A Decade

A decade ago
You gave me an earring
The one I lost
A half of a pair

A decade ago
We were a thing
Our passion with flying sparks
Admiration for each other

A decade ago
Probably we could have
made it work
If we hadn't hit a rough patch
If we hadn't despair each other

A decade has passed
And so much is changed
We are not the same people
I am not the same

A decade later
I come to hate myself
The person I became
All the failures bearing

A decade, now a past
Long walks on beach
And dreams we had
We loved no doubt
But now love is gone

A decade can change a lot
Maybe now its time to realize
Let's stop living in denial
Choose our own way
May that can lead to closure

A decade ago
We made each other happy
But chasing happiness
We lost our magic
Something's gone
Better left alone 

A decade too long

too much is taken

Following our separate path
Maybe bliss will come along.

For a decade I died
so many times
Dead inside,
I can still hear my soul cry
Not gonna wait
another decade again
It's enough
all I had to give

LCO Say's So

There is a hell of difference between "what we want to do" and "what we have to do". The lesser the gap is, the more is the happiness and satisfaction.

Lucifer - Chapter 3

For story until now Go To the END : 

Chapter Three – Battle at Heaven's Gate

I had to leave her behind
not knowing if she'll there, when I come back.
But I have to stop this chaos,
Fire of Father's wrath
hitting earth unleashing chaos
something outraged him
to hurt his own creation
I have to stop this
before everything is gone.

I have to talk to my Father
So I declared,
"Father here I come"
I have to talk to my father
and make him understand

He will listen to me,
Am his favorite son.
I wonder what raged him to fury,
"Is it about me and my feeling for her,
No!" I am not guilty to love the one.
He has created everything,
the light, the earth, the human being
He has created the feelings,
the envy, the love and the violence
"I have only chosen,
the beauty in his creation"
I opined to myself
standing in front of heaven's gate

"You're forbidden to enter Heaven
You're forbidden to see Our father"
scowled Micheal
with his army prepared to fight

"But why brother,
What this anger is about,
have I unaware hurt Thee father
If so, let me pass
Let me speak with him,
its all I ask."

"You have sinned Samuel,
You are not worthy anymore."

"How? please give me an answer
Is it because I loved her...?
But she is His creation
She is His finest creation on earth
Pure and Divine
She emerge from the aura
he lighted upon the earth"
I tried to elucidate my side

"We fly over the earth,
to watch upon His creation
We are Archangels
We are Supreme beings
rose from God's true powers
and this Humans are beneath.
They are created only to pray,
To build our fortress
and satisfy our needs."
Micheal stated in disgust
"How could you do this, Brother
Actually desire this creature
She might be most pleasant to see
but you're not just an Angel
You my brother, are the son of God."

"Micheal, I understand you disapprove,
You have always seen those being beneath us
But I walk among 'em
Live among 'em and I love one of 'em.
I have done no wrong
Let me speak to our father,
Not you but he will understand."

"Go away brother, without a fight,
Father has banished you,
You're not a worthy son
You have ashamed us,
so now you're exiled
from heaven and the skies"

"I am your brother, Micheal,
And I don't want to hurt
or to fight.
I am my comrade's general,
As powerful you are
I am too.
So let me pass and be at peace."
I demand my worthy visit

But God of war had his victory
battle among angels
stuck on heaven's ground.
As Micheal was losing to held the heaven's gate
Brightest light stuck
and everything went into darkness.

-- To Be Continued

Until Now in Lucifer :

Chapter One : Samuel

Chapter Two : The Reason

Further on :
Chapter Four– The Angels Return
Chapter Five - Lucifer Rises
Chapter Six – Pile of Death
Chapter Seven - The Dark Prince

Lucifer: Chapter 4

For story until now Go To the END : 

Chapter Four – The Angels Return

I watched him fade away in the sky

Distance growing as he left

He promised he will be back

But now a year has past

Am still standing here staring up in the sky

waiting for him, but there is no sign

Earth is burning where you left me behind

Flames of grudge eating each soul alive

I prayed to my Angel a thousand times

But lost in silence

like forever abandoned

Hope’s broken on earth

As tragedy stuck with million weapons

Plague, famine and war

Death at every corner

Man has turn into something not human

Hatred and evil now run the world

No one is untouched anymore

And hope of salvation is torn.

God must be angry

As the humanity in blink to extinct

No sign of Angels to save us
by our side, to guide us

or to fight this war

As I lose my last hope

I say to myself
I can’t take it anymore

I bid my final goodbye

There must be another life

I will wait for your love

I will wait for your return.

As I dig my grave to sleep in it

My eyes startled by thousand lights in the sky

People cheering “Angels have returned”

And for a second there a sense of relief has spunked

My eyes sparkle as I kept searching for him

“Where are you my Angel,

Are you the brightest one shinning?”

