in my own problems and disappointments. I was planning on the time 15Apr 2:20AM(which is definitely quite late), what to do?

I was watching NAT-GEO, where the channel is celebrating the glory of the greatest ship on the pages of history. I thought that by watching, I would able to connect to her. So leaving all I was trying to establish, several failed attempts to make a connection and talk to her once again. All I can say was, she wasn't replying. But I was jus' waiting with a hope and disappointment in heart, when I received a missed call from my husband on my mother's cell phone. I went outside to understand, why is he breaking the bond am trying to establish with the moving picture of her on the TV screen. And when I was finally out, I saw a light, a yellow light, light from several candles which my husband was lighting for me, I knew he is doing that because Titanic meant something to him, but he did it 'coz she means a lot to me. It was 11:40PM, 14Apr'12. There, I heard her... and those lost souls too... all 1514 of 'em. I didn't cry, my eyes aren't wet, though I smiled like a heavy weight had been lifted. He asked me to read what he had written with the candles, I barely could make it out until he read it to me :

"04.15.12

 1514"

It was amazing, I could feel all the 1514 souls finally letting go... And I lighted one more candle... beside 'em for myself promising her that I will let go the sadness and the sorrow, that I will try harder. But for a moment I thank her too, for making me feel this love again... once again in my life!! "Making me feel... that the love I experienced through you for the first time can be true, can be alive and can be mine!!" So I decided to try to see the good again, focus on the best and let go of the bruises and the passed-away darkness... I try to move on.... reach to shore for that light... emerge from the darkness of the crying calls of Titanic to live each day as last day of my life.

Titanic means so many different ways to the world... for me, She defined Immortal Love.

She is the beauty, she will be... 

She is immortal... she will be in history...

She was our love.... she will be remembered...

Titanic.... In Memories!!

Rest In Peace my love!!

Everybody Blames Somebody!

 



She was painted in a dark portrait
she was left behind
she sobs in the darkness
her howls are lost in musical nights

A ray of hope if she touched
is also a mirage in the desert
it fades away
leaving her alone in there

nothing really matters
as lies has become the truth
how hard is it to hold on
when in this crowded ocean
all she has is a piece of wood

Does she have to leave now
its unbearable to stick around
the aching heart wants to quit
it too much already to feel.

If the world is against my notion
I believe am swimming opposite of the current
why should I blame anybody
if everyone blames La Cleroa Ortiz!!

To, My Life,

- A Connection with Sir Charlemagne

Hey Honey!!

I know that the things between us are not exactly ideal and I also know your dislike for such printed cards. But still I am taking this chance partly because I wanted to do something & am infamous for managing and partly because I like this one.

Its true! I do have a dream of us as, I'm sure, do you. You know we can both be much better than this at being together. Given Round 1 of our time was lost because of my shortcomings and the fact that what has happened cannot be undone. But still that is a flimsy excuse for destroying our lives now and make sure that we don't fall to such lows ever again. No matter how hard it gets and no matter what the world says... the power to make or break lies with us.

So come now dear wife, hold my hand, walk with me, talk to me, and together let us build our future anew. We'll fight for what is worth fighting, we'll let go of what is not. We'll talk about each other, share and write all our problems away. But first of all, lets start being a couple again. Let's start experiencing the love and care that initially brought us togethe. Lets start living our life the way we can. Let us be us again!

You may not like many things about me, and I many not like some about you. But then that's life and living together. You have to take the whole fruit to enjoy the pulp. You are my wife, not by chance, not by mistake, and not by law; but by heart, soul & more.

                               Yours, Hubby

No Seriously!
I've given you my heart & like it or not, that one gift you cannot return. So no matter what happens, no matter where we end up, you'll always be my wife....

... and no one can that away from me.

Hoping Recapture

Your Heart!!

The above letter is the most romantic love letter I have ever got, or the only love letter I have ever received. I want to remember the good memories I came across, though the goodness can be shadowed easily and so simple to forget about it in the absence of light. Human nature is made to keep score of every hardship, every event that went wrong, score of what could've been! But in the darkness of our own heart where there is jus' an absence of light, or a hope... we forget to see, what had been! what are the l'il gesture, he has put together jus to see a blink of a smile or to meld my heart. The above letter is one of many... its not that, there is no shadow I can associate with it, though in my grieving moment all I can see how I had been hurt and suffered, but then I read it... and realize... He tried... He tried... and that's what make me try, in the darkest hour... to get back whats mine. To believe we belong together... Forever & Always!!

You Recaptured my Heart...!

"How's That For A COME BACK!!"

A thousand sun shines
on the pheonix
which can rise again.
If you will force me to fall
I will stand again.
I aint be defeated
I will fight back
for the mistakes
you claim to be right.
Your faith, your believe
I aint care to proof any wrong.
You can't change me
you can betray me
but I aint care
how you try to sufforcate me
cause I aint need to breathe in your fumes
what you think, I will run!!
No!!
I will, I will survive
I will stive back
I will take a turn
and make a come back.
Not an under achiever
I can take it
aint need faith
aint need help
aint need you
I need ME!!
you can affect me
you suck my truth
you betray me
but you can't destroy me
coz I aint care for you
I dont belong here
Am gonna fly
I gonna stive back
I will fight
I will make a come back!!

Darkness To Valentine

- By Outlines of Shades

The sun is bright,
under the beautiful sky.
I watch every wave,
sway and slide.
She comes along,
padding on the golden sands,
wispy memories,
brimming in her eyes.

Three years ago,
on that fateful Valentine,
when the screen was cursed,
and my decision blind.
To lose what I had found,
and let go of my sunshine,
the golden girl of my dreams,
left alone in the dawn-less night.

