Given Up

Have you ever been there?

When I cried

Have you ever been there?

When I was lost in loneliness

Darkness haunts me

Drowning in dreads of my own nightmares

Directionless I am wonder
Caught in chaotic whirl 

Needing someone to light my way

Were you there ever?

When I needed you

When my life became meaningless

When my hopes meant nothing

When my dreams startled me

Turned into nightmares
With its ghastly bliss

And all I knew was how to complain

Blinded by my disappointments

And I learnt to hate myself

Were you there to love me?

When love was only thing

That could’ve saved me

Were you there?

Before I turned into a monster
Destroying everything
I ever held dear

Before I resented my reflection
feeling remorse for every bit of my past

Before I lost hope of future
Anything I imagined
Now left with haunting ruins

Were you there?
You weren’t ever

‘Coz if you were

I would’ve given up.