For a moment there I found myself smiling

My pain, my wound

Forgotten to a distant memory

“They’re here!!

Angels!! They’re here!!”

People cheering

Hope has returned on earth

Bringing people back together.

Shinning the dark sky

The Angels are back with light

But as the distance grew closer

Dread took over

Cheers turned into screams

People running for shelter

At the speed of shooting arrows

Angels came falling on earth

They're fallen soldiers from heaven
hurt, wounded and abandoned 

I  wonder 

“What must have happened

for these daunting Angels

to lose any battle.

These’re warriors 
comrade of The God

fallen from a lost battle
What tragedy could have stuck.”

Questions answered in silence

And darkness again wrapped the earth

Despair prevailed

And moment of hope, disappeared.

My eyes widen with fear

When I saw my one Angel crashed on earth

His wide white wings made him distinct

Fallen too far beyond in the distant mountains
The edge where earth touches sky
far beyond the grove
where sun never rise. 

God, show mercy on us!

We pray for your hand to light us

Save us from what's coming

Give us strength to fight the evil.

As the Angels struck on earth

Fire of hell broke loose to devour

I passed through the molten fire 

And climbed on the mountain

My bleeding enigma

Couldn’t stop my feet

Tear roll down my cheek

And too far this journey I seek

After a week on foot

With no rest no food

I noticed a glow at a distance far in the woods

Burning like fire

Shinning like gold

Aback I got strength
filled with love and its vigor intense.

I ran till I reach
only to witness a dreadful scene

Laying at a distance,

I glanced at his large wings

Soaked in his blood

Broken in pieces,
feathers shredded scattered everywhere.

My heart went cold
and I couldn't move anymore

“Is he...?” I left numb and stunned

I came to my senses,

as few moments passed

I went closer  

and touched him at last.
Burning like red coal
bleeding magma
through cracks of his wounds,

"What shall I do...
what shall I do...?"
I kept questioning
howling under the silver moon.

-- To Be Continued

Until Now in Lucifer :

Chapter One : Samuel

Chapter Two : The Reason
Chapter Three – Battle at Heaven's Gate

Further on :
Chapter Five - Lucifer Rises
Chapter Six – Pile of Death
Chapter Seven - The Dark Prince

Be My Guest - XV

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                                                                                                Chapter Fifteen- Tamed Beast

Am paralyzed,
A moment felt like eternity,
Words echoing in my ears,
"Devil saved your life"

That night of terror
A few broken memories
I remember
Something that's haunting me
for so long
So many questions
wiggling unanswered.

"Tell me my good Lad,
What you remember of that night
The night you left your inn
you started your journey
lost in woods
lost and unseen."

I have no answer
I thought to myself
but words started pouring
right out of my lips

"I remember, it was raining
and I was running deep into the woods
I kept going
Kept going
but feet hurt my bones"
I tried to recall

"That's right my Lad,
what more...?"

"I don't know when did I reach
that graveyard
Now its snowing
and chills shrilling
with howling of wolves
maybe a dozen,
or a hundred of 'em"
I started panting
catching my breath I said

"I know am gonna die,
am sure of it
but then the scene went dark
as my vision disappear
I hear the howling getting closer
closer and more closer"

"Did you hear anything else?"
The count asked
"I hear horse or a carriage
I hear footsteps
then everything is blackness"
I rose from my chair
in shock and unrested

"You are precise my dear Lad,
You remember lot of pieces
than you thought."
the Count said with a grin
"Now let me put the puzzle together
for you."

"That night you remember,

in the graveyard,
it was snowing,
because you were lost in the woods
for two days and one night"
Count paused for a second
to let me soak in
"That night you fled the inn,
leaving your luggage behind,
you walked out of the door."

"Sweet Lady, the owner, the keeper
She saw you walking away,
so she sent for me
summoned me in worry
We looked for you.
We thought you went on a quest
of your own,
Unsure where we can look for you
in this thick forest."
he explained.

"You remember precisely,
The wolves howling,
they were chasing you
and you finally seek shelter
in a graveyard,
But these nasty creatures,
They can smell you from distance
And if they have your scent
they won't stop until
they have ripped you to pieces"

I was shivering,
reliving my worst dread again,
as he continued telling,
"But you were very lucky my Lad,
As those wild wolves have your scent,
My Devil here, also got your scent
from the luggage you left behind
And so he found you, 

jus' in the neck of the time.
And so here you are.
All safe and sound
without a scratch."

I kept staring at the wolf
that saved my life
suddenly his monstrous persona
made so naive and kind.
The count loosed his lease
and asked him to walk to me
So huge, so powerful,
yet so loyal and amiable
I wonder.
He no more felt like a peril
or like a wolf who's hunting,
rather a trustworthy dog
a friend and company in the big castle
so I patted him and hugged him
for all I knew,
he is a companion I can fully trust.

