"Where is my Home?"

- Based on True Incidents in the life of a friend.

At a distance I hear a song
floating in melancholy I hear her voice
a sweet voice humming in her house
echoing through the walls
circling around.

"Do you sing" I asked her
Sweetly she shook her head
"a pretty girl like you,
why trapped inside four walls?"
"not walls am surrounded with,
T'is a cage am living in,
captivated in my own self
I have no where to escape."
she replied with grave voice.
"Where is your home, dear"
I wondered
"Where is my home??"
she wondered.

"Years have passed by
but not long before
that I can forget from my sight.
My life changed forever
and loneliness is all
I have find."

"That day I wondered
I wonder again and again
Where is my home??
I solicit an answer."

she took a deep breath
before she could speak ahead
she sighed and said,

"Not long ago
I was on cover of magazines
Crowd cheering for me
praising my name
my beauty they perceived,
Now I had passed that phase
all that mattered
in the name of marriage
But I believed
I was free.
A person to love
who loves me."

"But still am wondering
Where is my home?
Is it where
He is?"

Hopelessness I could see
her eyes were dry
but voice shaking
in agony.
She paused but not for long
she continued with anguish in heart,

"I couldn't understand
why I deserved
all the punishments
The prices I paid
without being guilty
of anything.
The life I have
in solitude and agony.
My cries and sob
dried in seclusion"

She poured her pain
only tears were too dried
lost in the foggy midst
her words were reflecting back.

"I don't make sense
I understand
too much in a life
and too li'l words to make a line.
But lemme try to sing you
my life
if am buried in wondering
someone would know
Who i am."

She started on a tune
softly humming to sing

"Wrapped in a darken sorrow
hidden from any light
my life turn upside down
when story begin
and mother was gone."

"I was a li'l child
maybe 15 that time
my mother left me
and my father brought a bride"

"Life changed since then
alone I was, I still am
lonely in every turn
drifting from everyone."

And she hummed again,
Continuing with her song

"I found my way
when I found my passion
I found respect
in beauty and fashion.
The only thing I loved the most
in this earth and on name of heaven"

"But still emptiness
haunted me in the nights
Cold bed and how alone I am,
Everything seemed fine
but I still wondered
'Where is my home??'
Where I belong
to be jus' fine."

"When love came into my life
I hold on the one
I loved with whole heart
with breath of mine
I put my soul into the one.
Happily married,
I left all I had,
to be a better part
to start a new life I had."

"But now my dreams are far
from what it is.
Caged inside the four walls
am trapped in my own dream.
I wonder again and again
"Is this my home?
Is this my life?
Is this is where I belong?"

And I cry to myself again and again
I sob for a answer to this question
"Where is my home,
What I am?"

"My soul cries to be free
get into the world
and breath air of peace.
The glamour on
the pages of magazine
now buried in ignorance
lost in unknown wanderings.
'What's love?" I wonder
haunting me in loneliness?'
I am slave of some others
Dancing in each tune."

"In the nights
My bed is still cold
and am still alone
fearing my own ghost.
"What's life?" I wonder
having no life of my own
I ponder, I surrender."

"Where is my home?
I wonder
Where I belong?
I wonder."

"Even if the door is open
I know my wings are broken
no place on earth I can go
There is
nowhere I belong."

"Now do you wonder
Where is my home?
I still wonder
Where is my home?"