Oh! How she suffered,
What she went through!
How the monsters tormented her,
outside and inside.
But with the morning light,
she knocked at my door,
welcoming me,
with her saintly smile.
It seems like just yesterday,
but three years have passed us by.
I curse myself every day,
remembering the time,
I made her cry.

The sun is bright,
under the beautiful sky.
I watch every wave,
sway and slide.
She comes along,
padding on the golden sands,
scars scattered on the slate,
she cares to hide deep inside.

Oh! So badly she scarred.
Oh! So flawless she was.
Oh! So vile was my tirade.
Oh! How these memories I evade.
This year was high sometimes,
some low tides also came by,
we made it through
the valleys and the hills
to be pronounced, Man & Wife.

The sun is bright,
under the beautiful sky.
I watch every wave,
sway and slide.
She comes along,
padding on the golden sands,
on the honeymoon beach,
we sat and sang,
“Come along my beautiful bride,
walk down the flowery aisle,
wearing your beautiful smile,
looked at with curious eyes,
Gods kneel before my bride,
my beautiful, my only sunshine”

She held my hand,
and looked into my eyes.
She whispered my name,
and gave me a smile.
She said am forgiven,
redeemed by God’s grace,
that all the scars and heartache,
the flowing tides have washed away,
blessing us with eternal joy.

The journey wasn’t easy,
the path, thorny and hostile.
The times were difficult,
ripping off heart, body and mind.
Love is complicated,
yet easy sometimes.
And after sustaining its beauty,
the bond we make is truly divine.

The sun is bright,
under the beautiful sky.
I watch every wave,
sway and slide…

January Winter This Year

Winter, oh winter
What darkness you have brought
So gray all the way
And fights couldn't stop
Even your merry christmas
Couldn't bring a little pause.
So sad that you sob now,
And leaving us all apart.
We waited a whole year
With dreams and wishes
To play with your colourless snow
And its time that I will be wedded.
Please dont go away
Please don't sob with pain
The humanity its destroyed I know
But some how we can save our way.
Men are fool I guess
Ain't even know
What they are paying to fake.
But I pray to you
Dont go away
Please dont sob with pain.
Please fix this world once again
Not with tsunami or hurricane
But little peace we are left
And for the ones
World is still a better place.
Winter, oh winter
Please don't go away.

Forever & Always

- by Outlines of Shades

Come along, my beautiful bride,
walk down the flowery aisle,
wearing your beautiful smile,
looked at with curious eyes,
Gods kneel before the bride,
my beautiful, my only sunshine.

In the twilight as she drew near,
a single shimmering tear
streaked down from puffed eyes.
Why the tears? Why the pain?
She said she was left behind,
not feeling like a bride,
running in rounds, toiling hard
to avert the shadowy rain.

I tried to do my job best,
to be the husband and forget the rest,
to ease the pain for my wife to be,
to be her pillar, as she was to me.
The day went hard and long,
with many shadowy figures lost,
creeping in with their wispy strands,
bringing along the thorns and the sands,

I held her hand as she held on to mine,
close to our hearts with bonds divine,
down came the rains along with the storm,
could never breach the lovers' aplomb.
The devil himself reached out at night,
strangled her out, sucked her dry.
But in the darkness she heard my cries,
fought back hard and we survived.

Today we stand alone,
the wedding day has passed by...
Today we stand along,
the wedding day has passed by...
Today we stand alone,the wedding day has passed by...Today we stand along,the wedding day has passed by...

Unmarried Widow

I mourn for the lost soul
my heart cries for the one who hasn't passed on
I wonder where will be her salvation
When a thousand vultures feed on her broken heart

Oh! They call her the unmarried widow
She lost her soulmate much before his time
No one shed tears on his dead body
But they are the reason he died.

Why you left me forever
Why I can't see you anywhere
And I can't even fight
for you left me so far behind.
Why you made me stand with full conscience
and let me die everyday a million times
What trust I could have anymore
Whom I blame when everything has passed me by
Why you left forever
Why you are making me cry
These might be her words
when her world got crushed that night.

That day was like any other day
Started with a cup of tea and some morning snack
They might be getting ready
for a future they had planned
When a star fell from the sky
And the thunder stunt her earth
with shattering noise
Her valentine was lying in blood
It was 11:59 night before valentine's

did she have a chance
to glance at him for the last time
did she have a chance to say goodbye
She was planning something else
Coz what had to come wasn't planned.

I imagined his grave was empty
souless creatures trying to seek his land
Cruelly they ate her too
But silently she bore her dismay.

She will be alone for her love
Sobbing on his grave.
Leaving the world behind
Her eyes dried and showed pain
nobody came to lend a hand.
She was alone for him
Until the end of time.
She comes everyday
Spends every night
People called her crazy
Who is she?
The unmarried widow dying
since he had died.

Falling to my Grave

Please come alone
To the funnel
To my grave.
With rolling tears on your cheeks
with a heart for my fate.
I have been crying
and trying to escape.
But am caught up,
Am Caught up
to the road to nowhere
And it has no end.
Am battling against my fate
Am battling against myself
But I hear thunder
And only myself.
Now am down to one last word
Will you let me stay.
am falling from edge
And 6 feet below the earth
seems still far away.

Am looking up to find you
crying to my grave
Am lying down
And I can see all my mistakes
But I am on road to nowhere
And trapped in this grave
6 feet below the earth,
Am still waiting
You will come to me
with some faith.
am falling from edge
And 6 feet below the earth
seems still far away.
Am crying Helen, to save me
But am down one last word
Will you,
Will you let me stay.
Am 6 feet under ground
and am waiting
For you to shed some tears.
Please come alone
To the funnel
To my grave
With rolling tears on your cheeks
for my soul to escape.