Count smiled at us
"I told you will bond" he said,
"He can live with you
as long as you're here,
I know it gets lonely here,
big castle
and the night are the most darkest
Believe me he will keep you safe
He will die before anything cause you harm"

I kept brushing him, and said
"Thank you, I can sleep well now."

Until Now in Be My Guest :

Chapter One - Boarding The 3:15 Train
Chapter Two - Solitude As I Had Asked For

Chapter Three - A Dream So Real
Chapter Four - Breaking Dawn to Break Free
Chapter Five - We Arrive!!
Chapter Six - 666
Chapter Seven - The Dread Room
Chapter Eight - The Dread Room Continues
Chapter Nine - Is Everything Real?
Chapter Ten - The Letter
Chapter Twelve - Wanderin' Among The Dead
Chapter Thirteen - Nightmares in the Castle of Dracula
Chapter Fourteen - Midnight Conversation

Flatline

Do you feel like you are done
Everything you had to do
is already said and done
jus' one more mile
time will run
I will fade away
into void
walking into
white blank.

A few pieces
I need to fix
A few mails
saying goodbyes
but there is no one
it reminds.

Would the world weep
As I part
Would a single soul ache
At last
Don't I need to know
if anything you've to show?
Nothing you have now,
so it won't matter,
when am gone.

All you have to say,
is said
All you have to give
is given
Please don't mourn
or even pay your respect
I am a chapter
read and forgotten.

This last part is
for someone
My one soulmate
My only link to this world.

If we born again,
we will be born together
our soul intertwined
and we have each other.

As long as one live
so does another,
If you have a heartbeat
I promise I will breathe,
but your flatline
will take me with it. 

A Decade Old Habit

Nine years
of letting out the monsters
reach nowhere
and stone cold as this

Its not that
we don't understand each other
We never did.

Every fight
Scarred us
We fall into ditches
We dig.

I can't tell your version
of the story
But here
I have this

You wanted to do
what deemed right to you
You didn't think of me.

Every action affecting you
Has impacted me.

Least bothered you carried on

Raising questions on my solutions.

All I needed,
was you to support
my opinion
Even if, it didn't make sense
to your uncomprehending perception.

I don't want to strip naked
again and again, every time.
Just to make sense and
make you understand
How I bleed,
How I ache
broken with every hit.

Nine years has passed
And I finally understand

I have to struggle alone
Throughout my life
Even though I had been your rock
In those toughest days and nights.

I have to fight
To make my own way
Even though I fought with the world
For you at every step

I have lost myself
Fell into my own grave
Suffocated under dirt
And hit by my headstone
Dated back to a decade.

My expectations weren't too much

Or was it, so you thought?
But always you have acted against

weighing your logic than my respect.

All I needed
you to be on my side

Echoing for once
That my heart 

wants and decides.

For once I wanted

to be the special one
for a day my choices 

to be attained
fulfilled in every term.

But your surprises
were too much to bare

Broke my heart
And all my wishes.

You choose to
Kill my soul 

with your bare hands
Let me bleed, my will to live.

Your hatred so vivid
Your anger still has no rest
Maybe this is what I deserve
But tormenting your feeder
Where is the sense in this?

Nine years
I hoped we'll be better
We could fix this
If not sooner then later.

Its not that
we don't understand each other,
We never did.

It is that
We don't respect each other
And over the decade
We have learned to despair.

There is nothing to save
Or salvage in what we have
So let's draw a line today 

and break free
from our darkness
and evil hell.

Let's not drag
something meaningless
torturing and tormenting,
Something agonizing,
suffering filled with
only pain and aching.
Something like a burden
to weigh on every scale
Something so dark
that shadows love, care
and goodness.

I will live with my demons
Let 'em run deep
Escaping each other
Will give a perspective

For better or worse
There were no vows
There were no promises
So allow me to set fire
to a decade of miseries.

Let the blames
drown me
Let everything be buried
with my body.

I break you free
From all obligation
I ever expected

I break you free from
Your social responsibility
That you've never fulfilled

I break you free
From being my partner
'Coz we never shared
Our pain, our happiness
Our complaints.

Almost a decade passed,
But now wait for
four more months to come,
Like always you're incapable
I understand,
so I will come with a closure
that untie the bond
of void and nothingness.

Freeing you from
all your legal bounds.
I need nothing
Expect for my life back,
You have taken my will,
My freedom,
You've scarred my soul,
Never to mend and be whole.

But I don't blame you for anything
I was born with this fate
And I accept
I deserve this
You were jus' a medium
Fate brought in
But now escaping fate
Is my decision.

I mistaken you 

for my necessity

Someone I needed

to rely for certainty.

But you were my addiction

and I was a junkie

Realizing am sober now

I need to break 

a decade old habit.